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[jivitadana]

Who: Seta Souji [eatsyourscience] and Arisato Minato [jivitadana]
Where: Sixth Floor, Room 100
When: Wednesday, May 24
Rating: PG for summoning experimentation and Persona talk
Summary: Souji and Minato figure out how to break the rules of Persona summoning, then proceed to discuss the future at home
The Story:


Once was more than enough. It hadn't even happened at home, and Minato thought perhaps he had taken it for granted or it didn't have a chance of happening at all, not with his friends around him who used the same piece of summoning equipment he did. He could've just borrowed one if he had to, though again, the issue never really came up for him.

But here? Minato only had one Evoker on him and when he did have a second one, he left it oh so conveniently by a mirror for someone on the other side to take. He knew that he needed one as well. Minato knew the feeling, that helpless feeling that he'd be unable to do anything in a proper fight or be unable to heal, the latter of which he worried the most about. What if someone needed him? He'd have his Personas, it was true, but they'd be out of reach. There was no point. He may as well not have had them at all. Not there was anything wrong with relying on his own skills and knowledge, but having his Personas was more than helpful in an emergency.

The inconvenience, he had to rid himself of the inconvenience so he wouldn't end up as an inconvenience to anyone else.

Thus Souji had offered to help Minato circumvent the whole using an Evoker method for summoning a Persona. They would need the space but also somewhere confined in case anything went wrong. Minato doubted that it would, but judging what happened the first time he summoned, he couldn't leave things to chance.

Plus there was something else to discuss: Personas. They needed to talk about the Personas themselves and what they meant now and then in the future. Just when Minato thought everything had been taken care of, the future decided it had had enough of peace and quiet. Apparently. He worried, if he could, where Souji would be in that future too and what he would be doing.

But first things first. With Souji's help, Minato had cleared the room as much as possible, moving a table off to the side along with the chairs, folding up the futon and putting it away, ensuring that Tefra and the bunny would be safe and out of any line of fire. Minato was concerned for Souji too if anything did go out of control, but Souji reassured him that it would be fine. Minato had to believe it and reign himself in as much as possible if things did get out of hand.

He wasn't quite sure where to start or how to begin. He ended up sitting on the floor in front of Souji, taking a breath in then out. His Evoker was in its holster, but he had to resist going for it. They needed to start somewhere, somehow, just straight up, almost like he had to go through withdrawals away from his summoning device. Maybe less painful? Who knew.

"... Ideas?" Minato had a couple of those, he thought. He may as well try anything right now.

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[jivitadana]

Minato made a soft, affirmative sound and sat back down on the bed with Souji. He held onto Souji's hand, one hand clasping it and the other on top. Souji had been upset, more than Minato had seen before, and it hurt. He knew it had to hurt Souji even more.

He stayed in that silence with Souji, like letting it sink in and down, having it settle all around them, like a blanket. It might help right everything so they could step back a bit and look at where they were, then go from there.

[eatsyourscience]

Souji looked over at him.

"How do you feel now?" He must have still been tired.

[jivitadana]

Even if Minato was holding onto Souji's hand, Minato felt like he was still so far away from him. It didn't matter if he was tired or not. There was something else... And Minato knew what it was. If he could be so arrogant, he thought he knew this trick.

"Why are you deflecting?" Minato looked at their hands. "... Why can't I do something for you for once?"

[eatsyourscience]

Surprised dismay painted Souji's face and he stared at Minato. Was that what he was doing? He'd only meant to get his mind away from the topic that was bothering him.

"...I didn't mean to."

[jivitadana]

"You don't have to be alone when you're upset."

Minato still hadn't looked up at Souji, still seeing how their hands were clasped. He hadn't done anything yet to help Souji not feel upset or bothered by it either, but he just wanted that chance to do so.

Souji had helped Minato in so many other ways that Minato tried to do everything he could for him in return. It only seemed like Souji closed his heart off or took it somewhere far away that Minato couldn't get to, and maybe that was his prerogative. Minato though didn't want to think that he was being shut out by the person he loved.

[eatsyourscience]

Souji let out a breath and leaned his forehead against Minato's. He knew what he had here.

"I'm not. I have you here with me."

[jivitadana]

Minato closed his eyes and focused on the warmth there where they made that intimate contact and on Souji's voice.

