You could do anything you wanted. [She says it with conviction, because she believes it.] And--I mean, I know you've got a healthy ego, but do you really know how amazing you are? To feel like that, and to choose not to act on it, every day? As much as you do? [She shakes her head.] I can't. That's why I gave it up, and why I can't go back, because as much as it kills me to see things happen on tv... at least I'm not there, with a weapon in my hands. I don't have anything like that kind of self control.