pssh, yeah, well that was kirk. full of determination, that guy. picard was more...integrity, probably some perseverance too.
[He starts thinking about what kind of soul colors some of the other Star Trek captains might've had and then stops. Boy, if he starts in on that, he'll be thinking about it all day.]
i...dunno about perfect. and it's not that i'm doubting frisk. it's just that...perfection is impossible. the most perfect scenario would mean frisk never got killed, never got hurt. that a kid didn't have to, uh...solve the problems of a whole species and a bunch of...depressed individuals all by themself. things would end with you surviving, and asriel getting his body back, and maybe finding a way to save the--the other six.
[The most perfect ending is the one where literally everyone ends up happy, the one where there's no conflict or pain or suffering, no sacrifice at all. The one where everyone understands each other right away, where everyone survives, everyone is saved.]
i also don't...think you died failing to do anything. you got sick. that's not a failure, that just...happens.
[The got sick and died, and Asriel happened to absorb their soul. Maybe on the Surface they could have found six other human souls or something, but that would still involve sacrifice. Though he thinks he can see how Chara would see it as a failure. Living with the Dreemurrs, being told they hold the key to monsters' salvation...and then getting sick and dying.]
[It's unfair. Being sick is unfair.]
honestly? i don't believe in fate. i think the hard thing is, uh...learning how to tell the difference between the things you can change, if you work hard enough, and...the things you can't change, no matter what. the world just has some rules that can't be broken. even a world like ours, where some rules can be...uh...bent.
[He's quiet for a bit as they talk, and when they're finished he gives a soft chuckle and shakes his head.]
nah, it's...okay. i know what you mean. i think about...similar stuff. believing you "came out wrong" is similar to believing you were "born doomed."
[His grin fades just slightly.]
maybe it's all just bullshit. being...born a certain way. i mean, that's a lot like fate, and... i think...these past two years, and the stuff that's happened the last few months with, uh, with frisk, it gets...for me, at least, it gets easy to blame the shitty things i do on...how i am. you spend enough years doing that and it's just--real easy to say, oh, that bad thing i did was inevitable, cause i'm a bad person. you keep making mistakes, or things keep going wrong, and...it feels like some kind of default. like, uh. looking at the forest and not the trees, or something.
but the last time this truth thing happened, you showed me that it's...not that way. that it's never too late. that things and people can change. it's just...not a simple fix. you don't--flip that switch in your head, and instantly you get it. it takes constant work, and work...heh. work sucks.
[But it's not inevitable. It's not doomed. There are fundamental truths in the world, but this isn't one of them.]
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pssh, yeah, well that was kirk. full of determination, that guy. picard was more...integrity, probably some perseverance too.
[He starts thinking about what kind of soul colors some of the other Star Trek captains might've had and then stops. Boy, if he starts in on that, he'll be thinking about it all day.]
i...dunno about perfect. and it's not that i'm doubting frisk. it's just that...perfection is impossible. the most perfect scenario would mean frisk never got killed, never got hurt. that a kid didn't have to, uh...solve the problems of a whole species and a bunch of...depressed individuals all by themself. things would end with you surviving, and asriel getting his body back, and maybe finding a way to save the--the other six.
[The most perfect ending is the one where literally everyone ends up happy, the one where there's no conflict or pain or suffering, no sacrifice at all. The one where everyone understands each other right away, where everyone survives, everyone is saved.]
i also don't...think you died failing to do anything. you got sick. that's not a failure, that just...happens.
[The got sick and died, and Asriel happened to absorb their soul. Maybe on the Surface they could have found six other human souls or something, but that would still involve sacrifice. Though he thinks he can see how Chara would see it as a failure. Living with the Dreemurrs, being told they hold the key to monsters' salvation...and then getting sick and dying.]
[It's unfair. Being sick is unfair.]
honestly? i don't believe in fate. i think the hard thing is, uh...learning how to tell the difference between the things you can change, if you work hard enough, and...the things you can't change, no matter what. the world just has some rules that can't be broken. even a world like ours, where some rules can be...uh...bent.
[He's quiet for a bit as they talk, and when they're finished he gives a soft chuckle and shakes his head.]
nah, it's...okay. i know what you mean. i think about...similar stuff. believing you "came out wrong" is similar to believing you were "born doomed."
[His grin fades just slightly.]
maybe it's all just bullshit. being...born a certain way. i mean, that's a lot like fate, and... i think...these past two years, and the stuff that's happened the last few months with, uh, with frisk, it gets...for me, at least, it gets easy to blame the shitty things i do on...how i am. you spend enough years doing that and it's just--real easy to say, oh, that bad thing i did was inevitable, cause i'm a bad person. you keep making mistakes, or things keep going wrong, and...it feels like some kind of default. like, uh. looking at the forest and not the trees, or something.
but the last time this truth thing happened, you showed me that it's...not that way. that it's never too late. that things and people can change. it's just...not a simple fix. you don't--flip that switch in your head, and instantly you get it. it takes constant work, and work...heh. work sucks.
[But it's not inevitable. It's not doomed. There are fundamental truths in the world, but this isn't one of them.]