[ The palm on Mondo's shoulder is warm and reassuring, but all the more he feels how undeserving he is of all these kindness Jon's generously pouring on him. He shakes his head firmly. Unlike the first time he revealed this to Ishimaru, this time round, he doesn't intend to villianise himself. He just wants Jon to accept that yes, he's fucked up. He's done something he could never take back. ]
No, it's my fault. I was a coward who wasn't able to overcome my weakness. [ Probably still is. ] I didn't want anyone to know that I couldn't hold my own. I let everythin' to get into my head, and... I made Fujisaki pay for it.
[ Goddammit. Just thinking about it again makes him livid. Fujisaki was the Super High School Level Programmer who could've changed the world with his skills. What could Mondo do with his? And at this point it means nothing because he's... dead, too. ]
...In that school, there was a rule. If you killed someone, you could get outta there, but only if you won the class trial. They held a trial after every murder to find the culprit. If I won that time, the rest of them would be executed, but I lost, so...
[ His words trail off, knowing he didn't need to specify. ]
Thinking about it now, though, I'm glad I lost. At that state, I doubt I can do somethin' good out there. Fujisaki and the rest would just die for nothin'.
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No, it's my fault. I was a coward who wasn't able to overcome my weakness. [ Probably still is. ] I didn't want anyone to know that I couldn't hold my own. I let everythin' to get into my head, and... I made Fujisaki pay for it.
[ Goddammit. Just thinking about it again makes him livid. Fujisaki was the Super High School Level Programmer who could've changed the world with his skills. What could Mondo do with his? And at this point it means nothing because he's... dead, too. ]
...In that school, there was a rule. If you killed someone, you could get outta there, but only if you won the class trial. They held a trial after every murder to find the culprit. If I won that time, the rest of them would be executed, but I lost, so...
[ His words trail off, knowing he didn't need to specify. ]
Thinking about it now, though, I'm glad I lost. At that state, I doubt I can do somethin' good out there. Fujisaki and the rest would just die for nothin'.