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entrancelogs2017-10-26 11:54 pm
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Entry tags:
- 2064 read only memories: turing,
- attack on titan: jean kirstein,
- dangan ronpa: kiyotaka ishimaru,
- dangan ronpa: kokichi oma,
- dangan ronpa: mondo oowada,
- dangan ronpa: ryoko otonashi,
- dangan ronpa: sayaka maizono,
- dc comics: cissie king-jones,
- dc comics: damian wayne,
- dc comics: jonathan kent,
- dc comics: kon-el,
- dc comics: tim drake,
- dragon age: warden cousland,
- erased: kayo hinazuki,
- erased: satoru fujinuma,
- estancia: kay,
- gravity falls: dipper pines,
- gravity falls: mabel pines,
- izombie: olivia moore,
- legends of tomorrow: rip hunter,
- life is strange: max caulfield,
- lucifer: chloe decker,
- lucifer: lucifer morningstar,
- marble hornets: jay,
- marble hornets: tim,
- marvel: billy kaplan,
- marvel: natasha romanoff,
- marvel: peggy carter,
- marvel: tony stark,
- mass effect: commander shepard,
- mass effect: legion,
- newsflesh: georgia mason,
- newsflesh: shaun mason,
- night in the woods: mae borowski,
- ouat: henry mills,
- outlander: claire fraser,
- over the garden wall: greg,
- over the garden wall: wirt,
- persona 3: arisato minato,
- persona 4: seta souji,
- persona 5: ryuji sakamoto,
- rick and morty: morty smith,
- rick and morty: rick,
- steven universe: lapis lazuli,
- steven universe: peridot,
- supernatural: sam winchester,
- the adventure zone: lucretia,
- the adventure zone: lup,
- the adventure zone: taako tacco,
- the amazing spider-man: peter parker,
- the blacklist: raymond reddington,
- the last of us: ellie,
- the last of us: joel,
- the o.c.: taylor townsend,
- the picture of dorian gray: dorian gray,
- the vampire diaries: caroline forbes,
- the vampire diaries: damon salvatore,
- the vampire diaries: elena gilbert,
- the vampire diaries: klaus mikaelson,
- the walking dead game: clementine,
- the walking dead: michonne,
- undertale: alphys,
- undertale: asgore dreemurr,
- undertale: frisk,
- undertale: mettaton,
- undertale: papyrus,
- undertale: sans,
- undertale: toriel
It may very well be the worst thing that's ever happened to you! | OPEN MINGLE
Who: EVERYONE!
Where: EVERYWHERE!
When: Friday October 27th - Tuesday October 31st
Rating: PG-13, warn if you're gonna go higher!
Summary: A catch all for the Horrible Memory Truth Event!
The Story:
For the duration of this event, everyone's entire room will be replaced with a memory playing on loop. They will likely recognize the moment as soon as they see it – it is a moment they remember as the worst moment of their entire lives. It could be a memory from home or something that happened in Wonderland. Lengths of the memories will vary, but they will find that these are not memories they can merely watch – they can step into these memories and attempt to make changes to them, and the memories will be long enough that they have time to make changes (though no more than 24 hours). However, anyone who tries will find that it is futile. No matter what you do or how hard you try, the outcome is always exactly the same somehow. No changes you make will prevent that horrible outcome. It just happens over and over and over again no matter what you do.
On top of that, perhaps complicating any attempts to make changes, everyone will be forced to be honest for the duration of the event. No lies or half-truths are allowed, and filters will be gone for the entire five days. If something bothers someone then they will blurt it out, regardless of whether or not it hurts someone's feelings, and no one will be able to simply keep quiet when they have something to say. They must be truthful and honest with every word they say.
This is a catch-all log for all of your Worst Memory needs! Please mark your threads clearly in the subject line with your character's name and Room Number + Floor for character rooms, or just location if you're making a top level for a public place in the mansion (like the tea rooms or the kitchen) so people can see if there's already a thread available. And here's the plot post if you need it!
Have fun!
Where: EVERYWHERE!
When: Friday October 27th - Tuesday October 31st
Rating: PG-13, warn if you're gonna go higher!
