entrancelogs | It may very well be the worst thing that's ever happened to you!

Who: EVERYONE!
Where: EVERYWHERE!
When: Friday October 27th - Tuesday October 31st
Rating: PG-13, warn if you're gonna go higher!
Summary: A catch all for the Horrible Memory Truth Event!
The Story:

For the duration of this event, everyone's entire room will be replaced with a memory playing on loop. They will likely recognize the moment as soon as they see it – it is a moment they remember as the worst moment of their entire lives. It could be a memory from home or something that happened in Wonderland. Lengths of the memories will vary, but they will find that these are not memories they can merely watch – they can step into these memories and attempt to make changes to them, and the memories will be long enough that they have time to make changes (though no more than 24 hours). However, anyone who tries will find that it is futile. No matter what you do or how hard you try, the outcome is always exactly the same somehow. No changes you make will prevent that horrible outcome. It just happens over and over and over again no matter what you do.

On top of that, perhaps complicating any attempts to make changes, everyone will be forced to be honest for the duration of the event. No lies or half-truths are allowed, and filters will be gone for the entire five days. If something bothers someone then they will blurt it out, regardless of whether or not it hurts someone's feelings, and no one will be able to simply keep quiet when they have something to say. They must be truthful and honest with every word they say.

This is a catch-all log for all of your Worst Memory needs! Please mark your threads clearly in the subject line with your character's name and Room Number + Floor for character rooms, or just location if you're making a top level for a public place in the mansion (like the tea rooms or the kitchen) so people can see if there's already a thread available. And here's the plot post if you need it!

Have fun!

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

[She shakes her head.]

Not really. Sure, he was disappointed that they'd sink that low, but we've known what we are to them for a damn long time. They can't hurt us anymore. And he did talk them out of it.

At least there's that. I mean, not that it makes it better but... Maybe there was something in them that really cared about you both, if he was able to get them to stop?

[ She can't be sure, after all, but she'd like to think so. ]

Some of the cases I've investigated... You find out people can do horrible things, even to people that they love. I can't imagine there wasn't at least a part of them that cared.

That's cause you don't know them.

[Her voice is dark, and more pain shines through than she means to.]

Believe me. If there's a part of them that loved us, it wasn't nearly enough.

[ That silences Chloe, and she doesn't look at Georgia for a long moment. She didn't know them, and she doesn't know why she feels the need to defend obviously terrible parents who had done so much damage to their children.

She's guilty for being so far from Trixie after all so, perhaps she is only defending them because she feels like she needs to defend herself. ]

Yeah, you're right. I just... My daughter is the most important thing to me in the world. The idea of her not knowing that is just something I can't even imagine, so I can't understand any parent who wouldn't feel that way.

You probably also can't imagine having to shoot your daughter in the head.

[It's cruel to say. But Georgia's entire world is cruel. If Chloe's going to continue trying to understand Georgia's parents, she has to have the whole story.]

My parents don't have to imagine. Their biological son, Philip Mason, was the first confirmed case of amplification via dog bite. My mother shot him in the head back when that still felt like murder, not mercy.

[Did it ever stop feeling like murder? She can still hear the quiet thump of Buffy's body hitting the ground after Georgia shot her. She can still feel the barrel of Shaun's gun pressed against her neck.

It never really got easier.]

They loved Philip. Losing him broke them. Maybe in another world they could have loved us. But not in this one.

[ Chloe feels a lump rise in her throat, and she turns away so Georgia can't see the tears threatening to spill from her eyes.

She can't imagine it. She doesn't want to, especially after having watched the memory she did and remembering the terror of having Trixie taken from her, the almost crippling fear in the knowledge that if she died, Trixie would, too. Chloe had forced her way through it and tried not to think about it, but Georgia's words ignite those fears all over again. ]

It was probably easier not to love you, in case it happened again.

[ It's horrible to say, but she can't stop herself. ]

Georgia, I... [ She doesn't know what to say, whether to apologize for forcing it, for being so cold in making her relive all of this. It's not what she wants to say, though, and instead, something else comes out. ] Just because they didn't love you doesn't mean you're not deserving of love. You know that, right?

[Oh god.

Her sunglasses hide her eyes and the tears there, but Georgia still has to press her hand to her mouth, breathing hard for a moment to try and get herself under control.]

I know. [Her voice is quiet and unsteady, but it is the truth. Even more than usual, she can't give anything else.] And I am loved. By Shaun. If nothing else, I'm certain of that. He's all I have and all I want.

[She meant to say all she needs, but... it can't quite make it out.]

[ While Chloe cares for her friends, she's never been good at showing it. After losing her father and being betrayed by her husband, she's found it harder and harder to open up to the people around her, even her own daughter. This event has already forced her to confront her own uncomfortable truths, to talk about things she would rather keep hidden.

It hurts. But it also has made things better, at least when it comes to Lucifer and the other people she cares for. ]

He's not all you have. [ Chloe watches her carefully, knowing full well what is going on behind those glasses. She does understand how hard this is, even if she understands it in a different way. ] You're loved by plenty of people. If I've learned anything from what Lucifer's been through and who he's become... It's that family means a lot more than just the people who raised you.

I have good friends.

[That much she can say. That much she knows. Mahir and Maggie, Tim and Jay, Rocket, Rick, Clementine... maybe Chloe will even count herself among their number before too long. She certainly has proven herself understanding.

What she doesn't mean to add is:]

They deserve a better friend than I'm capable of being.

You know, you're far from the first person to say that to me.

[ She hears it from Seth and Lucifer often enough. They both have spent so long hating themselves, it's like they've forgotten they don't have to be hated. They both have never felt they deserved her, as a friend or anything more.

And maybe they don't. But as far as Chloe is concerned, love isn't something that needs to be deserved. ]

Back home? I hated reporters. I mean, hated them. Before I became a cop, I was an actress. Not a good one, but I did this stupid movie that was kind of popular. When my dad died, the paparazzi decided it would be great to get some pictures of the Hot Tub High School girl devastated at her father's funeral, I guess. The guy got in my face and I punched him out. [ She manages a grim smile. ] I never thought I'd meet a reporter that I'd ever like. But you're different. You really care about the truth, about doing right by people and I guess... That's exactly what I wanted to be, too, what I wanted to do when I joined the police. If anyone deserves friendship, Georgia, it's someone like you.

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