[He looks down at her hands holding his. She always holds on, doesn't she? Despite everything.]
[She says he's not a burden, and she can't lie right now. There are objective truths, and there are subjective ones. It's still astonishing to know with perfect confidence that he has worth to someone. He just still can't understand why. Can't understand why anyone would want him.]
maybe...not, but. it feels like it is.
[He feels selfish. He's never been shy about indulging himself and his own emotions, but it's completely different when someone else is involved. Papyrus, Alphys, Mettaton. He's just taking up their time, their energy. He thinks of the look on Mettaton's face back in summer, when Sans said that yeah, he was okay with the idea of being more than friends.]
[How Mettaton hadn't meant it that way at all. The physical part, sure, though that's just as baffling. Not the rest of it.]
honesty, honesty...
[He gives a tired sigh.]
it's all about honesty these days. it's been like...the theme of this past year. for me, at least.
[And he's been trying. He really has. He's been trying so damn hard.]
i-i'm sorry, i really...i didn't want to kill the mood. i, heh, i went and made it weird.
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[She says he's not a burden, and she can't lie right now. There are objective truths, and there are subjective ones. It's still astonishing to know with perfect confidence that he has worth to someone. He just still can't understand why. Can't understand why anyone would want him.]
maybe...not, but. it feels like it is.
[He feels selfish. He's never been shy about indulging himself and his own emotions, but it's completely different when someone else is involved. Papyrus, Alphys, Mettaton. He's just taking up their time, their energy. He thinks of the look on Mettaton's face back in summer, when Sans said that yeah, he was okay with the idea of being more than friends.]
[How Mettaton hadn't meant it that way at all. The physical part, sure, though that's just as baffling. Not the rest of it.]
honesty, honesty...
[He gives a tired sigh.]
it's all about honesty these days. it's been like...the theme of this past year. for me, at least.
[And he's been trying. He really has. He's been trying so damn hard.]
i-i'm sorry, i really...i didn't want to kill the mood. i, heh, i went and made it weird.