[ ...it's certainly an unwelcome direction in peggy's eyes, too. worse yet she feels a stab of guilt and betrayal (her own) that she should spill steve's personal details to anyone. as hurt as she'd been by the revelation, it's never been her desire to crucify him for it.
it's a tricky, knee-jerk thought. one born of the understanding that what he'd told her would see him tarred and feathered and worse, back home. her heart still hasn't caught up to the fact that such a love isn't a liability here. although it's a complicated position to be in: heartbroken and heartsick and still prepared to protect him to the bitter end.
but then natasha says something about it checking out and she lets loose a scoff. she'd wondered, too often, whether it had been a development unique to wonderland or whether the seeds had been sown earlier and elsewhere. she presses her palms on her hips just to keep them from fussing with her hair. ]
I know. It all reflects rather poorly.
[ -- a twitch of her nose. she didn't mean to say it, even if she fears how true it is. peggy doesn't like caring about what other people think. but she can't help but realize how childish this anger makes her feel. like she said, steve was never her ex-anything.
an ex-hopeful, maybe. an ex-daydream. an ex-whatever-keeps-you-slogging-forward. ]
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it's a tricky, knee-jerk thought. one born of the understanding that what he'd told her would see him tarred and feathered and worse, back home. her heart still hasn't caught up to the fact that such a love isn't a liability here. although it's a complicated position to be in: heartbroken and heartsick and still prepared to protect him to the bitter end.
but then natasha says something about it checking out and she lets loose a scoff. she'd wondered, too often, whether it had been a development unique to wonderland or whether the seeds had been sown earlier and elsewhere. she presses her palms on her hips just to keep them from fussing with her hair. ]
I know. It all reflects rather poorly.
[ -- a twitch of her nose. she didn't mean to say it, even if she fears how true it is. peggy doesn't like caring about what other people think. but she can't help but realize how childish this anger makes her feel. like she said, steve was never her ex-anything.
an ex-hopeful, maybe. an ex-daydream. an ex-whatever-keeps-you-slogging-forward. ]