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Cisco Ramon ([personal profile] thisismadfreaky) wrote in [community profile] entrancelogs2017-07-11 10:39 am

{Trying to pull ahead, I'm always chasing time

Who: Cisco Ramon & YOU
Where: Various
When: The rest of July
Rating: TBD will update for warnings.
Summary: Cisco is trying social things again. Sort of. Sometimes. With varied success?
The Story:

The last several weeks have been...a slow move toward progress. Cisco is still not great, maybe, but he's certainly improved from where he was a month ago. He's not relying so heavily on the presence of other people now, easing into more social things because even shaken at his worst, Cisco can only stand to isolate the way he has been for so long. He craves interactions with people, even if some part of him is still trying to convince him that he doesn't deserve it. That will be an uphill battle he'll be fighting for awhile to come yet. But he's at a place where he can push it aside and start compartmentalizing and move on. This isn't a new process, exactly, he's used that skill for a long time, but it became much more necessary as part of Team Flash. There is always another disaster waiting around the corner to prepare for, and people need them to be ready and 'on', always. It means their own problems don't always get dealt with, and their emotions get shoved aside, but people are saved because of it, so the bad outweighs the good.

The difference here, has been...he has had time to sit with everything that happened. Think it over, feel what he feels. And honestly? It helps. A lot. He's used the journaling techniques Cam i had taught him a lot, and sometimes that alone helps more than anything else. Just a stream of consciousness dropped into a notebook that no one else ever sees, or even knows about. The journal gets a little more use on days he finds messages scrawled across a mirror to tell him how worthless and pathetic he is. He hasn't responded to any of them, but words like that stick to him like glue and bury themselves into his skin. Even when he reminds himself it isn't true, the idea lingers in the back of his mind.

Slowly and carefully, Cisco is easing his way back into a normal routine of sorts, though. Nearly daily morning stops at the coffee shop have begun again. Sometimes he just grabs the coffee and carries on, other times he hangs around and reads or sketches ideas for things he might eventually get around to creating one day. When it feels safe to make things again, when the fear of what he might do with some of those things if they were to exist outside of the steel trap of his mind subsides to allow him to do more than sketch and scribble notes down on paper. He can be found in the kitchen on more than one occasion, making various recipes his grandmother taught him. Usually, he makes enough for extra if anyone wants to chow down or in the library, browsing in both fiction and non-fiction titles; sci-fi or engineering books, mostly. On a rare day or two, he might even be found in the music room, strumming a soft tune on a guitar.
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music room

[personal profile] naughty_nurse 2017-07-11 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Mikan, thanks to Mettaon, has been making little trips to the music room every once in a while. The purpose is to try and find a musical instrument to practice and play, but with so many options, it's been hard to pick one. Today as she heads there, she stops in the doorway when she hears the lovely tune.

She stays quiet, afraid to disturb him.
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[personal profile] naughty_nurse 2017-07-13 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Mikan nearly jumps, having been caught. "I'm sorry!" Comes out automatically, beginning to back up. "I didn't mean to interrupt you! I'll leave right away!"
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[personal profile] naughty_nurse 2017-07-15 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh..." Mikan wobbles a bit in the doorway, still unsure if she should go in or not. "Are you going to... keep practicing...?"

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Library

[personal profile] uncaging 2017-07-13 05:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Elizabeth has a stack of books in a bag slung over her shoulder, and is almost done choosing her reading material for the week. She's reaching up to get just one more book when her fingers brush against Cisco's, reaching for the same volume.

"Oh! Hello."
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[personal profile] uncaging 2017-07-15 09:48 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's right." She lowers her hand, gesturing for him to take the book as she figures she has plenty already. "And you're Cisco. I'd wondered how you were doing since ... since everything." She's still not exactly sure of everything that happened, but she knows it's partly his fault that she spent a week trapped on the Mirror side, something she still doesn't feel she's recovered from.
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[personal profile] uncaging 2017-07-16 08:39 pm (UTC)(link)
She glances down at the ground, already regretting pursuing this line of conversation, and nods gently. "I'm not sure there are many who weren't caught up in it. But it's done now," she adds quickly. "I don't hold it against anyone."
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library

[personal profile] sawny 2017-07-14 12:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Jamie's always been a sort of man who likes to be learned no matter what the subject and he's found that this place, this strange place they call Wonderland or whatever it is, has a lot of things in it that he doesna know and has never heard of. Claire's been as big a help as she can be, in her way, but Jamie has to get out and read and do things for himself to be able to commit them to memory.

