Hot chocolate for two then. He digs out a new pot, setting it on the stove. He wonders if just using fire magic would be enough... his magic isn't particularly strong anymore. He lifts his head as Chara speaks, tilting his head to the side.
"I... don't remember telling you that."
Not the right timeline, not that Asriel would know. Everything Asriel's learned about Chara and Frisk, and the monsters here hinted that there was more than one timeline. How could there not be? He's created so many of them that even he started to lose count of what he did and when. He doesn't really want to think of the implications of what that could mean. They're all here. They're all alive. That... should be enough to make him happy.
But...
He's quiet a moment, hoping that focusing on making hot chocolate will keep him from opening his mouth. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen either.
"... But yeah, I did. It wasn't something that you taught me, I just... I couldn't feel anything. I could still feel anger and fear, things like that, but the really important things - like love, I couldn't feel it at all.
And you were gone. I couldn't... I couldn't keep going, not when you were gone, but I was somehow still alive.
But... haha, I guess it turned out I wanted to live more than I thought I did. At the very least, I was too scared to die."
He doesn't want to talk about this. This is such an awful thing to talk about and he just won't shut up.
"Frisk told me a little about the other Asriel that was here before. I asked them if that Asriel was happy here and... they didn't really have an answer for me."
He can't imagine trying to kill himself because of Chara. Never Chara. But he doesn't deserve to be here. And the longer he stays, the harder it's going to be to leave. But he needs to go back, because it's going to hurt so much worse the longer he stays.
"That Asriel... wasn't a very happy person, was he?"
suicide cw
"I... don't remember telling you that."
Not the right timeline, not that Asriel would know. Everything Asriel's learned about Chara and Frisk, and the monsters here hinted that there was more than one timeline. How could there not be? He's created so many of them that even he started to lose count of what he did and when. He doesn't really want to think of the implications of what that could mean. They're all here. They're all alive. That... should be enough to make him happy.
But...
He's quiet a moment, hoping that focusing on making hot chocolate will keep him from opening his mouth. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen either.
"... But yeah, I did. It wasn't something that you taught me, I just... I couldn't feel anything. I could still feel anger and fear, things like that, but the really important things - like love, I couldn't feel it at all.
And you were gone. I couldn't... I couldn't keep going, not when you were gone, but I was somehow still alive.
But... haha, I guess it turned out I wanted to live more than I thought I did. At the very least, I was too scared to die."
He doesn't want to talk about this. This is such an awful thing to talk about and he just won't shut up.
"Frisk told me a little about the other Asriel that was here before. I asked them if that Asriel was happy here and... they didn't really have an answer for me."
He can't imagine trying to kill himself because of Chara. Never Chara. But he doesn't deserve to be here. And the longer he stays, the harder it's going to be to leave. But he needs to go back, because it's going to hurt so much worse the longer he stays.
"That Asriel... wasn't a very happy person, was he?"