"So I do it later." There's no mistaking the terror in his voice, stark and unveiled. The idea of talking to Jay about any of this properly, laying it all out pat, picking and choosing which fractions of information to feed him, is nothing short of utterly horrifying.

What choice does he have?

"And not when he can make me spill it all just by looking at me. It's trying to show people the truth that got him killed - that spread me, and my problems to everyone who thought his stupid videos were worth a watch. I have no idea how many lives I've ruined!"