"I just don't know how to make peace with this. I don't know if I'll ever be ready to deal with Jasper, and now even if I wanted to... it's too late. This isn't real."
The real Jasper is in a bubble in Steven's basement. In another monster. What Malachite did to her has already reached its miserable conclusion, and while Lapis would just as soon never see her again, it's a sick feeling to know there will never even be the option of any more closure than that.
Still... maybe it does help, talking about it. Giving words to things she usually tries not to think about. It at least makes them look a bit more manageable. There's no fanfare, but Lapis's feet move and she begins to turn away from the fake Jasper of the past. It's hesitant, but it's progress. "But I don't want to keep doing this to myself either. I don't want to keep feeling like I have to." She gives Steven a tight, distant look. "You always make it easier."
Jasper makes no attempt to stop her or move after her, and really, maybe she's already defeated. She has no power over anyone here beyond what they give her. Regardless, Lapis isn't gone yet, nor Steven, and like a machine following its program, Jasper is still trying as long as she has anything available to try. And suddenly, she too is addressing Steven. "You always take her side. I never got the kind of chances you gave her. But you know as much as anyone that I deserved better, don't you" -- and there are melodramatic finger quotes here -- "'Rose?'"
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The real Jasper is in a bubble in Steven's basement. In another monster. What Malachite did to her has already reached its miserable conclusion, and while Lapis would just as soon never see her again, it's a sick feeling to know there will never even be the option of any more closure than that.
Still... maybe it does help, talking about it. Giving words to things she usually tries not to think about. It at least makes them look a bit more manageable. There's no fanfare, but Lapis's feet move and she begins to turn away from the fake Jasper of the past. It's hesitant, but it's progress. "But I don't want to keep doing this to myself either. I don't want to keep feeling like I have to." She gives Steven a tight, distant look. "You always make it easier."
Jasper makes no attempt to stop her or move after her, and really, maybe she's already defeated. She has no power over anyone here beyond what they give her. Regardless, Lapis isn't gone yet, nor Steven, and like a machine following its program, Jasper is still trying as long as she has anything available to try. And suddenly, she too is addressing Steven. "You always take her side. I never got the kind of chances you gave her. But you know as much as anyone that I deserved better, don't you" -- and there are melodramatic finger quotes here -- "'Rose?'"