( jon doesn’t have any siblings, so he can’t say he completely understands the bond mondo and his brother must have had. here, he has kon, and he briefly thinks back to that event where he had thought he and kon had been raised together. kon is an amazing person, jon is glad to be able to call him his big brother, here. they haven’t known each other for very long at all, but kon has proven to be an amazing, supportive person regardless. he’s strong, courageous, reminds jon a lot of his father—which makes sense, considering kon’s supposed to be his half-clone thing. he’s taken to calling kon his older brother, and really wishes he was, so he’d still be there for him when he goes back home.
and it’s this bond that he thinks of, when he imagines the kind of pain mondo must have felt that day. jon is mature for his age, yes, but he’s still ten. a biker gang isn’t something he can really picture outside of the stereotypical movie types. he knows what it feels like to be under someone else’s shadow, but jon’s never minded clark’s. it’s all part of being the son of superman: clark outshines him now, but one day, he’ll be strong and courageous and as brave as he is—and he’ll become superman.
if he felt the need to fight his father over that, for who knows what reason, and someone got hurt--even imagining the pain he’d feel from that’s enough to get him a little teary-eyed.
mondo calls it murder, but all jon sees is a really bad accident. one that must have hurt mondo. he had only been trying to prove himself, and it went badly—so badly he lost his big brother. if mondo’s brother is anything like kon is—that pain must have hurt much worse than any crash could have caused, and from what little mondo has told him of his brother, he’s sure it did.
if an accident happened that killed his father, and he thought it was his fault, jon would have had to lie, too, wouldn’t he? to protect people. to protect his mother, and everyone else on earth. the lie would have ate at him—jon hates lies—but he would have had to.
he’s small, yes, he doesn’t quite understand exactly how that could have happened, how badly that would have hurt, but jon can take a moment to put himself in mondo’s shoes, to feel how badly it would have hurt him had he been placed in a similar situation. and he would have felt it was his fault, too. for being overly reckless and causing someone to chase after him into traffic like that.
but it’s not murder.
it was just a really unfortunate accident.
he takes a deep breath in to keep himself from outright crying, because it’s not his pain, it’s mondo’s, and mondo needs comforting right now, not jon. he leaves the pieces of wood on the countertop, moves over to mondo and wraps his arms tight around the other’s waist. )
Mondo, it wasn’t your fault. You didn’t murder him.
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and it’s this bond that he thinks of, when he imagines the kind of pain mondo must have felt that day. jon is mature for his age, yes, but he’s still ten. a biker gang isn’t something he can really picture outside of the stereotypical movie types. he knows what it feels like to be under someone else’s shadow, but jon’s never minded clark’s. it’s all part of being the son of superman: clark outshines him now, but one day, he’ll be strong and courageous and as brave as he is—and he’ll become superman.
if he felt the need to fight his father over that, for who knows what reason, and someone got hurt--even imagining the pain he’d feel from that’s enough to get him a little teary-eyed.
mondo calls it murder, but all jon sees is a really bad accident. one that must have hurt mondo. he had only been trying to prove himself, and it went badly—so badly he lost his big brother. if mondo’s brother is anything like kon is—that pain must have hurt much worse than any crash could have caused, and from what little mondo has told him of his brother, he’s sure it did.
if an accident happened that killed his father, and he thought it was his fault, jon would have had to lie, too, wouldn’t he? to protect people. to protect his mother, and everyone else on earth. the lie would have ate at him—jon hates lies—but he would have had to.
he’s small, yes, he doesn’t quite understand exactly how that could have happened, how badly that would have hurt, but jon can take a moment to put himself in mondo’s shoes, to feel how badly it would have hurt him had he been placed in a similar situation. and he would have felt it was his fault, too. for being overly reckless and causing someone to chase after him into traffic like that.
but it’s not murder.
it was just a really unfortunate accident.
he takes a deep breath in to keep himself from outright crying, because it’s not his pain, it’s mondo’s, and mondo needs comforting right now, not jon. he leaves the pieces of wood on the countertop, moves over to mondo and wraps his arms tight around the other’s waist. )
Mondo, it wasn’t your fault. You didn’t murder him.