It may very well be the worst thing that's ever happened to you! | OPEN MINGLE

[vitaelamorte]

Who: EVERYONE!
Where: EVERYWHERE!
When: Friday October 27th - Tuesday October 31st
Rating: PG-13, warn if you're gonna go higher!
Summary: A catch all for the Horrible Memory Truth Event!
The Story:

For the duration of this event, everyone's entire room will be replaced with a memory playing on loop. They will likely recognize the moment as soon as they see it – it is a moment they remember as the worst moment of their entire lives. It could be a memory from home or something that happened in Wonderland. Lengths of the memories will vary, but they will find that these are not memories they can merely watch – they can step into these memories and attempt to make changes to them, and the memories will be long enough that they have time to make changes (though no more than 24 hours). However, anyone who tries will find that it is futile. No matter what you do or how hard you try, the outcome is always exactly the same somehow. No changes you make will prevent that horrible outcome. It just happens over and over and over again no matter what you do.

On top of that, perhaps complicating any attempts to make changes, everyone will be forced to be honest for the duration of the event. No lies or half-truths are allowed, and filters will be gone for the entire five days. If something bothers someone then they will blurt it out, regardless of whether or not it hurts someone's feelings, and no one will be able to simply keep quiet when they have something to say. They must be truthful and honest with every word they say.

This is a catch-all log for all of your Worst Memory needs! Please mark your threads clearly in the subject line with your character's name and Room Number + Floor for character rooms, or just location if you're making a top level for a public place in the mansion (like the tea rooms or the kitchen) so people can see if there's already a thread available. And here's the plot post if you need it!

Have fun!

Comments

[restinglichface]

[Well. Holy fuck. That's one way to kill the mood.

Lup's grin drops off her face pretty quick, a small furrow of confusion settling between her brows. Shit.] That's. Heavy. You didn't really strike me as the murdering type.

[determinedest]

[Now that they've said it, there's no tearing it away. There's a faint deepening of the crease on their brow, curving their expression downward just a shade - for a moment, and then it's gone again. Back to the ordinary blankness they're so very good at displaying. It's not just a lie, or maybe it never was. It's what they are.]

[It's what they learned to be.]

I didn't think I was either. [Until - ]

[Until a lot of things.]

[restinglichface]

[--Until it happened. Hm.

The woman's not quite sure what to make of that. Some people just deserve to die, it's true, and her and her brother certainly hadn't lived anything even close to an innocent childhood, but there's something different about Frisk that tugs at her heart. They are clearly messed up by this. It wasn't something they wanted to do.]

Whatever happened, it's in the past. Who cares. What matters is that you're doing good shit now, right?

[determinedest]

Sometimes.

[A tentative lift of their eyes, just to sweep at her expression, before they drop once more. Nothing. Is she really okay with that sort of admission? Is she really okay with them?]

[Maybe she's withholding judgment to start with. It's always possible.]

I'm sorry. I don't like to start with that, usually.

[restinglichface]

[Lup saves her harsh judgement for people who deserve it. People who willingly choose to hurt the innocent. People who would willingly prey on young elven children who had no where else to go. People who owe her money. The ush.

With Frisk though, she just has a feeling. And maybe it's not a lot to go on, but it's the best tool she's had to use in this place so far.]

Fair, it's a pretty crappy tagline. But mouths have been running crazy lately. And y'know, for what it's worth, I think you're one of the good ones.

[determinedest]

I think that means you don't know me very well yet.

[Well. As long as they're being honest. Ha ha.]

Are you okay? With...everything here? It's a lot. I worry about the people who just got here. [I feel like I have to help them, because it's always been my job to help solve other people's problems. But that's a few more words than they're used to uttering at any given time, particularly to someone new.]

[restinglichface]

[The elf shrugs, not looking offended by the commentary. Really, the kid's right. She doesn't know them at all. She hasn't really let herself get to know anyone in Wonderland.]

Whatever you say. [and it would be simple to keep it at that, but of course the truth just can't help but spill out,] You sure seemed pretty adverse to fightin' before, though, so I'd assume you were pretty off the murderin' thing now. That's gotta be an improvement.

[Lup is awful at comfort. This is honestly the best she can do.]

And it sucks here. I hate it. It's the loneliest I've ever felt.

[determinedest]

I try to be. I don't like to FIGHT.

[They learned.]

[They learned that it wasn't what they wanted to do - what they wanted to be. Or maybe that's just what they told themself so that they'd feel better about what they were and what they'd done. It's impossible for them to know anymore; the difference between who they are and who others want them to be.]

[They're not sure there is one.]

...loneliest?

[restinglichface]

[Scratch that: This place is the literal worst.

It's out there now and as much as Lup would like to keep these very personal, private things to herself, Wonderland is just not going to give her the privacy she deserves to grieve alone. Now she has to do it in public, in front of near strangers.

Wonderland can eat her whole ass.

Lup grits her teeth and looks like she wants to snarl and fight herself just to keep anymore from coming out, but it's just too late.] My brother's here. My twin. But he lost his memory of me. Thinks I'm some kinda Wonderland monster sent to mess with him. We've always been together, it's always been just the two of us, ever since we were born. Until now.

[determinedest]

[Their shoulders drop.]

[They did this. They should have shut up. They should have done what Frisk is best at, and kept quiet and been the good, sweet little kid that she must have thought they were at first and not uttered a question that they must have known would yield an answer, because Wonderland needs its answers like this.]

[They did this. They did this. They did this they did this they did this they did this they did ]

When you've always had someone else, it's...it's hard. When you don't have them anymore.

[They can understand that, at least. To an extent.]

...but I shouldn't have asked.