"Wherever you go, take me with you."

He almost, almost asked if he should leave. If Souji needed the time to himself, then Minato just had to understand that too. As intertwined their lives were and could be, Minato wondered if there were some things that he would never know, or the more he thought he understood Souji, the more he realized that maybe he never could.

[eatsyourscience]

Souji raised a hand and ran his fingers through Minato's hair once.

"I'm not trying to hide anything from you. I'm doing the only thing I know how to do."

[jivitadana]

Minato liked whenever Souji played with his hair. He relaxed a bit and opened his eyes.

"It was like you moved on when you weren't ready to."

He thought Souji had this habit of holding everything inside and then bearing its weight, not ever letting any of it go when he could or should.

[eatsyourscience]

Now Souji got his arms around Minato, pulling him close in a hug.

"Being ready isn't a factor. It would be a waste to keep being upset over it when there are more important things to think about."

What those things were, the thought, was obvious.

[jivitadana]

Minato hugged Souji back. He had to understand that they coped in different ways. All Minato wanted was for Souji to know that whatever he was feeling, Minato would be here for him. He knew it would still bother Souji, and Minato didn't know if he could do anything about that either, as much as Minato wanted to.

"Okay."

He pulled Souji down onto the bed with him, slowly though and hugged him again.

"... I don't want to hide anything from you either."

[eatsyourscience]

Souji lay down with Minato and pressed his forehead against Minato's again.

"I don't think you do."

Souji trusted Minato in that. He trusted Minato to tell him things--but he respected Minato's right to keep things private as well. He didn't want Minato to feel obligated to tell him anything he didn't want to.

"I trust you."

[jivitadana]

"I trust you too."

If Souji were far away from him, Minato would have to go after him then. He had to reassure himself though that Souji wouldn't be far from him too long. Minato would keep the door to his heart open too and would always let Souji in.

"You're so good to me that I wish I could be the same way to you."

[eatsyourscience]

Souji let out a breath slowly. "Why do you think you aren't?"

He felt like Minato was always there, when most other people weren't.

[jivitadana]

"I feel like I could be doing more."

Minato felt like he'd said that before. He thought he was repeating himself, but it bore repeating because he didn't know if he'd ever stop feeling that way, even if he knew that he should. Souji was everything to him and Minato wanted to show him that he was.

But then he felt so selfish too. He realized that while he did that, that maybe he wanted it to be acknowledged, that he was trying so hard.

... He never felt like that before. He only did things because he knew he should or thought he should, knew that it was right. But he never wanted anything in return for it, did he?

[eatsyourscience]

"Minato."

Souji pulled away slightly so that he could look Minato in the face, cupping Minato's face in both hands.

"You are enough for me. More than enough. Just like you are."

[jivitadana]

Minato looked back into Souji's eyes, bringing a hand up to one of Souji's hands, feeling like he had been a kite that had been flying away until Souji caught the string.

He couldn't help but smile though, and a very soft, almost inaudible laugh left him.

"How do you know exactly what to say and when?"

[eatsyourscience]

"I have natural good luck."

Souji smiled and kissed Minato's forehead.

"Let's just rest for awhile."

[jivitadana]

Minato blushed lightly and cuddled closer to Souji. Souji always did have the best luck.

"Me too, because I have you."

He nuzzled into Souji and thought resting was a good idea.

"I want to practice more later with you."

[eatsyourscience]

Souji nodded. "We'll definitely practice more. I want to see what you can do."

[jivitadana]

"Mn, thank you."

Minato smiled and scooted even closer to Souji if he could.

"... I want to practice other things too."

[eatsyourscience]

Souji put one hand on Minato's forehead as though holding him back, despite tightening his arm around him. "You're too tired for that right now."

[jivitadana]

"I didn't mean now."

Minato thought Souji was just being difficult, but Minato had to admit that he was being the same way too. Perhaps he got what he deserved.

[eatsyourscience]

Souji was just being difficult. Right now, he liked it.

"Get some rest and we'll talk about it later."

"Talk" about it.

[jivitadana]

"Deal."

Minato took a hold of Souji's hand and moved it so they could properly hug now. Minato could rest here and just know or come to understand that their relationship wasn't just one side doing too much for the other. They had to balance since that would be fair and it was how it should be.