[She really doesn't know if she's allowed to be the one having this conversation. As the person who caused part of this heartache, as the monster who ruined him, does she get any say in his future?]

I mean, it's... how do you d-deal with something like that, you know? How can you be ok with it happening and then not anymore?

[She fidgets, not really sure how to phrase this.]

When you carry something like that for so long, and then it's just done... y-you don't want to bring people you love back there. You just want it never to have happened.