Oh, she thinks she understands that, too. Just having a bit more knowledge, foresight, drive to do something impossible. Horrible. To cut herself from everyone she had ever loved, so they could find some happiness while she fixed the world. Maybe it wasn't an action she'd have needed to take, if it hadn't come to where it did. If she hadn't been left alone.

There's nothing she can do to take it back. But with the consequences only finding her now, she's thinking about it a lot lately.

"I... don't know." She wants to laugh, but it's not funny, and she's never been good at deflecting with humor. "I'm not sure if... any one action is fully wrong. But perhaps I just want to hope that, so everything I have done means something. If none of it was anything, in the end..."

Lucretia closes her eyes, shakes her head a moment. No. It's worth something, it has to be. "I have not gotten that far, either."