[ He hadn't realized he'd been holding his breath until Fitz decides to drop the gun. Ward leans back, relaxing his stance somewhat, grateful he doesn't have to experience getting shot again so soon. Coulson had fired two shots at him on Maveth and that had hurt like hell. ]
You're not. It's a good thing, Fitz. [ He means it. The first time he ever killed someone -- hell, that kind of shit leaves a mark. Kind of like a bad stain that can't ever be removed. It darkens the soul. ] Why do you think as specialists we're thought to keep our emotions in check? To have everything compartmentalized? It's not an easy thing to do.
It's why I couldn't just put a bullet in you or Simmons. [ He'd gone against Garrett's orders in order to give them that fighting chance. ] You know Simmons tried to kill me too? Did she tell you that? [ Back when Coulson recruited him to help locate Skye. He'd been surprised by her actions. ] I could have shot her then too. But I didn't. I didn't lay a finger on her.
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You're not. It's a good thing, Fitz. [ He means it. The first time he ever killed someone -- hell, that kind of shit leaves a mark. Kind of like a bad stain that can't ever be removed. It darkens the soul. ] Why do you think as specialists we're thought to keep our emotions in check? To have everything compartmentalized? It's not an easy thing to do.
It's why I couldn't just put a bullet in you or Simmons. [ He'd gone against Garrett's orders in order to give them that fighting chance. ] You know Simmons tried to kill me too? Did she tell you that? [ Back when Coulson recruited him to help locate Skye. He'd been surprised by her actions. ] I could have shot her then too. But I didn't. I didn't lay a finger on her.