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Who: Seta Souji [

eatsyourscience] and Arisato Minato [

jivitadana]
Where: Sixth Floor, Room 100
When: Wednesday, May 24
Rating: PG for summoning experimentation and Persona talk
Summary: Souji and Minato figure out how to break the rules of Persona summoning, then proceed to discuss the future at home
The Story:

Once was more than enough. It hadn't even happened at home, and Minato thought perhaps he had taken it for granted or it didn't have a chance of happening at all, not with his friends around him who used the same piece of summoning equipment he did. He could've just borrowed one if he had to, though again, the issue never really came up for him.

But here? Minato only had one Evoker on him and when he did have a second one, he left it oh so conveniently by a mirror for someone on the other side to take. He knew that he needed one as well. Minato knew the feeling, that helpless feeling that he'd be unable to do anything in a proper fight or be unable to heal, the latter of which he worried the most about. What if someone needed him? He'd have his Personas, it was true, but they'd be out of reach. There was no point. He may as well not have had them at all. Not there was anything wrong with relying on his own skills and knowledge, but having his Personas was more than helpful in an emergency.

The inconvenience, he had to rid himself of the inconvenience so he wouldn't end up as an inconvenience to anyone else.

Thus Souji had offered to help Minato circumvent the whole using an Evoker method for summoning a Persona. They would need the space but also somewhere confined in case anything went wrong. Minato doubted that it would, but judging what happened the first time he summoned, he couldn't leave things to chance.

Plus there was something else to discuss: Personas. They needed to talk about the Personas themselves and what they meant now and then in the future. Just when Minato thought everything had been taken care of, the future decided it had had enough of peace and quiet. Apparently. He worried, if he could, where Souji would be in that future too and what he would be doing.

But first things first. With Souji's help, Minato had cleared the room as much as possible, moving a table off to the side along with the chairs, folding up the futon and putting it away, ensuring that Tefra and the bunny would be safe and out of any line of fire. Minato was concerned for Souji too if anything did go out of control, but Souji reassured him that it would be fine. Minato had to believe it and reign himself in as much as possible if things did get out of hand.

He wasn't quite sure where to start or how to begin. He ended up sitting on the floor in front of Souji, taking a breath in then out. His Evoker was in its holster, but he had to resist going for it. They needed to start somewhere, somehow, just straight up, almost like he had to go through withdrawals away from his summoning device. Maybe less painful? Who knew.

"... Ideas?" Minato had a couple of those, he thought. He may as well try anything right now.

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"Why me?"

Souji could understand worrying about the future--he did too, now that he knew there was another threat that this new group of Persona users was facing, whatever it was. None of them had mentioned there being one, but he was sure there would be. It was just a hunch.

"You're there. I want you to be okay."

Minato believed he would be there too with Souji. But what if he weren't? He only wanted Souji to be happy in that future, whatever was happening. He just worried.

"I think I will be."

Although the world might be in danger again, he thought it would be okay. He didn't know any of the Phantom Thieves well enough to be able to say for sure what they could or couldn't accomplish, but he knew that if SEES and the Investigation Team had been able to do it, then a third group should be able to do it, too.

"The future...I think it's really bright."

Minato could only hope that it was. He leaned now against Souji, wishing that he could be a part of that future for sure too.

"There's something else I have to tell you."

He reached to hold onto Souji's hand. He didn't know what it meant either, but Souji had to know. He deserved to know.

"I saw Kurusu's Mirror. He had a Persona that was red... and looked like Izanagi."

Souji almost pulled away from Minato in surprise when he heard that. As it was, he looked at Minato as though he had to have heard wrong.

"...Red."

Carefully, he disengaged from Minato and got up to go to his desk. Once there, he found the set of cards he'd been given a long time ago and flipped through it, his motions a bit sharp. When he returned, he had a single card in his hand. He held it up to show Minato the Persona on the face side of the card.

"Like this?" His voice was quiet, but hard.

Minato was just as surprised, his eyes widening at Souji's sudden, quick, almost frantic movements. He blinked when he saw the image on the card.

He nodded. It was exactly like that. It was that Persona, no mistake about it. The skills on it didn't matter. Skills changed all the time. But the image of that Persona was unmistakable.

"... I'm sorry."

Souji's hand clenched, though he managed to keep himself from crumpling the card up. After a second he returned to the desk to put the cards away.

"That shouldn't be possible."

For as long as he had known Souji, Minato had never seen him like this. During that Hell event, he saw Souji frustrated, tired, yet sharp, unlike his neutral yet warm presence. But here? Now it was like a slow fire, sparking on its own but too close to a pool of gasoline.

"Souji..."

Minato got his feet to follow Souji over to the desk, his hand reaching to hold onto Souji's.

"Tell me what's wrong."

Souji flinched, but then held onto Minato's hand. He kept his eyes on his desk.

"That Persona belongs to someone else."

Minato almost flinched too but stayed where he was, keeping Souji anchored. He nodded then lowered his head a bit. It wasn't the same as him sharing the same Personas as Souji. Their souls were too close to each other for it to be otherwise.

