It may very well be the worst thing that's ever happened to you! | OPEN MINGLE

[vitaelamorte]

Who: EVERYONE!
Where: EVERYWHERE!
When: Friday October 27th - Tuesday October 31st
Rating: PG-13, warn if you're gonna go higher!
Summary: A catch all for the Horrible Memory Truth Event!
The Story:

For the duration of this event, everyone's entire room will be replaced with a memory playing on loop. They will likely recognize the moment as soon as they see it – it is a moment they remember as the worst moment of their entire lives. It could be a memory from home or something that happened in Wonderland. Lengths of the memories will vary, but they will find that these are not memories they can merely watch – they can step into these memories and attempt to make changes to them, and the memories will be long enough that they have time to make changes (though no more than 24 hours). However, anyone who tries will find that it is futile. No matter what you do or how hard you try, the outcome is always exactly the same somehow. No changes you make will prevent that horrible outcome. It just happens over and over and over again no matter what you do.

On top of that, perhaps complicating any attempts to make changes, everyone will be forced to be honest for the duration of the event. No lies or half-truths are allowed, and filters will be gone for the entire five days. If something bothers someone then they will blurt it out, regardless of whether or not it hurts someone's feelings, and no one will be able to simply keep quiet when they have something to say. They must be truthful and honest with every word they say.

This is a catch-all log for all of your Worst Memory needs! Please mark your threads clearly in the subject line with your character's name and Room Number + Floor for character rooms, or just location if you're making a top level for a public place in the mansion (like the tea rooms or the kitchen) so people can see if there's already a thread available. And here's the plot post if you need it!

Have fun!

Comments

[didntknowbest]

[Toriel just sighs. She doesn't want to have to say this, worried about what might come out, other people's business that she feels she really shouldn't be sharing with others. It takes a great deal of effort, to avoid naming any names.] I have... known... people who have been through hardships and trauma. They are often on edge and needlessly rude, in an attempt to push others away, likely so that they are not hurt again. Opening up and being kind is not easy for them.

I have spent a great deal of time around people like that, and there was just something about how you acted that made it feel familiar.

[ssmisery]

I didn't know people could see that...

[That's the part where Lapis would like to digest the information quietly, but once again having to say everything gets in the way. She's gone thoughtful in a weird, detached way, and in another moment she rallies her firmness, but at least some of the hostility has evaporated, to be replaced by nothing in particular.]

But I'm always going through something as long as I'm here. I hate being trapped and I don't -- even want to be happy here. And I can't handle it.

[If she says it, it must be true, defeated and vehement.]

[didntknowbest]

If it makes you feel any better, I only recognized it because I have a great deal of experience with it. Even then, I was not sure- I was simply trying to be kind and give you the benefit of the doubt, that there may have been some reason for your abrasiveness.

The only advice which I can give is, unfortunately, difficult to follow, and may not work for everyone. But... you are not alone here.

Unpleasant situations are easier to deal with when you have people you care about with you. When monsters were trapped Underground... I can not even imagine how I would have responded to it, if I did not have my people to watch after, and my husband to care for me. Even if I hate him now.

[She just... can't ever think back to those memories, without thinking of how they're tainted and ruined by how things ended between them.]

[ssmisery]

[She shoots Toriel a bit of a harder look again.] I didn't ask for advice, and that's not just being petulant -- well, it is, but not in the obvious way -- I sound ridiculous, this is still exactly why I didn't want to talk to you.

[HUFF. This is seriously just so dumb. Lapis is still doing a decent job at keeping up that detached quality, but her face is actually starting to darken a little.]

And I don't want to hear about you being stuck underground because it'll just make me think about how much better you had it than me.

[She pauses again.]

And I do have someone, but she shouldn't have to deal with this either.

[didntknowbest]

My apologies. It is just in my nature to try and help people, I suppose. Even if it rarely works out.

[She really wishes she could keep thoughts like those in her head.]

Nobody should have to deal with this. But we are dealing with it, and now we are in the exact same situation. Neither of us has anything better than the other.

[ssmisery]

That's not true.

[Lapis would really like to be able to stop talking now. Arms coming up around herself defensively, she bites her lip hard, which only staves it off for a few seconds, and the words come faster, more urgent, though she still clings to her forced calm.]

Earlier, you said that what you'd already been through makes this easier for you now. Because you've survived worse and you're used to it. That's what you have that I don't. For me it just makes everything harder, all the time, and it makes being here unbearable. THAT'S why I don't like you.

[didntknowbest]

...I just meant that we are in the same situation, not how we deal with it.

That is a perfectly understandable reaction. I wish that I could say something else to help you, but I just do not really know how.

My apologies.

[ssmisery]

[On top of uncomfortable, Lapis is actually starting to look embarrassed now. That's an accomplishment, really!]

I know that's not how you meant it. That doesn't mean that what I said -- isn't a valid answer, or that it's a different subject. Or that I misunderstood you! It's all part of the same thing. And I really want to be able to stop having this conversation, do we have to just run out of things to say that the other person has a meaningful response to?

[didntknowbest]

No, I know. I just, wanted to be clear so that it did not seem like I was invalidating your experiences or anything, by saying that. [Toriel sounds a bit sheepish as she says that- it's never fun when misunderstandings occur, on either end.]

Unfortunately, yes. That has been my experience so far.

...On the bright side, I do not think I have anything else to say to you right now? So, hopefully the same will be true of you as well.

[ssmisery]

[Exasperated sigh.] This is so stupid.

[And that's certainly the truth.]

I really didn't want to talk things out with you, or try to make it better, you know? You still annoy me.

[didntknowbest]

[Toriel certainly isn't going to argue with that.]

You are still free to leave, and avoid me in the future. Assuming Wonderland will let you, of course.

[ssmisery]

[The mysterious force that is conversational momentum does seem to be moving towards winding down, doesn't it? As if the conversation itself in charge here, with these two just captive to it. Lapis can feel the potential of freedom strongly enough to start physically sidling away even as she continues.]

And I still don't understand how you can make that sound so friendly. But since you're being forced to be honest, now I'm going to know it really isn't fake, and I probably won't be able to convince myself it's all just stupidity. I... really don't get you, but... fine.

[didntknowbest]

Believe it or not, sometimes people are just nice, and considerate of other peoples feelings. I hope that you will be able to see that more easily in the future.

[Toriel's starting to move away as well. This... wasn't quite as unpleasant as it could've been, but she'd still like to leave before that changes, really.]

[ssmisery]

...Yeah, some people are. Maybe you would've won me over if you hadn't set me off, but I guess we'll never know.

[Yes, this is definitely winding down. She can almost get away. Lapis gives Toriel one last sidelong look.]

I do at least respect that you have a sense of humor.

[And before a response can come, she breaks away, whips out the wings and flies off.]