[Lapis clenches her fists. It's kind of horribly unfair how much more easily that thought comes in comparison; she doesn't know how Ange can possibly still be sticking up for her at this point. But truly, she appreciates that she is.
Because, truly, being able to give that answer is important. Lapis doesn't care easily, but where she does she cares too hard to fool herself. More, she knows it's a measure of how much has changed for her. Maybe having a couple friends isn't the most impressive display of emotional openness ever, but it wasn't so long ago that her life had nothing at all in it.]
I'm getting better. I care a lot more than I used to. It's hard, and... maybe there are a lot of reasons I have trouble with it. [She glares up at Jasper.] Maybe you're one of them! But that doesn't mean I think you deserved this. Maybe neither of us did. [That second part sounded slightly less decisive, but okay.] And it doesn't mean you get to talk about my friends, because this has nothing to do with her!
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[Lapis clenches her fists. It's kind of horribly unfair how much more easily that thought comes in comparison; she doesn't know how Ange can possibly still be sticking up for her at this point. But truly, she appreciates that she is.
Because, truly, being able to give that answer is important. Lapis doesn't care easily, but where she does she cares too hard to fool herself. More, she knows it's a measure of how much has changed for her. Maybe having a couple friends isn't the most impressive display of emotional openness ever, but it wasn't so long ago that her life had nothing at all in it.]
I'm getting better. I care a lot more than I used to. It's hard, and... maybe there are a lot of reasons I have trouble with it. [She glares up at Jasper.] Maybe you're one of them! But that doesn't mean I think you deserved this. Maybe neither of us did. [That second part sounded slightly less decisive, but okay.] And it doesn't mean you get to talk about my friends, because this has nothing to do with her!