Summary: A catch all for the Horrible Memory Truth Event!
The Story:
For the duration of this event, everyone's entire room will be replaced with a memory playing on loop. They will likely recognize the moment as soon as they see it – it is a moment they remember as the worst moment of their entire lives. It could be a memory from home or something that happened in Wonderland. Lengths of the memories will vary, but they will find that these are not memories they can merely watch – they can step into these memories and attempt to make changes to them, and the memories will be long enough that they have time to make changes (though no more than 24 hours). However, anyone who tries will find that it is futile. No matter what you do or how hard you try, the outcome is always exactly the same somehow. No changes you make will prevent that horrible outcome. It just happens over and over and over again no matter what you do.
On top of that, perhaps complicating any attempts to make changes, everyone will be forced to be honest for the duration of the event. No lies or half-truths are allowed, and filters will be gone for the entire five days. If something bothers someone then they will blurt it out, regardless of whether or not it hurts someone's feelings, and no one will be able to simply keep quiet when they have something to say. They must be truthful and honest with every word they say.
This is a catch-all log for all of your Worst Memory needs! Please mark your threads clearly in the subject line with your character's name and Room Number + Floor for character rooms, or just location if you're making a top level for a public place in the mansion (like the tea rooms or the kitchen) so people can see if there's already a thread available. And here's the plot post if you need it!
Have fun!
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In, and out. In, and out. In, and out.
His hands are still in his hair, but their grip loosens and lies flat under Stanford's own hands. He can't bring himself to look at the other man though; it's shameful, being this weak, caving to anxiety so easily. Is he crying? God, he hopes not, he doesn't need further embarrassment to make him want to start reaching for the memory gun.]
You should, though. I'm not worth that.
[He's given up on himself months ago. The smart thing would be for you to do the same, Stanford.]
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No, no you're worth so much more than that. [He carefully brings Fiddleford's hands down, if he'll let him.] We could stand here all week arguing about our self worth, but that won't change my mind.
You're not a villain, you're just trying to survive. I just wish I could help you find a better way to do it--a way that won't hurt you. [Ford sighs and rubs at his forehead.]
The truth is, it took me years and years to actually believe I was hot scientific stuff. [Oh. Oh God he doesn't want to talk about this but--] I know I never really talked about my childhood and I have my reasons. I always thought I was a freak, born with these hands and feet and terrible lungs that turned out to be asthmatic, and the only good thing I had for years was my brother. Then I started winning awards and actually making my parents proud, and suddenly I wasn't a freak anymore. [Ford shrugs, trying to play it off. It's not a lie, but it's pretty terrible.]
I was a nerd. And being a nerd is better than being a freak.
When Dad kicked Stanley out, I didn't even have the muscle to my brains anymore. It was just me, trying to convince Dad that science was actually a lucrative career so he'd invest in me going to school, and without Stanley? Hah! You should've seen me hit the weights and punching bag again! [No, Stanford, you don't get to gloss over that. His halfhearted attempt at a smile fades when he's compelled to elaborate.] ...I still had to fend off the guys who couldn't let the polydactyly go.
--What I'm trying to say is... I was rotten to you because I put all of my worth into being successful. I was nothing without my research. I took my shame and owned it so hard I fooled myself into thinking I was amazing--which, I am but... you get the drift. [Ford rubs the back of his neck.]
That's how I dealt with things, I pushed everyone away and hid in a laboratory. You dealt with things by erasing them from your brain so you wouldn't actually have to deal with them. If you're a coward, so am I.
[He laughs awkwardly.] I didn't tell you how I felt here in Wonderland because I was afraid you'd think I was a freak too.
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At the last part though, Fidds laughs, but it's a choked, watery thing stuck in the back of his throat.]
That'd be kinda hypocritical if I did, given how much of a freak I am by comparison.
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[Ford is flabbergasted and it wouldn't take a truth event to choke this out of him. He doesn't get it.]
If anyone ever calls you a freak or even implies anything negative about you, I will personally attempt to knock their teeth out.
