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Luxord and Elphie [ complete ]

Who // ~~The Love Birds~~ Luxord and Elphie
Where // Some Random Place
When // Sometime after this
Rating // PG for angsty drama ~~hopefully~~
Summary // She recieves his note, and is quite angry.

Elphie crumples up the little yellow piece of paper. Sure she may have said she loved him. She knew he wouldn't and couldn't return the feelings. However, there was no reason for his avoiding her. No, she was determined to find him and set things right.

If they could even be right.

She hurried out the door and wondered where she may find him. She checked the halls closest to the Organization members, to no avail. She checked the kitchens, the garden, and even the chapel.

"Where is he?" she wondered.

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The one place Luxord hoped that Elphie wouldn't look -- if she even decided to come looking for him, anyway -- was the roof, and that's where he was currently hiding out, lying back on the roof and looking up at the stars.

Well, it was probably more like glaring, but there wasn't much he could do about that.

He'd left a note for her, telling her that he was going for a walk -- more like his millionth walk since she had told him she loved him -- and thoughts were whizzing around his head like angry bees. Did she even mean it? Was she just saying it to mock him, since he could feel no such emotions until Kingdom Hearts was complete?

Sighing, he slid his arms under his head for a makeshift pillow, and closed his eyes. She shouldn't find him up here... hopefully. Otherwise he'd have a LOT of explaining to do.

Desperation and frustration overwhelmed her. She was never one to show her emotions. Sure she was a little inebriated at the time, she wouldn't say things she didn't mean. He of all people aught to know that. She could not understand why he was avoiding her. After all they've been through to be together and not hear trouble. Surely he had to have known something like this would arise. Just because he had no emotions did not make her emotions stop.

In a daze, she found herself climbing the steps to the roof. The mansion seemed so crowded, so chattery, so... full. She needed silence. She needed fresh air. She just needed to be alone with her thoughts. Her thoughts that screamed at her among the noise. She wanted to sort things out.

She opened the door and qith one quick glance, seen no one. Elphie sighed in relief and walked to the edge furthest from Luxord. Staring out into the vast forest, she shook her head, pulling her cloak tightly around her.

"Even in my death, I am miserable. I try to open myself up, be more likable, easier to bend with people. What do I get? What does being honest with someone get me? Nothing." she mumbled, slinking down to the ground, her feet danging over the edge.

"And Galinda always wondered why I never said much..." she grumbled.

Despite the fact that he hadn't really wanted her to find him, whether by accident or on purpose, and that he wanted to be alone with his thoughts just as much as she did, the smallest grin crept onto his face.

"I've died three times, and yet none of my four lives have given me the happiness I seek yet -- simply because I can't be. What is it to be truly happy, anyway? Is it possible for one to be? Not having a heart, it's easy. Emotions don't affect you. But it's typical that you only miss them once they're gone, isn't it?"

Luxord was more talking to himself, but the words were in part meant for her. He didn't move, didn't open his eyes, and made no move to go anywhere near her. When she realised that he was indeed there, 'mad' would be quite the understatement to describe her, he had a sneaking suspicion.

She heard a voice that sounded much like his. She wasn't in much of a mood to converse with him. Although at the moment, they seemed to be in the same situation. They wanted to be alone, yet they were in the same place.

She curled her legs up to her knees, resting her chin on them.

"If one knows they cannot feel, why involve themselves with one that can? Why should the feeling suffer for the others lack of?"

She bit her lip, so hard blood trickled on the inside of her lip.

"Why was I so blind... After the warnings, the whole lot of it... Why be persistant." she said more to herself.

Elphaba hated this. She hated feeling vunerable, feeling helpless and alone. She toyed with the idea of jumping off the edge of the roof, but she knew she wouldn't die. No one ever dies here.

"I don't want to do this anymore, yet... I can't pull myself away."

"If you don't want to do this anymore, then we won't," he said simply, opening his eyes and turning his head away from her. "But remember, we've been through this before. I warned you that I could never feel anything for you until Kingdom Hearts was completed, hell, even Saix told you the same thing. But you still persisted. WE still persisted. Although, if you've changed your mind, I understand. Loving a Nobody's hard."

