It may very well be the worst thing that's ever happened to you! | OPEN MINGLE

[vitaelamorte]

Who: EVERYONE!
Where: EVERYWHERE!
When: Friday October 27th - Tuesday October 31st
Rating: PG-13, warn if you're gonna go higher!
Summary: A catch all for the Horrible Memory Truth Event!
The Story:

For the duration of this event, everyone's entire room will be replaced with a memory playing on loop. They will likely recognize the moment as soon as they see it – it is a moment they remember as the worst moment of their entire lives. It could be a memory from home or something that happened in Wonderland. Lengths of the memories will vary, but they will find that these are not memories they can merely watch – they can step into these memories and attempt to make changes to them, and the memories will be long enough that they have time to make changes (though no more than 24 hours). However, anyone who tries will find that it is futile. No matter what you do or how hard you try, the outcome is always exactly the same somehow. No changes you make will prevent that horrible outcome. It just happens over and over and over again no matter what you do.

On top of that, perhaps complicating any attempts to make changes, everyone will be forced to be honest for the duration of the event. No lies or half-truths are allowed, and filters will be gone for the entire five days. If something bothers someone then they will blurt it out, regardless of whether or not it hurts someone's feelings, and no one will be able to simply keep quiet when they have something to say. They must be truthful and honest with every word they say.

This is a catch-all log for all of your Worst Memory needs! Please mark your threads clearly in the subject line with your character's name and Room Number + Floor for character rooms, or just location if you're making a top level for a public place in the mansion (like the tea rooms or the kitchen) so people can see if there's already a thread available. And here's the plot post if you need it!

Have fun!

Comments

[nomorules]

<sub>[... Well, that might just be the biggest steaming pile of bullshit Mondo's tried to feed him yet--which is impressive considering how much bullshit and how many uncomfortable truths have been passed around to date.

Ryuji takes in air, blows it out through his nose. The chill is palpable when he lifts his chin and confronts that comment with staunch certainty.]</sub>

With one big goddamn difference: I can control my shit. If you spent a little more time tryin' instead of bein' an asshole, you wouldn't be where you are.

<sub>[A murderer. Someone throwing away opportunities. Worried about going into a blackout rage and hurting people.

Ryuji's willing to concede they may have started somewhere similar in life, young and struggling. Big feelings and bigger frustrations. But the similarities end there. The other boy had gone down a dark road--and he has the shamelessness to keep turning his shit around on Ryuji? The hell with that.]</sub>

I'm sure as shit not comin' down to your level--you'd better get on mine. That's how it is.

_{[Good fucking luck to any doctor who takes Mondo's case. Kicking the crap out of his Shadow would be so much easier...]}

[trabryu]

[ What the fuck.

Is that necessary now? Seriously? Mondo feels sick hearing this guy repeating himself like a broken tape, over and over, every time they meet. This is like their last talk all over again. He's not trying? Then what the hell's he been doing? Catching the air? Don't fuck with him. Gritting his teeth, he fights back the budding anger that's most likely written all over his face. ]

Yeah yeah, I'm holier than thou, I've heard that thousand times already. And? What else do you have?

[ As much as he hates to admit, he's... disappointed to hear that. A small part of him probably held some kind of expectation, giving a tiny bit of benefit of the doubt ー that maybe this dude was trying to help all these while. It's why he continues engaging, why he decides to speak to this asshole, as much as he wanted to leave. Now it all feels so fucking stupid. He can see for sure, that this guy's really just looking for a way to feed his own ego. He's just trying to hand Mondo's ass over to himself, to chalk it up at the fucking blackboard that Mondo's at fault. Hah! Like he doesn't already realise that himself. It's why he's trying to get help. ]

Fuck if I'm gonna bother with that.

[ In the end, this shithead's just the same with all the others who look down on him. Mondo's not looking for acceptance ー he knows what he's done. But having your past constantly being brought up and constantly being shitted on for it isn't what he'd consider an attempt to help. He fucking knows how much he's fucked up. He doesn't need this 'YOU'RE WRONG' lecture every single fucking time.

Nah, more like...

He's done. ]

Get out.

[nomorules]

Oh, shuddup with that already.

_{[No one is more disdainful of this idea of holier than thou superiority than Ryuji himself. As Mondo starts to bristle, he gives a mighty eye roll. What a world it'd be if Mondo could stop reading everything as a personal attack instead of the challenge to improve it is...]}

That's not what I meant. And if you calmed down and thought it through a sec, you'd get that's not what I meant. I ain't "better" 'cause I get to wear this mask. This mask's a reminder of all best parts of me and all the worst--it's my will to be better than the person I was. I worked my ass off for it.

_{[To be worthy of it, in a manner of speaking. Coming to that conclusion had come at the cost of realizing no good came out of comparing himself to others.]}

I did it by losin' the chip on my shoulder when I was down, not worryin' about who's tryina keep me down and givin' attitude when someone's doin' me a favor. Get on that level.

_{[This was never about Mondo trying and failing to reinforce Ryuji's position of moral strength so he could feel better about his own successes. It's about Mondo trying and succeeding for himself, for Fujisaki, for his brother, for everyone else. Why is that so freaking hard for this musclehead to get?]}

[trabryu]

'If I calmed down and thought it through for a sec'?

