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entrancelogs2017-05-24 04:02 pm
jivitadana) wrote in entrancelogs2017-05-24 04:02 pm
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Who: Seta Souji [eatsyourscience] and Arisato Minato [jivitadana]
Where: Sixth Floor, Room 100
When: Wednesday, May 24
Rating: PG for summoning experimentation and Persona talk
Summary: Souji and Minato figure out how to break the rules of Persona summoning, then proceed to discuss the future at home
The Story:
Once was more than enough. It hadn't even happened at home, and Minato thought perhaps he had taken it for granted or it didn't have a chance of happening at all, not with his friends around him who used the same piece of summoning equipment he did. He could've just borrowed one if he had to, though again, the issue never really came up for him.
But here? Minato only had one Evoker on him and when he did have a second one, he left it oh so conveniently by a mirror for someone on the other side to take. He knew that he needed one as well. Minato knew the feeling, that helpless feeling that he'd be unable to do anything in a proper fight or be unable to heal, the latter of which he worried the most about. What if someone needed him? He'd have his Personas, it was true, but they'd be out of reach. There was no point. He may as well not have had them at all. Not there was anything wrong with relying on his own skills and knowledge, but having his Personas was more than helpful in an emergency.
The inconvenience, he had to rid himself of the inconvenience so he wouldn't end up as an inconvenience to anyone else.
Thus Souji had offered to help Minato circumvent the whole using an Evoker method for summoning a Persona. They would need the space but also somewhere confined in case anything went wrong. Minato doubted that it would, but judging what happened the first time he summoned, he couldn't leave things to chance.
Plus there was something else to discuss: Personas. They needed to talk about the Personas themselves and what they meant now and then in the future. Just when Minato thought everything had been taken care of, the future decided it had had enough of peace and quiet. Apparently. He worried, if he could, where Souji would be in that future too and what he would be doing.
But first things first. With Souji's help, Minato had cleared the room as much as possible, moving a table off to the side along with the chairs, folding up the futon and putting it away, ensuring that Tefra and the bunny would be safe and out of any line of fire. Minato was concerned for Souji too if anything did go out of control, but Souji reassured him that it would be fine. Minato had to believe it and reign himself in as much as possible if things did get out of hand.
He wasn't quite sure where to start or how to begin. He ended up sitting on the floor in front of Souji, taking a breath in then out. His Evoker was in its holster, but he had to resist going for it. They needed to start somewhere, somehow, just straight up, almost like he had to go through withdrawals away from his summoning device. Maybe less painful? Who knew.
"... Ideas?" Minato had a couple of those, he thought. He may as well try anything right now.
eatsyourscience] and Arisato Minato [jivitadana]Where: Sixth Floor, Room 100
When: Wednesday, May 24
Rating: PG for summoning experimentation and Persona talk
Summary: Souji and Minato figure out how to break the rules of Persona summoning, then proceed to discuss the future at home
The Story:
Once was more than enough. It hadn't even happened at home, and Minato thought perhaps he had taken it for granted or it didn't have a chance of happening at all, not with his friends around him who used the same piece of summoning equipment he did. He could've just borrowed one if he had to, though again, the issue never really came up for him.
But here? Minato only had one Evoker on him and when he did have a second one, he left it oh so conveniently by a mirror for someone on the other side to take. He knew that he needed one as well. Minato knew the feeling, that helpless feeling that he'd be unable to do anything in a proper fight or be unable to heal, the latter of which he worried the most about. What if someone needed him? He'd have his Personas, it was true, but they'd be out of reach. There was no point. He may as well not have had them at all. Not there was anything wrong with relying on his own skills and knowledge, but having his Personas was more than helpful in an emergency.
The inconvenience, he had to rid himself of the inconvenience so he wouldn't end up as an inconvenience to anyone else.
Thus Souji had offered to help Minato circumvent the whole using an Evoker method for summoning a Persona. They would need the space but also somewhere confined in case anything went wrong. Minato doubted that it would, but judging what happened the first time he summoned, he couldn't leave things to chance.
Plus there was something else to discuss: Personas. They needed to talk about the Personas themselves and what they meant now and then in the future. Just when Minato thought everything had been taken care of, the future decided it had had enough of peace and quiet. Apparently. He worried, if he could, where Souji would be in that future too and what he would be doing.
But first things first. With Souji's help, Minato had cleared the room as much as possible, moving a table off to the side along with the chairs, folding up the futon and putting it away, ensuring that Tefra and the bunny would be safe and out of any line of fire. Minato was concerned for Souji too if anything did go out of control, but Souji reassured him that it would be fine. Minato had to believe it and reign himself in as much as possible if things did get out of hand.
He wasn't quite sure where to start or how to begin. He ended up sitting on the floor in front of Souji, taking a breath in then out. His Evoker was in its holster, but he had to resist going for it. They needed to start somewhere, somehow, just straight up, almost like he had to go through withdrawals away from his summoning device. Maybe less painful? Who knew.
