[He doesn't move, but he's not looking at her anymore. He's staring at the ground. At an interesting fern. There are ferns underground, most of them in the woods near Snowdin, but they're these small, twisty little things. Everything on the Surface is so...vibrant. Varied.]
uh, i'm.
[He doesn't know what to say.]
[It's a neat fern.]
i'm not...an easy person to put up with.
[Not what he wanted to say.]
half the time i don't know why people bother. and that's not...some bid for sympathy. see, you...say things like that and it comes out like you're...feeling sorry for yourself? but that's, uh. not it. i just actually...don't understand it. something's...
[He taps the side of his skull, still staring at the fern, face completely unreadable.]
...not right. with me. when i say i don't get it, i mean i literally don't get it. these amazing people who stick it out, and bother with me, when i just...
but it's. not about me.
i let you down. and i wanted to apologize when i messaged you, but. it seemed like it would feel tacked on. empty.
[He rubs the back of his neck.]
i message you out of nowhere with a warning and go oh, by the way, sorry for being an ass. wasn't right. you deserved better. i mean, you deserved better than having some dumpy skeleton spew word salad in the middle of the freaking woods. you might not even like salad. heh.
[Not funny.]
what happened doesn't...really matter. i just wanted to apologize. i let you down. i betrayed your trust. and...before anything else happens in this insane event, i figured you should at least hear that.
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uh, i'm.
[He doesn't know what to say.]
[It's a neat fern.]
i'm not...an easy person to put up with.
[Not what he wanted to say.]
half the time i don't know why people bother. and that's not...some bid for sympathy. see, you...say things like that and it comes out like you're...feeling sorry for yourself? but that's, uh. not it. i just actually...don't understand it. something's...
[He taps the side of his skull, still staring at the fern, face completely unreadable.]
...not right. with me. when i say i don't get it, i mean i literally don't get it. these amazing people who stick it out, and bother with me, when i just...
but it's. not about me.
i let you down. and i wanted to apologize when i messaged you, but. it seemed like it would feel tacked on. empty.
[He rubs the back of his neck.]
i message you out of nowhere with a warning and go oh, by the way, sorry for being an ass. wasn't right. you deserved better. i mean, you deserved better than having some dumpy skeleton spew word salad in the middle of the freaking woods. you might not even like salad. heh.
[Not funny.]
what happened doesn't...really matter. i just wanted to apologize. i let you down. i betrayed your trust. and...before anything else happens in this insane event, i figured you should at least hear that.
that's all.
...sorry.