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Who: Peggy Carter + YOU
Where: Library, Rabbit Hole Diner, and other locations.
When: Early Feb
Rating: PG-13; will warn for changes in individual threads.
Summary: A catch-all for the first half of the month. There are some open prompts under the cut, but I'm also posting some closed starters in the comments. Hit me up if you'd like something other than the options below.
The Story:
[ DURING february's first few days, peggy pays a few productive visits to the »LIBRARY. she arrives armed with a scrap pressed into her palm. the paper is thin and torn, jagged, from a puzzle book -- folded in threes with precision and hard corners forced onto its asymmetrical shape. while she walks from stack to stack she traces the list's edge with the pad of her thumb. in reality, she doesn't need it. she'd long-since memorizes the book titles recommended to her in order to bring her loosely up to speed with popular science. so the list is a flimsy talisman, maybe, but during these visits it represents purpose. forward momentum.

her reading list is accumulated over multiple days, as though some reflexive defense mechanism convinces peggy to take her time. patience is rarely her strongest suit but she nevertheless makes an effort, knowing that a rush will only leave her rudderless and once again without distraction. to that end, she allows herself to wander off-path. maybe she's come for non-fiction, but she detours through a shelf of thrillers and mysteries and adventure stories.

she touches the spines as she passes them by -- her little list peeking between her knuckles like an ace at the ready. peggy never intends to appear lost but catch her at an odd moment and she might want some help. after all, stark never gave her author names to go with the titles.

LATER, with her coursework assembled, she goes elsewhere to conduct her reading. a great deal of it happens behind her bedroom door as she readjusts to a solitary life now that jane has returned to her husband. but some of it happens at the »DINER. with a whole booth claimed for herself, she sits with the dust jacket removed so bystanders can't easily discern what she's reading stephen hawking's a brief history of time, incidentally. it takes some two or three chapters to really dig into work she couldn't already recognize in passing -- and, on occasion, she offers up an audible scoff when she finds herself confronted with a colourful explanation of scientific discovery which nevertheless somehow manages to neglect howard stark's contribution.

she orders a plate of chips (hot; crispy; salted) and implores the wait-staff to keep them coming. instead of tea, she asks for a milkshake. not a quarter of an hour passes before she's cracked open a journal and uncapped a pen. her annotations are, for the time being, made in pitman shorthand -- and so appear as a series of near shapeless scribbles to those who aren't fluent. even so, there's no secrecy behind that choice. merely a swell of impatience after she'd worked so hard to contain it earlier.

and yet peggy's not averse to interruptions. not exactly. she may not be the most welcoming conversation partner, nor is she particularly fond of idle chatter, but she doesn't chase off interruptions or inquiries.

OTHERWISE, known associates and strangers alike are free to run into her »OUT & ABOUT. whether she's 'commuting' from quarters to library or grabbing a quick breakfast in the dining room early in the morning. she doesn't have a precise schedule (on most days) but she's not impossible to chance upon. she's nearly always immaculate -- from heel to hair-pins. having a project in hand puts her in a better mood. ]

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[ they had been circling each other since they both arrived at the firing range. and there seems to be no reason to stop the circling now, taking up comfortably opposite positions in his room while they shed their outer layers. and peggy, for her part, makes no real attempt to hide how she watches him dispense with his. she barely hears his assurances, such as they are, because they and the rejoinder prompting them was more flirtation than conversation.

and conversation flees the room in full when he circles his way within reach. his approach is bold -- bolder than peggy had expected, in this particular moment -- and it shows when her expression flashes with pleasant surprise. she's been on the advancing end of such a maneuver once before, at new year's, and arguably something similar had happened with his crossbelt out on the range. but to find herself being drawn in by her own necktie suddenly steals all reason away from her.

-- a quiet forceful curse, a good god, grinds in the back of her throat before rip kisses her. peggy misses only a beat before returning it. she sinks backward by a few inches first only to quickly rise to the occasion, pressing upward as she tastes him. the movement refuses him any opportunity to slouch just to reach her, forcing him to stand straight while she cranes her way deeper into his kiss. he might have intended it as a mere moment's reminder, but peggy draws it out. she's got no reason to hide her hunger.

nor is she thinking about why or what for. and if she notices the scrape of his chin bumping hers, then she certainly doesn't piece together the sly rationale behind it. peggy opts instead to commit herself only to the moment, cracking open a trove of urges that had been building and growing the whole time they had been out in the world instead of tucked safely behind rip's closed door.

it would appear that enjoyment starts now, well before the razor. it lasts until she feels dizzy and then a moment longer still. but when they tilt apart, when she looks him in the eye, she is so very quick to give assurances of her own. ]

That's enough. A decent distraction, perhaps. But no more prevaricating.

