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entrancelogs2018-02-10 11:15 pm
deadshapes) wrote in entrancelogs2018-02-10 11:15 pm
[OPEN] forgot what i was losing my mind about
Who: Mae and YOU
Where: Around the Mansion and grounds
When: 2/9-2/11
Rating: PG-13 for potential violence and mental health issues
Summary: Mae is about fifteen, fresh off The Incident, where she attacked and almost killed a fellow student. Now she's stuck in a world with strange looking people and dinosaurs. She's pretty sure she's gone insane.
The Story:
A: (kitchen) woke up on the wrong side of reality
It's official, then. Everyone was right. Mae Borowski is insane.
She's in an enormous house she's never been to before, and everyone around her doesn't look--normal. The people she's seen are all tall, hairless creatures. She's pretty sure they're still people, since they're wearing clothes and talking, but they're not normal. Maybe aliens. They're not actual aliens, she's sure. It's just her mind making them look that way. So she tries not to look at them too much, because if she stares then people will start asking what's wrong.
There's also dinosaurs outside. She knows plenty about dinosaurs. She had like a thousand plastic dinosaurs as a kid.
So this is what insanity is like. It's weird. She doesn't really feel crazy. She just kind of feels lost and numb, and like she's about three inches to the left of her own body. Everything's just...sort of floaty.
She hides out in her room for most of the first day, but eventually she gets up the courage to go exploring. Might as well explore this insane asylum or whatever it is. Where are all the doctors?
She ends up in the kitchen, where she finds a box of off-brand Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Then she tucks herself into a corner of the kitchen and just starts eating out of the box, staring into space and trying not to think too hard about what's happening. She's got a journal and pen with her and occasionally jots something down.
B: (roof) there's a madness that's just coursing right through me
Later on, she starts getting the hang for how this crazy fever dream of hers is going to work. It's all magic-based or whatever, and the closets have infinite resources. Junk food, blankets, baseball bats, you name it. She started to get a bat out of the closet, then thought against it. No weapons. Bad idea. She might hurt someone again.
Instead, she starts gathering a whole bunch of small drinking glasses and carries them up to the roof. The roof is a bit dangerous, considering there's like...pteradactyls and shit. They leave her alone once they realize what she's doing, though. Mae just sort of starts tossing the glasses and letting them smash onto the roof. Once she's done with one batch, she sweeps up the broken glass--she doesn't want to be that guy who leaves broken glass everywhere--and then starts it all over again.
It's cathartic. It's helping.
Where: Around the Mansion and grounds
When: 2/9-2/11
Rating: PG-13 for potential violence and mental health issues
Summary: Mae is about fifteen, fresh off The Incident, where she attacked and almost killed a fellow student. Now she's stuck in a world with strange looking people and dinosaurs. She's pretty sure she's gone insane.
The Story:
A: (kitchen) woke up on the wrong side of reality
It's official, then. Everyone was right. Mae Borowski is insane.
She's in an enormous house she's never been to before, and everyone around her doesn't look--normal. The people she's seen are all tall, hairless creatures. She's pretty sure they're still people, since they're wearing clothes and talking, but they're not normal. Maybe aliens. They're not actual aliens, she's sure. It's just her mind making them look that way. So she tries not to look at them too much, because if she stares then people will start asking what's wrong.
There's also dinosaurs outside. She knows plenty about dinosaurs. She had like a thousand plastic dinosaurs as a kid.
So this is what insanity is like. It's weird. She doesn't really feel crazy. She just kind of feels lost and numb, and like she's about three inches to the left of her own body. Everything's just...sort of floaty.
She hides out in her room for most of the first day, but eventually she gets up the courage to go exploring. Might as well explore this insane asylum or whatever it is. Where are all the doctors?
She ends up in the kitchen, where she finds a box of off-brand Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Then she tucks herself into a corner of the kitchen and just starts eating out of the box, staring into space and trying not to think too hard about what's happening. She's got a journal and pen with her and occasionally jots something down.
B: (roof) there's a madness that's just coursing right through me
Later on, she starts getting the hang for how this crazy fever dream of hers is going to work. It's all magic-based or whatever, and the closets have infinite resources. Junk food, blankets, baseball bats, you name it. She started to get a bat out of the closet, then thought against it. No weapons. Bad idea. She might hurt someone again.
Instead, she starts gathering a whole bunch of small drinking glasses and carries them up to the roof. The roof is a bit dangerous, considering there's like...pteradactyls and shit. They leave her alone once they realize what she's doing, though. Mae just sort of starts tossing the glasses and letting them smash onto the roof. Once she's done with one batch, she sweeps up the broken glass--she doesn't want to be that guy who leaves broken glass everywhere--and then starts it all over again.
It's cathartic. It's helping.
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Makes sense. Most people don't get their kicks from breaking shit. That's what bratty, rebellious teenagers who are bored out of their minds do.
So, okay. Maybe most people at some point in their lives.
She gives him a tentative look at that last part.
"Really?"
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Though, his life is really just a series of varying low points.
"Not recently, I mean. Definitely at your age," he says, picking up another glass cup and feeling the weight in his palm. "Which makes me sound old, but mostly it just means now I'll be shot up with sedatives."
Which still happens, but then, he's never really in control when he's breaking something these days. He used to think he was just having a psychotic break, but now it's... apparently just his powers. Like he always thought before the cyclic journey of mental health got to him. Doesn't feel good to be sort of proven right.
"But yeah. A lot of things I see are... sort of unbelievable. And then sometimes I look around and I realize I don't know what I was just doing. It's hard to believe I'm always... solid. I dunno if that makes sense. It doesn't sound like it makes sense."
It's the easiest way he can explain his specific brand of crazy and/or superpowers without coming right out and calling it what it probably is.
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"Oh. So it's like, real for you. This whole hospital thing."
She thinks that probably won't make sense, so she clears her throat.
"I mean, when I first...woke up here? I thought for sure it was a hospital and I'd been sent away. And, I'm not entirely convinced that's not the case yet? I dunno."
She could still just be hallucinating all of this. The only thing that feels real right now is the weight of the glass, and the sound it makes when it shatters.
"No, yeah. That makes sense. Solid. Like--like, feeling like you're made of gas and you're kinda floating. Like you're a cloud. Like that, right?"
She pauses for a moment, then throws a glass again.
"Um, I've never actually met anyone who like...understood that. I keep trying to explain it and people just--look at me weird."