"you don't have to forgive me. you're allowed to tell me you can't. you're allowed to tell me to just get lost. you're allowed to tell me--anything. and whatever you say, i won't get mad. i just--i just don't know what you want from me. and i'm too scared to guess. i'm too scared of making it worse for you."
He scrubs at his face with both hands.
"all i want--all i want anymore is for you to be happy and safe. whatever that means. i want you to have a chance to--recover, grow up. i just don't know what--what my role is in that. if there is one at all. i don't know what to do, kid, so i'm asking. please. i'm not trying to guilt you, i'm not trying to manipulate you into some, some kind of perfect answer. i won't hate you. i can't. you're family."
It just slips out, unadorned, and god, that makes things so, so much worse.
"i just want to help, if i can. i just want to know if there's--hope."
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He scrubs at his face with both hands.
"all i want--all i want anymore is for you to be happy and safe. whatever that means. i want you to have a chance to--recover, grow up. i just don't know what--what my role is in that. if there is one at all. i don't know what to do, kid, so i'm asking. please. i'm not trying to guilt you, i'm not trying to manipulate you into some, some kind of perfect answer. i won't hate you. i can't. you're family."
It just slips out, unadorned, and god, that makes things so, so much worse.
"i just want to help, if i can. i just want to know if there's--hope."