going to see her, that is. after five loops of the same memories, of his mother's cries and the chilling silence that came after, he put on the suit and he went for a flight. other people jog their feelings away, tony stark flies. only he had to check. maybe because he spent an hour watching the death of his parents, maybe because she's the closest thing to a family he has left. especially here.
he went to check and it was a stupid decision.
he always knew about rogers and everything else, he just assumed. he didn't need it to see it though. it's one thing feeling for her. it's another feeling for steve, seeing his loss in person.
maybe that's why he never dated. maybe that's why he chose barnes' friendship over tony's and he never.
told him. he never told him. angry, he nearly smashed his own window open.
feeling sorry for the same person whose betrayal played in his bedroom.
he's frozen in place, eyes focused on the screen. he wants to see her. he nudges peggy aside, just in time to see his mother on the screen, her cough and her tears and then, it's all silent.
he knows what comes next by heart. ]
yeah. ok.
[ he looks around, he tries to push himself to his feet. he never told her. he didn't want her to know, either but if they stay, she'll found out.
he has seconds to go. it might be a futile attempt, too, but he tries anyway. ]
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going to see her, that is. after five loops of the same memories, of his mother's cries and the chilling silence that came after, he put on the suit and he went for a flight. other people jog their feelings away, tony stark flies. only he had to check. maybe because he spent an hour watching the death of his parents, maybe because she's the closest thing to a family he has left. especially here.
he went to check and it was a stupid decision.
he always knew about rogers and everything else, he just assumed. he didn't need it to see it though. it's one thing feeling for her. it's another feeling for steve, seeing his loss in person.
maybe that's why he never dated. maybe that's why he chose barnes' friendship over tony's and he never.
told him. he never told him. angry, he nearly smashed his own window open.
feeling sorry for the same person whose betrayal played in his bedroom.
he's frozen in place, eyes focused on the screen. he wants to see her. he nudges peggy aside, just in time to see his mother on the screen, her cough and her tears and then, it's all silent.
he knows what comes next by heart. ]
yeah. ok.
[ he looks around, he tries to push himself to his feet. he never told her. he didn't want her to know, either but if they stay, she'll found out.
he has seconds to go. it might be a futile attempt, too, but he tries anyway. ]
you go. go. I'm behind you.