He's gone to the library to find as many books as he can on this place and he's coming up short. He dinna ken how to even start finding out how this place works but at least there's towers and towers of books here that he's never read; he reaches for one at the same time as the other lad and gives him a smile.

"Sorry, ye can take it first. I can wait my turn."
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[personal profile] sawny 2017-07-15 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)

"Greek grammar is comforting to ye? Must be a scholar," Jamie says, taking the book off the shelf. Even still, when he pulls it down to get a better look, it turns out to be a novel instead of the grammar book he thought he'd been reaching for. This place just gets stranger and stranger the more he tries to figure it out. Doensa make any sense.

"I havena figured out how and why this place works the way it does. Ye think you're going for one thing and get something else instead."

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"No sense at all," Jamie says, looking at the title of the book and trying to make heads or tails of it. He knows what sheep are but as far as androids and electric and what they dream, he's lost. It's one of those things he thinks he'll have to have Claire explain to him, he thinks, and he makes himself a note to ask her when they get a chance to see one another at the end of the day.

"I'm Jamie. Jamie Fraser," he offers, extending a hand to shake the other's. He's still getting used to being in a place where he's got to give his name to everyone; in Scotland, most know the braw redhead by sight.

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[personal profile] morethan084 2017-07-15 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[The last time Daisy had been in the coffee shop with Cisco there, it hadn't actually been him. Somehow their timing had left them without seeing each other since that incident, one that Cisco wouldn't even remember from what she had learned to understand about Mirrors.

This time, however, they happened to be in there at the same time. She assumed she noticed him first as he hadn't been looking at her when she spotted him. She thought about leaving, but that would just make it worse than it already was. The last time she had seen the real him is when they started to work together, with the help of her powers he caught a glimpse into what her world back home was like. It was pretty interesting, and she had hoped it would help them figure out something about this place that hasn't been discovered yet. Except it got dropped like a hot potato once all of this stuff with the mirrors went down.

Picking up her coffee once it was ready, Daisy hovered for a moment before finally making her way over to where he was sitting.]


Hey. Is it cool if I sit here?
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[personal profile] morethan084 2017-07-16 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
[It was her own fault too, for not answering him. What happened to him wasn't his fault, it wasn't even him. And yet...

Yeah, this was a little awkward. She could say she's been busy dealing with other things which to a point was true, just as much as it was a lie too.]


Okay.

[It was an honest answer. Things weren't wonderful, but they weren't terrible either.]

How are things with you?

[Okay it was more than a little awkward.]
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[personal profile] morethan084 2017-07-17 06:46 am (UTC)(link)
[She knows what deflecting is when she sees it, hell she wrote the book on that. It leaves her feeling guilty for not reaching out to him before this, despite him having texted to her to try and do just that.

Daisy could pretend that she had no idea he texted her but that was even more messed up.]


Yeah. How's that going?

[It's meant to be a joke, but he could easily interrupt it as her being rude.]

I'm sorry I didn't reply to your messages.

[She didn't give any excuses either, because none of them would be good enough.]

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[personal profile] deathlessness 2017-07-17 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
[Freya takes her bowl of popcorn and settles on the couch next to Cisco, ready for their regular gathering of Disney movies and hanging out. It's just a little thing, but at least it gets Freya's head out of the witch craft for a little while.]

So you said this one is called "Toy Story"?
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[personal profile] deathlessness 2017-07-21 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[She nods once before settling back with her bowl of popcorn, waiting for the movie to start.]

Hence why it's a hit with children? Bringing their toys to life?