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[... He did not mean to add that part out loud: Rick may be a jerk but advocating violence should not be encouraged, regardless of what we think of the guy.
Bill however can absolutely go fuck himself.]no subject
Ford clears his throat. At least there's levity being had. That's a good sign.]
And fortunately for everyone, Bill is gone. He's gone for good. I checked in his room and it was empty. I know it was his room because last Christmas I put a stale fruitcake in it and drew a summoning sign on the wall.
[............yes.] When I checked, I realized he was gone, and I broke down and sobbed with relief.
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Oh for fuck's sake--!]no subject
[We always just sort of assumed he didn't have one because he was living inside of the network?]
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[He uses actual air quotes with his fingers.]
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[...]
I was talkin' to Alphys earlier and the two of us were debatin' whether or not he could still be here, even if it's been quiet on his end. Hearin' that though... i--it's a relief, even if a part of me still fears the alternative, that he's just hidin' somewhere to make people think he's gone until...
[... Until he comes back with some scheme. The mere thought of which causes his hands to shake with the temptation to go in his hair again, but he can't because Stanford's still holding them in front of him here.]
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[Ford feels this is definitive.]
I also didn't tell you or anyone else because I knew you all would wonder how and why I knew that and I hate speaking to anyone about Bill, because everyone always wants to ask questions that lead to uncomfortable topics like being possessed.
[...He feels Fiddleford's hands shake and suddenly remembers he's holding his hands. Gently, he tries to steady them with his own.]
--It's not weird, is it? How I feel? And me trying to calm you down with physical contact?
[Not that Ford knows, but if they can just forgive each other, they'll be free of being compelled to truthfully overshare. There's so much to forgive though, so even if he knew, it might not help much.]
tw: mention of homophobia
No. It's unexpected, but somehow, it... it doesn't feel wrong, hearin' it from you. Even if I've been told different since before we met, told how I should respond to somethin' like that.
[It's not really a conversation his family had all that much, but they didn't have to for Fiddleford to get the implication from society that they would have had words, if not just shy of threatening getting his hide tanned six ways to Sunday if they had ever caught him having that kind of relationship with a man. Especially now that he had a wife (even if she was an ex) and a son. The respectable, expected image of a proper family man.
...And yet]
I already said it before, but I still think you can do better. You deserve better.
[He's just a lead weight, an anchor tied like a noose threatening to pull the other man into a point of no return.
But as he stares at their hands, here at the point where a better man would have let go and stepped back, his mouth opens and the words fall out before they can be stopped--]
Except, I'm... happy. Bein' told that I'm loved despite that. And that it's you, the person that I care about the most in this place.
tw: mention of homophobia
Ford steers his mind away from thoughts about what his parents would say. His father always expected him to wear that suit Stanley eventually adopted--for a wedding. A wedding! Ford has always been married to his work in his adult life. It just wasn't in the cards and now, thirty years later? Rather than start a family, the one that matters is his brother, the young Pines twins, and all the family friends in Gravity Falls (and here in Wonderland too).
... Yes, that's a good thing to think about. Family.]
--You're... [Ford laughs mirthfully.] Of course you are! I told you, I'm going to forgive you. I already do. I just don't want you to hurt yourself. And if other people want you to do that... I don't agree with it, but people can choose to smoke and drink, so... they should at least know what they're getting into. They have a right to know. I don't like it, I think it's wrong, but if a person wants to choose to wreck their brain they should at least know what they're doing beforehand.
Ugh, look, I--Fiddleford, I don't want better because better doesn't exist. Perhaps between the two of us we can make up one decent human being, or... something like that.
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[Even if Stanford... isn't exactly wrong here...]
... Hey, Stanford?
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...? Yes?
i have no good icons for this rest in pieces me
... and wrapping his arms around the other man in a tight hug.
And while being closer means that Stanford will be able to see certain things like the patches of his hair that are thinner than the rest from hair that's been torn out and slowly trying to grow back, or the way his clothes seem looser than normal from losing weight, or even the shadows under his eyes from lack of sleep... Fiddleford doesn't really care about that right now. Instead he's entirely focused on this, the feeling of gratitude that he has for this person here in front of him.]