( kon judges him with a shoulder, and jon takes it as the perfect opportunity to slip under his arm and shove right up against him. this is what kon gets for being nice and considerate: an overly clingy kid pressing up against him. he nods his head, even if the words that come out of his mouth don't quite match a "yes". )

I'm mad. ( still doesn't match the tears, but. ) I don't think I'll ever forgive them for lying to me my whole life. ( keeping him from ever meeting anyone in their family, not telling him anything about who his mother or father really were. who he was supposed to be. ) But I miss them a lot. I miss Mom's pies, her voice, her hugs. Her really weird habit of kissing me all over my face, even if it was super gross. I miss Dad picking me up and throwing me around like I didn't weigh anything, all his dumb speeches--how much more brave I felt, just knowing he'd always be there for me no matter what but now he isn't and--

It's kinda dumb.