Lapis is completely unmoving during the hug, which is at least better than pushing away even if it's sorta like hugging a mannequin. That's definitely something she can't really appreciate right now; she understands the gesture, but viscerally it feels like she doesn't. Again, very frustrating. But that too is kind of a summary of this whole thing.

"Peridot," she says, still quietly, but now because she also has to struggle to figure out the words she wants to say. Well, besides an obvious one or two. "Thank you. This, and... you help me so much. You're always helping me, and I'm..."

Never going to be able to repay it. Not even always able to accept it gracefully.

Going to keep having these things happen, all this drama and messy unsolvable problems, going to keep on needing to be bailed out.

Nothing like you.

Not worth it, maybe. But she doesn't get to decide that.

It's frustrating. Because she knows, she does, that Peridot doesn't care. But maybe someone SHOULD. Maybe she does. Her fists tighten.

She has no idea how to end that sentence, ultimately. Peridot already knows perfectly well what she is, and other than the frustration she could dredge up more of, Lapis just feels hollowed-out. The only thing she can see how to accomplish right now is more arguing in the circles she already ceded. "Let's get out of here."