Her words made him feel useless, and he hated it. Hate hate hated it. But he said nothing, just simply lay there and gazed up at the stars, hands clenched into fists.

"Well, if I'm supposedly such a bad person and so horrible, you should just cut ties with me," Luxord said simply. "You can find your precious Fiyero and live happily ever after, then." That was a low blow, and he knew it, but at this stage he was beyond caring.

After some contemplation, she stood. After some hesitation, she walked over to him. Staring down at him, she couldn't help but feel a tug in her stomach.

"I never said you were horrible nor bad. Why else would I have fought so hard for peace? If that was the case, I wouldn't have had anything to do with you." she grimaced.

She looked up into the sky. The comment about Fiyero stung. She'd knew he would use Fiyero against her whenever things got bad. She wasn't even going to comment. She had no desire to.

"I never told him I loved him." That should have been enough for him. If she felt so strongly about Fiyero, she would have told him.

"Loving you won't change, regardless of severed ties or not. You are avoiding me. Not the other way around. Keep that in mind Luxord."

She turned away from him and started walking to the door, her heart pounding all the while.

"Someone told me that if there is a will, heartless and soulless can complete each other. What do you think?" she said as she walked away.

"I'm the big bad Nobody man, stealer of hearts and ruiner of lives. Oh no, you haven't said it, just strongly implied it, love." He looked up at her, not particularly liking being in this position, but his gaze never left hers.

Luxord frowned. "Elphie, how did you expect me to react to what you told me? I can't say anything back, because I don't feel! As much as I want to say it back, I can't! It's hardly a fucking walk in the park, being a Nobody. Far from it."

Sighing, he sat up, trying to restore some of the blood flow to his wrists. "I'm avoiding you because I have no idea what to say, or how to respond to what you said yesterday. Is it so bad that I just want some time to myself to think it over?"

The Nobody sighed, and slowly got to his feet, following her at a reasonable distance.

"What do I think? I think it's possible. But you have to test your hypothesis, not just sit around and complain about it."

"I've never insinuated anything Luxord. Maybe you're trying to convince yourself I have. But I havent." She wrapped her arms around herself. "Do you think I wanted to say it? Do you think I wanted to bare all to you? I didn't intend on any of it happening. I didn't even think you heard me." She shook her head and continued walking. "And for your reaction, I didnt think you would avoid me like I'm some sort of lepar."

"Complain about it? Who said I was complaining? I'm tired of fretting and holding back. I've held back far too long Luxord." she said, not looking over her shoulder.

"It's not my hypothesis. One of your kind told me he thought so too. So, Luxord, ponder on that." she said, pushing open the door. She let it slam shut. She hurried along the corridor, her anger getting the best of her and paintings flying off the wall as she stormed past.

Everything was always HIS fault where she was concerned, wasn't it? Sighing, he summoned up his dark magic, prepared to just summon a portal of darkness so he could go back to his room. His and Shika's room. Whatever relationship he and Elphie had anymore... he wasn't prepared to pick up the pieces. Not again.

"You could be a bit more understanding and sympathetic to the man who died for you," he muttered, folding his arms as a frown settled on his lips.

The fact that one of the Organization had said that to her surprised him, but he didn't let it show on his face. "Fine, whatever," he replied, ignoring the door being slammed in his face. "Don't come crawling back to me begging for forgiveness, I'm not going to put up with this again. I may not have emotions, but I can feel."

Luxord wondered if he could warp to her room and get his things out of there before she burned them.

With a waivering lip, she slumped down the the door to her room. She couldn't go inside.

She burried her head in her knees and willed herself not to cry.

"i do love you..." she whispered to herself.

Luxord was about to make his way to his room, when he stopped.

He didn't have the keys.

"What a day to pick having a fight with your significant other," he complained to himself, weighing up which out of sleeping on the floor or risk being found in the billiard room on the couch would be worse.

[ooc; ;__; This is so sad! Sniff. And finished?]

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