[restinglichface]

[For all of Frisk's upset, Lup looks much more neutral on the subject. She's already had her big crying moments for today over it and has been holding the topic close to her heart for well over a month. And even if this invasion of privacy continues to be awful and rude and whoever came up with it should be set on fire on the spot, she can deal.

It's words. Just words. She's reading off the script of what happened. Set herself apart from the scene and the words don't have to mean anything.

It's not the healthiest or most effective coping mechanism, but it's what she's got.]

It is what it is, kid. Not your fault for askin'. [Like really, they are in the clear. None of the assholes in this place can be put at fault for whatever they say recently. Which sucks cause Lup would at least feel a little better having someone to throw her anger at.] It sucks more than anything but it's whatevs. I can handle being alone.

I'll just kick his ass when he does remember.

[determinedest]

[Does he think she's a Mirror? They haven't met him, they don't think. They'd remember, if he has ears like hers, slender and tapering and alien and beautiful in the same strange way Toriel's are.]

[They think they'd remember.]

Did Wonderland do that to him? [It sounds like something Wonderland would do. Unfortunately, if it was Wonderland, they don't know if there's any way to actually fix it. They haven't figured out how to fix anything Wonderland does to people unless it's temporary.]

[And given how long she's been here, it's clear this isn't temporary, to start with.]

[restinglichface]

No. [Another tidbit she doesn't necessarily want to get out, but Lup just rolls her eyes and lets her mouth do the work for her. She can't stop it, may was well just ride this train into the station.]

Happened before here. My bestie wiped his memory clean of me. It's this big thing. Complicated. She finally popped into Wonderland and there's nothing here to use as a quick fix. So we're just kinda... waiting, I guess.

[determinedest]

[To have the most important person in your life forget that you even exist.]

[They don't know exactly what that's like. They have a handful of reasonable analogues, but it seems unfair to try and apply them to this when it's obvious that it's not their pain, and they shouldn't be wrapping themself in loops and knots in an effort to understand it when they can't.]

[They can't solve every person's problems flawlessly here, like this. They know that.]

Maybe he'll go home and come back with memories of you.

[Given the way they can say it, it's apparently very much a possibility.]

[restinglichface]

[Lup's eyes widen slightly at the suggestion, her whole being perking up considerably at the other's words. There's hope in her expression, unmistakable and earnest.]

Is... Is that something that can happen? [Lup's heard mention of people leaving and returning, but no one's said anything about returning with different memories. Is it possible? Could Taako still come back to her?]

[determinedest]

Yeah. It can.

[She didn't know?]
[She didn't know.]

[That earns her a hopeful lift of the corners of their mouth, an earnest smoothing of the frown lines on their brow.]

Sometimes people disappear but they come back...with new memories. Like things kept going back home when they went back.

[restinglichface]

[Lup falls silent, just for a moment, taking the kid's words to heart. For everything that she'd heard of Wonderland so far, this is the biggest, most relieving surprise yet. Taako could come back to her with his memories. She doesn't know if it's even going to happen at this point, but if there's a possibility, it's something.

She's going to cling to this hope for as long as she possibly can.]

I had no idea. I... [And alright, maybe now she's getting a little emotional, but only just barely, eyes looking slightly wet.] Thanks, kid. Thanks.

[determinedest]

[Big kids don't cry.]

[They take the opportunity to look obliquely away, head slightly tilted. It feels wrong to keep smiling, but she's sincere because she must be - because Wonderland doesn't give her the option not to be. She had no idea that things can be shifted, little bumps and twitches along the road, and that nothing truly ever has to be permanent.]

[From nothing, nothing comes.]

Sometimes things here...they can be really bad. [They won't, can't, lie to her there.] But sometimes Wonderland works for us, too.

[restinglichface]

[Lup can't help but laugh, surprised by how light she suddenly feels, hope swelling in her chest at this unexpected news. She leans back against the kitchen counter and sucks in a breath, delighting in how much easier they seem to come now. She's got this. She can wait as long as she needs to if he'll come back.] Yeah, I deffo got that so far. Place isn't exactly great.

[a beat] But if it can make Taako remember me again, I'll take it. I think I owe you big time for that.

[determinedest]

I don’t know how to make anyone go home, but maybe it’ll happen soon.

[They don’t really deserve credit for that. They’re just someone who’s been here long enough to know how things work. Surely no one is really owed for that, are they? ]

It’s not really...you don’t owe me.

[restinglichface]

[And it's only the truth that needs to spill from her mouth that gets Lup's answer so honest, as embarrassing as it was to say.]

I've been feeling really helpless around this place. Lost. Sure, people are nice and all, but it's been hard. And I know shit isn't fixed, but this is the best I've felt since appearing here. So, I do. Thanks, kid. I feel happier than I have in a long time.

[determinedest]

I'm...glad that I could help, then.

[At least that much is true. At least they aren't saying something horrible and flat and emotionless. They're not utterly and inconsolably terrible at baseline. And what they have to say next just proves it, maybe.]

I hope he remembers you soon.

[restinglichface]

[Lup turns away and smiles, as if she feels she needs to hide how happy she's feeling even after she's stated it aloud.]

Sweet, so we're agreed I owe you something. [Not exactly what they said, but she has her own interpretation.] I'm pretty much the most baller chef in this place, so if you've got a fav food, I could whip that up as a treat.

[determinedest]

[She doesn’t, really, but the urge to protest falls short in comparison to the knowledge that something like a favorite food is easily remedied. What’s more is that they know for a fact, from experience, that such thugs taste better when shared.]

Do you like...pie?

[restinglichface]

Sure do! Great at making it too. What's your favorite kind?