"... Ideas?" Minato had a couple of those, he thought. He may as well try anything right now.
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But this Persona? Even Minato couldn't touch it or be anywhere close or near it. If there were ever a time when he was so far away from Souji, it was now, despite how related Orpheus and Izanagi were.
He squeezed Souji's hand a little tighter. "Tell me."
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Souji wasn't sure he'd call Adachi a friend, but he had a bond with him that couldn't be broken. Even if he'd been given the power to use Magatsu Izanagi through that link, he never had. Magatsu Izanagi didn't belong to him.
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Having someone else's Persona wasn't the same. Minato had a version of Susano-O that Souji hadn't seen before and he knew Souji didn't have that Persona since it belonged to someone else. But this wasn't the same.
"I'm sorry. Maybe... the future is more linked to us than we thought."
Not that that was comforting at all. But how does one take back a part of someone else's soul? It was what awakened in that other wild card and there wasn't anything they could do about it now, even if they could go back to the Velvet Room and ask anyone in there about it.
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He doesn't want to think that he's angry, but that's probably what this feeling is. But it's pointless to be angry about it.
"I expected some of our Personas to be the same."
But not anything like this. This wasn't like Yousuke having a totally different version of Susano-O from the one Minato had. This wasn't like that at all. This was an exact replica, from what Souji could tell.
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"If I had that Persona and you found out, how would you feel?"
He hadn't let go of Souji, looking up at him and hoping he could help calm the storm inside of him.
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He let out a breath and shook his head. "The same, I think."
He'd known Minato for a long time, but if, shortly after meeting him, something like this had happened, he couldn't say that he'd be able to just let it go. Even if now, Minato suddenly acquired a Persona like this, he couldn't say he'd be okay with it.
"There's nothing I can do about it."
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"It's okay if you're upset. Let it out if you have to."
They couldn't do anything about that Persona. But Souji could instead react to it as much as he wanted. Minato would be here for Souji no matter what he did.
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"It's okay. Let's sit back down." Souji slid the deck of cards back into the draw there they lived.
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He stayed in that silence with Souji, like letting it sink in and down, having it settle all around them, like a blanket. It might help right everything so they could step back a bit and look at where they were, then go from there.
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"How do you feel now?" He must have still been tired.
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"Why are you deflecting?" Minato looked at their hands. "... Why can't I do something for you for once?"
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"...I didn't mean to."
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Minato still hadn't looked up at Souji, still seeing how their hands were clasped. He hadn't done anything yet to help Souji not feel upset or bothered by it either, but he just wanted that chance to do so.
Souji had helped Minato in so many other ways that Minato tried to do everything he could for him in return. It only seemed like Souji closed his heart off or took it somewhere far away that Minato couldn't get to, and maybe that was his prerogative. Minato though didn't want to think that he was being shut out by the person he loved.
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"I'm not. I have you here with me."
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"Wherever you go, take me with you."
He almost, almost asked if he should leave. If Souji needed the time to himself, then Minato just had to understand that too. As intertwined their lives were and could be, Minato wondered if there were some things that he would never know, or the more he thought he understood Souji, the more he realized that maybe he never could.
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"I'm not trying to hide anything from you. I'm doing the only thing I know how to do."
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"It was like you moved on when you weren't ready to."
He thought Souji had this habit of holding everything inside and then bearing its weight, not ever letting any of it go when he could or should.
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"Being ready isn't a factor. It would be a waste to keep being upset over it when there are more important things to think about."
What those things were, the thought, was obvious.
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"Okay."
He pulled Souji down onto the bed with him, slowly though and hugged him again.
"... I don't want to hide anything from you either."
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"I don't think you do."
Souji trusted Minato in that. He trusted Minato to tell him things--but he respected Minato's right to keep things private as well. He didn't want Minato to feel obligated to tell him anything he didn't want to.
"I trust you."
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If Souji were far away from him, Minato would have to go after him then. He had to reassure himself though that Souji wouldn't be far from him too long. Minato would keep the door to his heart open too and would always let Souji in.
"You're so good to me that I wish I could be the same way to you."
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He felt like Minato was always there, when most other people weren't.
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Minato felt like he'd said that before. He thought he was repeating himself, but it bore repeating because he didn't know if he'd ever stop feeling that way, even if he knew that he should. Souji was everything to him and Minato wanted to show him that he was.
But then he felt so selfish too. He realized that while he did that, that maybe he wanted it to be acknowledged, that he was trying so hard.
... He never felt like that before. He only did things because he knew he should or thought he should, knew that it was right. But he never wanted anything in return for it, did he?
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Souji pulled away slightly so that he could look Minato in the face, cupping Minato's face in both hands.
"You are enough for me. More than enough. Just like you are."
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He couldn't help but smile though, and a very soft, almost inaudible laugh left him.
"How do you know exactly what to say and when?"
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