[ She snorts. It's an unladylike, even undignified sound, and she quickly turns it into a soft huff. ] Yeah. That's the strange part.
[ She hugs her knees to her chest. When she speaks again, it's cautious, halting. ] I wouldn't say I'm sharp. I didn't notice Hydra had infiltrated SHIELD until it was too late. I had no idea. I like to think I'm better now, but... [ She shrugs. She still feels like she misses things. Misses far too much. ] There's no way someone who didn't notice something that big can catch everything, you know?
[ She lets her head roll along the wall so she can look at him. Before he has time to pity her - because she doesn't want pity, she just wants to do better, to be better - she speaks again. ] I'm sorry there isn't someone here to talk to who knows what they're doing. There's probably a bunch of things to say that would help. All I can do is tell you that it does suck. [ She can't imagine it's going to help much. It's not going to undo his death, it's not going to take away the memory.
She peters out. Comforting people isn't in her skillset. She can name scores of people who are better suited to it than she is.
She can't just... not try, though. This is Bucky. She has to try. ]
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[ She hugs her knees to her chest. When she speaks again, it's cautious, halting. ] I wouldn't say I'm sharp. I didn't notice Hydra had infiltrated SHIELD until it was too late. I had no idea. I like to think I'm better now, but... [ She shrugs. She still feels like she misses things. Misses far too much. ] There's no way someone who didn't notice something that big can catch everything, you know?
[ She lets her head roll along the wall so she can look at him. Before he has time to pity her - because she doesn't want pity, she just wants to do better, to be better - she speaks again. ] I'm sorry there isn't someone here to talk to who knows what they're doing. There's probably a bunch of things to say that would help. All I can do is tell you that it does suck. [ She can't imagine it's going to help much. It's not going to undo his death, it's not going to take away the memory.
She peters out. Comforting people isn't in her skillset. She can name scores of people who are better suited to it than she is.
She can't just... not try, though. This is Bucky. She has to try. ]
Would some pie help?