assembles: (is the actual worst)
Steve Rogers / Captain America ([personal profile] assembles) wrote in [community profile] entrancelogs 2015-05-11 03:26 pm (UTC)

Bucky may not be able to feel anything but pressure on that arm, but that won't stop Steve from touching it when he gets the chance. He realizes that Bucky has only ever used the prosthetic for one thing, and that's to kill or batter or maim. It may be impossible for him to ever see it as anything but another weapon, seeing how that's what it was made for, but Steve would still like to help him get more used to people interacting with it in a different context.

There's a jarring contrast between what they're doing. On one hand, they've got Steve's hands gliding over Bucky's skin, the warmth of the water and their bodies mingling. On the other? Bucky is telling him horrific stories of his time as HYDRA's pet project, all in a tone that makes it pretty damn obvious that he doesn't fully comprehend how terrible it really is.

"You don't have to repay me," Steve says, his reply clipped and almost curt because he can't believe Bucky would even ask that after what he's just shared with him. Steve sighs, ceasing in his massaging when he realizes that he's probably letting the tension he feels bleed into his actions, and he doesn't accidentally want to hurt Bucky. "What do you mean, nothing to worry about? Bucky, they went in and changed you on a fundamental level, to make you more capable of doing their dirty work. Is it a coping mechanism for you, to act like this stuff isn't deeply traumatizing?"

Bucky had asked Steve to come directly to him with his concerns, so that's what he's going to do. There's no more avoiding the subject. He's going to face it head-on, no matter how hard it might be.

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