It's too good. It's too easy. That pounding in his ears increases tempo, and he focuses in on Cas's eyes with a startling intensity, the ebb and flow of the world set on lock as those words repeat themselves. To make sure that it never happens.
But it already did.
It already did, and Cas is gone. His Cas is dead, and this- this guy in front of him, this stupid fucking optimistic idiot, this poor bastard doesn't even get it. He's going to die, and Dean's going to watch his blue eyes stare lifelessly nothing because he's going to leave. Forever
Rather than answering, Dean jerks automatically. Shoves at Cas's chest, sturdy as ever, angelic as ever, but it doesn't stop him from shoving. From ripping himself away.
"Don't touch me!" He snarls, that anger coursing through his bones again, through his everything. He points at Cas. "Don't ever touch me, you understand me? You just-"
He cuts himself off with a shake of his head, and strides across the room toward the door.
Stupid. Stupid, that he could let himself lose it like that.
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It's too good. It's too easy. That pounding in his ears increases tempo, and he focuses in on Cas's eyes with a startling intensity, the ebb and flow of the world set on lock as those words repeat themselves. To make sure that it never happens.
But it already did.
It already did, and Cas is gone. His Cas is dead, and this- this guy in front of him, this stupid fucking optimistic idiot, this poor bastard doesn't even get it. He's going to die, and Dean's going to watch his blue eyes stare lifelessly nothing because he's going to leave. Forever
Rather than answering, Dean jerks automatically. Shoves at Cas's chest, sturdy as ever, angelic as ever, but it doesn't stop him from shoving. From ripping himself away.
"Don't touch me!" He snarls, that anger coursing through his bones again, through his everything. He points at Cas. "Don't ever touch me, you understand me? You just-"
He cuts himself off with a shake of his head, and strides across the room toward the door.
Stupid. Stupid, that he could let himself lose it like that.