[ Mondo wants to laugh, but doesn't. Instead, he just makes a noise of disbelief. ]

You're tellin' me that when you're not even listenin' to what I said! You seriously think I could believe that some asshole who kept babblin' shit about how much I don't try, how much I've fucked up, is actually tryinna help me? Heck, you even listenin' to yourself?!

[ He takes a long, deep breath, and releases it slowly. ]

Dude, I'm a fuckin' criminal, I know that much. But that don't mean I gotta tell you shit if I don't wanna. You're not the cops. Y'can't force people to trust you, ya gotta earn that shit! Maybe back in your world you can just... I dunno, barge into someone's heart or some crap, but that ain't the way to go here! If it ain't for this event, I won't even bother tellin' ya.

[nomorules]

Is there a frickin' echo in here?

_{[God, but he's frustrating. When he's not making a fist with his hand, he's holding it out demanding what he should be offering.]}

I'm listenin' and I heard you say you wanna take charge of yourself! Puttin' a cork in this shitty 'tude of yours would be a start! How's gettin' pissed at people and distrustin' 'em ever made things better for ya? You didn't trust your bro or Fujisaki enough to let them accept the real you, but they trusted you with a responsibility. A responsibility to be better.

Maybe it's time you made the first move with more people besides just a doctor. You ain't gotta like me, but how 'bout tryin'a be less of a dick with the next guy in my shoes, hey?

_{[Give it a little to get a little, isn't that how the saying goes?]}

--And By the way, you forgot the damn part about how I saved your life. Again. Kinda weird thing to do for someone who ain't tryin'a help.

_{[If they do one more spin around the circular argument wheel about how Ryuji's only helping him to help himself, and blah blah blah blah, Mondo's an island who can do it all himself, blah blah, they get a stamp on their Subway card and a free sandwich.]}

[trabryu]

[ Is he really? Honestly, this fucker just keeps making it extra hard for Mondo to cooperate with his attitude. He's losing the will to even get heated up about it anymore. ]

I'm not doin' it at every single person I see, goddammit. [ Get it already, how many times he's said this?! ] You don't gotta tell me that, I'm already tryin' it! I just thought it'd be nice if y'know, I could get some real advice. I don't got the brains for it! ...Tch.

[ Fuck this truth event. Let this end already, god.

At the mention of 'saving his life' bit, he answers with an eye roll. ]

Yeah yeah, okay fine, you were tryinna help. Then? What else ya want me to say? What do ya want from this? All y've been doin' is pissin' me off for no reason! Ya keep sayin' I need ta come clean and tell people shit, but I'm already doin' those shit!

[ Sure, not to everyone ever, but who the fuck does that? ]

[nomorules]

_{[Yum yum, that free sandwich's gonna taste real good...]}

That is real advice! "Don't be an ass clown." That's the realest advice you're ever gonna get in life!

_{[And he should know, he gets it a lot. And you know what? Most of the time it's sound.]}

I don't just mean writin' the network a strongly worded letter. The point is confrontin' yourself. These blackout rages you get into ain't some mystery--they come from you and you can control 'em. If it takes a doc to get you there, then fine, phantom therapy it is.

That's what I'm after.

_{[Wow, it's almost like they have the same goal here. Shocking...]}

[trabryu]

[ Mondo would give himself a pat on his own back for managing to let many shit slide in their conversations so far had he had more liberty to think about other things. If that didn't count as controlling himself, he doesn't know what is. ]

Tell me somethin' I dunno.

[ He turns his back on the other. ]

I felt I needed one cuz I've done enough confrontin' myself day after day here, and I know that ain't all there's to it.

[ They're going nowhere with this. He's tired of repeating and hearing the same things. ]

If y'don't wanna leave, I'll do it.

[nomorules]

You make it way too complicated. That is all there is to it, but that's what I'm here for--to get that through your thick skull one way or another.

I'll ask around, though. See if anyone knows any shrinks. I guess that's a step in the right direction...

_{[Ah, yes. Mondo is so lucky. The luckiest. He got the best phantom thief of the bunch ready to beat his ass into next week in the name of self-improvement--he should be honored Ryuji took time out of his (not so) busy day to make this uninvited and extremely aggravating house call, really. He's a frickin' saint, they need to canonize him already.]}

--What? _{[Mondo gets a look like Ryuji can't in the least fathom where the suggestion to take a hike extends from.]} Like hell I'm lettin' you leave me alone in this weird ass garage. I'll let myself out, this time.

But don't forget, this ain't over.

[trabryu]

[ With so many crinkles unironed on their agreement board, there's no way for him to just nod his head at the other and say "yeah, I agree". He's not at the state of mind where he can comply with someone he doesn't even trust and take in this kind of attitude with a stride. He had to share something that takes a whole lot out of him against his own volition. Isn't that enough already?

What he has left to offer right now will be a scoff, and a shrug. He'll clear the way, at least. ]

Suit yourself.

[ Try him. As long as the bastard doesn't stop with the whole 'I'm gonna mentor you' attitude, this ain't gonna work. ]