But this Persona? Even Minato couldn't touch it or be anywhere close or near it. If there were ever a time when he was so far away from Souji, it was now, despite how related Orpheus and Izanagi were.

He squeezed Souji's hand a little tighter. "Tell me."

"He's Adachi's."

Souji wasn't sure he'd call Adachi a friend, but he had a bond with him that couldn't be broken. Even if he'd been given the power to use Magatsu Izanagi through that link, he never had. Magatsu Izanagi didn't belong to him.

Minato wrapped his arms around Souji, still wanting to anchor him to prevent Souji from going too far away from him too.

Having someone else's Persona wasn't the same. Minato had a version of Susano-O that Souji hadn't seen before and he knew Souji didn't have that Persona since it belonged to someone else. But this wasn't the same.

"I'm sorry. Maybe... the future is more linked to us than we thought."

Not that that was comforting at all. But how does one take back a part of someone else's soul? It was what awakened in that other wild card and there wasn't anything they could do about it now, even if they could go back to the Velvet Room and ask anyone in there about it.

It's all wrong. But Souji will have to live with that. It's not something he can change, even if it makes him...

He doesn't want to think that he's angry, but that's probably what this feeling is. But it's pointless to be angry about it.

"I expected some of our Personas to be the same."

But not anything like this. This wasn't like Yousuke having a totally different version of Susano-O from the one Minato had. This wasn't like that at all. This was an exact replica, from what Souji could tell.

But Minato knew not like this. This wasn't the same. It was like stealing, but maybe that's what a thief did. Or maybe that group wasn't even from the world or universe as they were. How could they even tell if they were?

"If I had that Persona and you found out, how would you feel?"

He hadn't let go of Souji, looking up at him and hoping he could help calm the storm inside of him.

Souji didn't think he could blame Akira for any of it. If anything, he probably had Igor and the Velvet Room to blame. But that didn't make it any better.

He let out a breath and shook his head. "The same, I think."

He'd known Minato for a long time, but if, shortly after meeting him, something like this had happened, he couldn't say that he'd be able to just let it go. Even if now, Minato suddenly acquired a Persona like this, he couldn't say he'd be okay with it.

"There's nothing I can do about it."

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There wasn't anything any of them could do about it. Whether Minato had that Persona or Akira did, or anyone before Minato or after Akira did, it didn't matter. Minato wished there was something that they could do. But he was doing that thing that he was good at doing and that was wishful thinking.

"It's okay if you're upset. Let it out if you have to."

They couldn't do anything about that Persona. But Souji could instead react to it as much as he wanted. Minato would be here for Souji no matter what he did.

It would be a waste of energy to be more demonstrative than he had been already, Souji thought. Besides, allowing himself to be angry would likely make it difficult to get along with Akira afterward, even if it was his Mirror that had the Persona. If his Mirror had it, than it meant that Akira had at least had access to it. It made him wonder if there were others he'd been able to fuse that belonged to him or Minato or someone they knew.

"It's okay. Let's sit back down." Souji slid the deck of cards back into the draw there they lived.

Minato made a soft, affirmative sound and sat back down on the bed with Souji. He held onto Souji's hand, one hand clasping it and the other on top. Souji had been upset, more than Minato had seen before, and it hurt. He knew it had to hurt Souji even more.

He stayed in that silence with Souji, like letting it sink in and down, having it settle all around them, like a blanket. It might help right everything so they could step back a bit and look at where they were, then go from there.

Souji looked over at him.

"How do you feel now?" He must have still been tired.

Even if Minato was holding onto Souji's hand, Minato felt like he was still so far away from him. It didn't matter if he was tired or not. There was something else... And Minato knew what it was. If he could be so arrogant, he thought he knew this trick.

"Why are you deflecting?" Minato looked at their hands. "... Why can't I do something for you for once?"

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Surprised dismay painted Souji's face and he stared at Minato. Was that what he was doing? He'd only meant to get his mind away from the topic that was bothering him.

"...I didn't mean to."

"You don't have to be alone when you're upset."

Minato still hadn't looked up at Souji, still seeing how their hands were clasped. He hadn't done anything yet to help Souji not feel upset or bothered by it either, but he just wanted that chance to do so.

Souji had helped Minato in so many other ways that Minato tried to do everything he could for him in return. It only seemed like Souji closed his heart off or took it somewhere far away that Minato couldn't get to, and maybe that was his prerogative. Minato though didn't want to think that he was being shut out by the person he loved.

Souji let out a breath and leaned his forehead against Minato's. He knew what he had here.

"I'm not. I have you here with me."

Minato closed his eyes and focused on the warmth there where they made that intimate contact and on Souji's voice.

"Wherever you go, take me with you."

He almost, almost asked if he should leave. If Souji needed the time to himself, then Minato just had to understand that too. As intertwined their lives were and could be, Minato wondered if there were some things that he would never know, or the more he thought he understood Souji, the more he realized that maybe he never could.

Souji raised a hand and ran his fingers through Minato's hair once.

"I'm not trying to hide anything from you. I'm doing the only thing I know how to do."

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