[It's difficult to read the text through blurry tears, but she rubs her eyes hard, hiccuping in-between her sobs.]

I-It was an event! Like the event that's happening now! That time... everyone's feelings... their innermost deepest feelings... They got boosted! Lazy people could barely move... Happy people couldn't stop partying, and that... and that...

[She chokes, her hands to her face.]

Deep down, no matter how hard I fight it, that's how I feel... I want to be useful, I want attention, so badly, so so so badly... At that time, I... I felt so useless, that no one needed me... s-so I thought if I hurt people... they'd need me to take care of them...