[ the words are wry and tight and a touch too restrained as she reaches between their bodies and pries her tie from his grip. peggy loosens the knot and steps beyond him -- aiming for the where the whiskey is kept. if she doesn't find another distraction soon, she might forget entirely to claim her prize. ]

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[Oh, but what a pleasant turn that kiss turns out to be. Even before his mouth covers hers, Rip hears her curse, the feels the breath that carries with it sharp and surprised words inspired by, he can only assume, the way his fingers curl about her tie. And for a moment along with the taste of him, Peggy would feel the way he grins as Rip tucks that bit of intel tidily away in his mind--saved for another day, another occasion in which he might have opportunity to pull her nearer in such a fashion as he has.

And then, like Peggy, he commits himself to the present. Here and now and her, the hunger in her kiss matched by his own. It's quite tempting to forgo the shave entirely, at least for the time being, to instead delay that formality in favor of something far more indulgent and greedy. But Peggy herself draws the line, even when sparse seconds before everything about her screamed for more and more; when they're each left breathless and forced apart by the need to gasp quietly for air, she's quick to redirect Rip back to his original task.

Despite how clear it is in her voice that it's a difficult choice to make.

He watches as she steps back, green eyes darkened and sharp, more so when he feels the tie slip from his fingers. She dispatches it quickly after, sheds herself of what they both now know to be a weakness, a chink in her armor that Rip might well take advantage of when circumstances allow. But she busies herself with his whiskey after, and Rip returns to task: shedding the assorted layers he's donned for the trip outside, until he's left with a bared torso and he's kicked off his boots, at which point he goes for the shaving kit he's kept on a shelf ever since he found it as his door come Christmas. She need not have spoken her intentions for him to know that this is the razor he should use.

There's one final grin offered up to Peggy, an echo of her words (no more prevaricating) before Rip disappears into the bathroom, kit in hand. Worse, he closes the door behind him, but only partially--only enough to allow one to peek inside should they stand at just the right spot, and at the same time, only enough to prevent entry to one who doesn't seek it at all.

Although doubtless she would make quite the distraction to his efforts should she join him inside.]

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[ she's down to a dark dress shirt, collar loosened for 'comfort,' and equally dark trousers. inky blacks and greens aren't ordinarily her go-to look, a fact they once tackled in conversation months ago when rip teased her about capes and costumes. but she does harbour respect for a uniform and there's something sweetly sacrilegious about it now -- mussing what might be considered standard issue, not with combat but with something else entirely. peggy drapes the dark tie over her abandoned jacket and pours herself a generous glass of whatever's left from last week, pulling it off a shelf and opening it with her mouth because the tumbler is already waiting in her hand.

but then there's him, down to his skin while he takes his tools, and peggy's sigh (pushed through her nose) is audible. he's maddening, he is. more so than she could ever have anticipated before all of this began. and she forces herself to set aside bottle and cork both as she turns to watch him march to the bathroom. she can't even bring herself to feel smug over how he reaches first for the shaving kit she gave him, because -- somehow -- him doing so of his volition robs her of that satisfaction.

peggy takes a drink. eyeing him, and with colour in her cheeks, while he disappears from sight. it's the slightly-ajar door that finally does her in. but at least if she can't see him then he equally can't see her, or her mouthed protested, or the way she shakes her head with frayed frustration. maybe it was the shooting, earlier, or the intimacy of their swapped stories -- but this kiss leaves her a touch more undone than plenty of others.

(she doesn't dare entertain the notion that the tie might be at fault; that unexpected weakness gets shoved under a mental rug.)

she listens to the water run -- wanders over to rip's pile of records, paws through them -- and tells herself she's not fixing to bust in on him. only her wording had been specific, hadn't it? maybe (maybe) a scant five minutes pass before she gulps down another mouthful and reminds herself he's only goading her. the mostly-shut door is nothing more than a trap. but peggy's belief is as firm as it's ever been: a trap is only truly a trap if you don't already know that you're walking into it. ]

I did say I intended to witness your 'defrocking,' you know -- [ is peggy's announcement as she approaches the door and outright shoulders her way inside. whiskey in hand, she breezes by him and takes a seat on the edge of the tub before glancing up at what five minutes' work entails. only? ] Good God, your mirror.

