[She frowns, giving it some serious thought. What he said is important and while she could easily trivialize it, she won't. That feels wrong.]
I haven't done it yet, so it's true, it doesn't apply to me yet. And it's early enough that...well, I can't entirely call it off, it's kind of hard to undo some things, but I could do something else. I'm pretty smart, I could totally find a way to fix things and not have things build and build and build until I decide the best thing is to lock up the remaining people I care about and force them to kill each other while acting as Monokuma.
[It's all so despairingly easy. And she knows that. She'd probably go to prison or...no, honestly, given HPA maybe just be expelled for murdering several students and brainwashing a class, but she could still do it! And there's some genuine indecisiveness here because she hasn't done it yet. She's not locked into doing it. Yasuke isn't even dead yet, so she definitely could change her plans and not send everything spiraling into a further tragedy.]
And I don't even care about things like messing up the space-time continuum or anything like that. Like if I do it, do you cease to exist? Does Mikan's class never go to that island? Does that other kid's backstory start making sense?
[Because she still has no idea how Kokichi Ouma fits into things.]
Stuff like that doesn't matter to me because either way I've altered the course of history, y'know? It's like being the butterfly the effect's named after. ...but....
[And here's the hard part, and it's one she's hesitant to admit at this stage in the game because there's no one she can really talk to. Not really. Her sister's browbeaten into going along with whatever and she can't tell Yasuke, so she's definitely despairing over telling Ishimaru, of all people, this.But it needs to be said.]
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[She frowns, giving it some serious thought. What he said is important and while she could easily trivialize it, she won't. That feels wrong.]
I haven't done it yet, so it's true, it doesn't apply to me yet. And it's early enough that...well, I can't entirely call it off, it's kind of hard to undo some things, but I could do something else. I'm pretty smart, I could totally find a way to fix things and not have things build and build and build until I decide the best thing is to lock up the remaining people I care about and force them to kill each other while acting as Monokuma.
[It's all so despairingly easy. And she knows that. She'd probably go to prison or...no, honestly, given HPA maybe just be expelled for murdering several students and brainwashing a class, but she could still do it! And there's some genuine indecisiveness here because she hasn't done it yet. She's not locked into doing it. Yasuke isn't even dead yet, so she definitely could change her plans and not send everything spiraling into a further tragedy.]
And I don't even care about things like messing up the space-time continuum or anything like that. Like if I do it, do you cease to exist? Does Mikan's class never go to that island? Does that other kid's backstory start making sense?
[Because she still has no idea how Kokichi Ouma fits into things.]
Stuff like that doesn't matter to me because either way I've altered the course of history, y'know? It's like being the butterfly the effect's named after. ...but....
[And here's the hard part, and it's one she's hesitant to admit at this stage in the game because there's no one she can really talk to. Not really. Her sister's browbeaten into going along with whatever and she can't tell Yasuke, so she's definitely despairing over telling Ishimaru, of all people, this.But it needs to be said.]
But I don't know if I want to.