[ She's made herself forget, really; pushed it down, tried to force herself away from how completely perfect being with him felt.
Chloe had started with so much for hope for what had started between them, and having it dashed, erased so effortlessly by his leaving had wounded her in ways she'd never experienced in a relationship before. Her marriage to Dan had faded slowly like a sun-bleached photograph, so subtle that she had already largely grieved for what she'd lost by the time it was completely gone.
What happened with Lucifer didn't compare. It had been fresh and new, and filled her with hope only to be wrenched from her for reasons she still didn't have answers for. In a way, she knows one day he'll come back... But she also knows it won't be in the way they have found each other in Wonderland. Chloe has already come to terms with the fact that, at home, that chapter has been closed.
It's different here, though. Maybe, for however long they are trapped in this horrible place, she can have what she thought she'd lost forever. ]
I wanted to forget. [ She winces, wishing there was some way to hold back, but it feels impossible. ] Being here with you, knowing what happens at home... I didn't want to take that risk. I don't want to lose you again. I... have no idea why I'm telling you all of this.
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[ She's made herself forget, really; pushed it down, tried to force herself away from how completely perfect being with him felt.
Chloe had started with so much for hope for what had started between them, and having it dashed, erased so effortlessly by his leaving had wounded her in ways she'd never experienced in a relationship before. Her marriage to Dan had faded slowly like a sun-bleached photograph, so subtle that she had already largely grieved for what she'd lost by the time it was completely gone.
What happened with Lucifer didn't compare. It had been fresh and new, and filled her with hope only to be wrenched from her for reasons she still didn't have answers for. In a way, she knows one day he'll come back... But she also knows it won't be in the way they have found each other in Wonderland. Chloe has already come to terms with the fact that, at home, that chapter has been closed.
It's different here, though. Maybe, for however long they are trapped in this horrible place, she can have what she thought she'd lost forever. ]
I wanted to forget. [ She winces, wishing there was some way to hold back, but it feels impossible. ] Being here with you, knowing what happens at home... I didn't want to take that risk. I don't want to lose you again. I... have no idea why I'm telling you all of this.