As for the last bit, she feels targeted, and wonders if she's going to be called out as a phony, because truth be told, Peridot doesn't think she's managing it at all. She hasn't become immune to it, so much as she's found that with Lapis here, she has to be strong and enduring and put on a brave face. She can't collapse like she did the very first time she was turned human without her consent, because if she did that, then what is Lapis going to do?
And, somehow, if Lapis knew that all of this was just a front for her sake... She might be angry about it. It might take a sledgehammer to everything.
"I... Just, erm... adapted. Like I did to Earth. It took a lot of accepting things as they are, and I feel like I have a better understanding of the inner workings of the Wonderland machine than most. It's torturous and awful, and what it does feels real, but it's just code."
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As for the last bit, she feels targeted, and wonders if she's going to be called out as a phony, because truth be told, Peridot doesn't think she's managing it at all. She hasn't become immune to it, so much as she's found that with Lapis here, she has to be strong and enduring and put on a brave face. She can't collapse like she did the very first time she was turned human without her consent, because if she did that, then what is Lapis going to do?
And, somehow, if Lapis knew that all of this was just a front for her sake... She might be angry about it. It might take a sledgehammer to everything.
"I... Just, erm... adapted. Like I did to Earth. It took a lot of accepting things as they are, and I feel like I have a better understanding of the inner workings of the Wonderland machine than most. It's torturous and awful, and what it does feels real, but it's just code."