[No one can, no one should, because if someone can save him, fix any of what was caused (what he caused what Jay caused), it means that all of what he did, all of what Alex poured himself into, every crushed windpipe and caved-in skull and fired bullet would be for nothing and he can't live with himself as it is but he especially, especially can't live with that.]
[Even if "living" was never on the table. Not really.]
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[Don't you get it?]
[No one can, no one should, because if someone can save him, fix any of what was caused (
what he causedwhat Jay caused), it means that all of what he did, all of what Alex poured himself into, every crushed windpipe and caved-in skull and fired bullet would be for nothing and he can't live with himself as it is but he especially, especially can't live with that.][Even if "living" was never on the table. Not really.]
I won't let it all be for nothing.