[He listens, every single part of him wanting to think this is the best option.
Truth be told, he isn't sure. He hates everything right now and nothing is making sense and all of his decisions feel like a push and pull, neither in the right direction, and always, ultimately, staying in the same place.
They ran here for safety. But now they're waiting for Harry so they can end this. He wants to be out there fighting, finally getting to the bottom of it with a big gun and zero fucks but he is also standing in a bunker in terror because the very thought of Harry makes his skin crawl.
He feels like a fraud. In so many ways he feels like a loser and a coward and a freak. Like he's not doing enough, like he should be out there, guns blazing, proving himself and righting the wrongs from his world that have somehow clawed along for the ride.
But he's here. Hiding. Waiting for Dean.
The tick in Tom's jaw flares as he squares and set it, replaying to Jo's words of encouragement with a small nod. And it reminds him that he isn't flying solo anymore. They're a team, and she is infinitely stronger than he could ever be.]
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Truth be told, he isn't sure. He hates everything right now and nothing is making sense and all of his decisions feel like a push and pull, neither in the right direction, and always, ultimately, staying in the same place.
They ran here for safety. But now they're waiting for Harry so they can end this. He wants to be out there fighting, finally getting to the bottom of it with a big gun and zero fucks but he is also standing in a bunker in terror because the very thought of Harry makes his skin crawl.
He feels like a fraud. In so many ways he feels like a loser and a coward and a freak. Like he's not doing enough, like he should be out there, guns blazing, proving himself and righting the wrongs from his world that have somehow clawed along for the ride.
But he's here. Hiding. Waiting for Dean.
The tick in Tom's jaw flares as he squares and set it, replaying to Jo's words of encouragement with a small nod. And it reminds him that he isn't flying solo anymore. They're a team, and she is infinitely stronger than he could ever be.]
Yeah, okay.