[ it's intact. perhaps it's her natural inexperience in shaving beards surfacing, just now, but she's rather taken aback by the gamble. ]

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[Five minutes in which to work, all the while wondering whether or not Peggy would give in to the temptation of a poorly closed door after the way they've worked each other up during this little excursion of theirs. Yet Rip cannot let himself be distracted by looking in the mirror, trying to get glimpses of just what Peggy's doing in the room beyond (or wondering just who might be looking back at him); the trap would only ensnare him in such a case, and Rip's got no intention of being found slacking if and when Peggy should venture in.

Thus! Five minutes becomes long enough to soften his beard with a damp heated towel pressed against his face, to leave it there while he strops the razor and makes it ready for use. Oh, certainly he hasn't done anything like this in years, but Rip knows how; barbershops have long been excellent places to pick up on scuttlebutt, though only if one can integrate quietly into the background of one, allowed for by a steady hand and confidence of movement.

He's got the towel hanging off his neck by the time Peggy makes her pronouncement. Rip does her the courtesy of not grinning even as she saunters in, makes herself quite at home by perching on the edge of his tub with a glass of his whiskey in hand. And it's all rather perfect, right up until she makes mention of the mirror--the very glass that Rip himself watches her in then, as he gets the brush and lather ready for use.]

A necessary risk, I'm afraid. I can't exactly do this without seeing it. [He's out of practice to say the least, and not so keen on cutting himself by making a cavalier attempt to shave himself blindly. And in the end, he reasons that all any spying mirror might see would be his transformation from having a beard to being clean-shaven--not exactly the kind of detail he thinks they would find useful when it comes to any nefarious effort.]

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[ there were reasons beyond the obvious when she decided on this particular gift: a good, classic shaving kit that at the time she suspected would never see use. but seated now, watching his place in the process, she could almost smile to see one of the other reasons come to fruition. the ritual of it all, meticulous and careful. and if she feels smug now then it's got nothing to do with besting him and everything to do with knowing him.

but what's smug doesn't reach her expression. that, at least, remains halfway stern as she eyes the bathroom mirror from an oblique angle. it won't do, will it? she crosses her legs and leans one palm on the tub's edge while she takes another drink. ]

Of course. [ peggy doesn't disagree. while she might have gone out of her way to achieve as much of her toilette as possible without relying on her reflection, she's forced to recognize that what rip's doing just now isn't something he does daily. there's no percentage to be found in picking this fight because he's right. and she wants to see him clean-shaven, not hacked to pieces.

a thought occurs to her. ]

Only -- [ she glances from the profile of his face to his sightline in the mirror ] -- what if you took a different risk instead?

[ peggy leaves her whiskey on the tub. although she'd just sat down, she rises to her feet once more. her boots are still on, she realizes, and she suddenly feels a little apologetic for that fact. but it doesn't change the confidence with which she holds out her empty hand, waiting to see if he would relinquish the brush once he recognized her suggestion. ]

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[At first it might seems as if they've reached a lamentable agreement, that the mirror must stay and along with it, all the risks of having their continued time together spied upon. A necessary price to pay, as Rip would much prefer not to blindly set blade to his chin in the hopes that his hand would prove steady, his guesses accurate, and there would be no need to rush to the closet for bandages or sutures.

But Peggy has another notion—another risk, as she calls it, and indeed, Rip finds himself in agreement when he recognizes why she holds out her hand. Others might be wary, given the glass she's just set aside, but Rip and Peggy have been drinking together for months now. She's got an impressive tolerance to say the least, and he possesses no fear that alcohol might bring a quiver to her fingers.

No, the danger here is far more seductive, and in silence Rip turns the brush in his hand to offer it up to Peggy. His gaze meets hers as their fingers brush against one another, the moment not unlike a ritual in its own way. Neither of them is the sort of trust; even after all this time, after all they've shared with each other, they each both also have their secrets. Of course, arguably in matters of physicality their bond has been far more firmly set—yet Rip still finds it almost odd how easy it is to give himself over to Peggy in this manner.

The question of whether or not he should doesn't even form.]

By all means. [And then in his momentary way he smiles, a mere tick at the corner of his mouth before Rip turns to address the mirror. He's thought this through, given how often it does need to be broken: there's a thick canvas tucked within the wall beneath the glass not unlike a curtain set the wrong way, one he unrolls up over the mirror with practiced ease. It snaps into place and covers the panel, catches the fragments a moment later when Rip shatters it, quick and hard punches in strategic spots designed to break the mirror completely.]