[She doesn't know where to even start outside of showing him her eyes - that she was back to herself with no wild impulses to try and kill the people she cares about.
The thought is enough to bring ugly thoughts and memories right back to the surface. She feels as though she's gonna be sick. There's an almost physical wash of fresh air over her when the door opens, letting her body slump a little against the floor in relief.
Deep breath. That's what she needs to focus on... Actually breathing. In. Out. In - And then it has to hold for a second to make room for a hiss of pain as her body reminds her of just what the hell it's been through.]
Can you - Can you call Bucky and tell him I'm okay? That it's done?
[Even if she's anything but. She needed to have someone else deal with the texts on her phone because there was too much guilt to face in one whirl. Bucky was a direct connection to Steve and she just couldn't -
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The thought is enough to bring ugly thoughts and memories right back to the surface. She feels as though she's gonna be sick. There's an almost physical wash of fresh air over her when the door opens, letting her body slump a little against the floor in relief.
Deep breath. That's what she needs to focus on... Actually breathing. In. Out. In - And then it has to hold for a second to make room for a hiss of pain as her body reminds her of just what the hell it's been through.]
Can you - Can you call Bucky and tell him I'm okay? That it's done?
[Even if she's anything but. She needed to have someone else deal with the texts on her phone because there was too much guilt to face in one whirl. Bucky was a direct connection to Steve and she just couldn't -
She can't.]