"Four," she admits, little more than a whisper. She knows, deep down, that she's not going to be able to change anything. But this is the only part of Nate and Shaun that she has left, and it's difficult for her to not want to cling that, even if it means watching their worst moment over and over.

"I just--" Her voice breaks a little as she admits it out loud. "I can't leave them. Not again."