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entrancelogs2014-07-11 01:31 am
halfwinchester) wrote in entrancelogs2014-07-11 01:31 am
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buried deep within, there's a human
Who: Adam Milligan (halfwinchester) and Isaac Lahey (algidity).
Where: Mansion. Tenth floor, room 14.
When: July 10th.
Rating: PG-13-ish?
Summary: There's only so much you can endure alone, like seeing your past and your potential future in someone you never really knew at all.
The Story:
[After seeing Dean's body on the network, at first Adam doesn't believe it. Then he quickly does believe it, but doesn't know how to feel about what he's seen. Scared? Angry? Appalled? ... Vindicated?
This vision of a dead Dean is more real than any his mind has cooked up before, made worse by him, by Lucifer, in a new body but still the same menacing deadness in his eyes, waltzing around the mansion while the guy who was supposed to put him in the ground is gutted like a pinata, all his candy showing. If he isn't the one who's done the gutting like he says, than who? Who's taken out one of the buffers between Adam and the other horrors in this place?
He doesn't feel grief for a brother, just a deadness of his own that climbs in his throat and lodges there. Once, there'd been a split second in time when he'd hoped his half-brothers hadn't been bullshitting him, that they'd really wanted to be a family, and it's the faded memory of that hope that freezes him in place. What is he supposed to do? Even if Dean comes back, he's still dead on account of something, and Satan himself is out there, and it reminds him so much of Lucifer's Cage that he starts to suck in air like all the oxygen's disappeared from the room.
Adam gets the idea to call someone, but for the longest time--hours, actually--he can't think of who, or for what reason. How does he explain that his half-brother is dead and he doesn't want to be alone because he doesn't want to join him?
Finally, when he's halfway to talking himself out of reaching out to anybody, he texts Isaac:]
Are you free? Do you want to come over for a while, or are you keeping an eye on Allison and Scott?
[It's the first time Adam's ever invited a casual acquaintance over to his room--a friend, even, if they're going so far as to call themselves that--because he knows the moment he does, he's going to have to explain the bloody symbols all over the walls, and that's on the same level as explaining why this particular death bothers him.]
halfwinchester) and Isaac Lahey (algidity).Where: Mansion. Tenth floor, room 14.
When: July 10th.
Rating: PG-13-ish?
Summary: There's only so much you can endure alone, like seeing your past and your potential future in someone you never really knew at all.
The Story:
[After seeing Dean's body on the network, at first Adam doesn't believe it. Then he quickly does believe it, but doesn't know how to feel about what he's seen. Scared? Angry? Appalled? ... Vindicated?
This vision of a dead Dean is more real than any his mind has cooked up before, made worse by him, by Lucifer, in a new body but still the same menacing deadness in his eyes, waltzing around the mansion while the guy who was supposed to put him in the ground is gutted like a pinata, all his candy showing. If he isn't the one who's done the gutting like he says, than who? Who's taken out one of the buffers between Adam and the other horrors in this place?
He doesn't feel grief for a brother, just a deadness of his own that climbs in his throat and lodges there. Once, there'd been a split second in time when he'd hoped his half-brothers hadn't been bullshitting him, that they'd really wanted to be a family, and it's the faded memory of that hope that freezes him in place. What is he supposed to do? Even if Dean comes back, he's still dead on account of something, and Satan himself is out there, and it reminds him so much of Lucifer's Cage that he starts to suck in air like all the oxygen's disappeared from the room.
Adam gets the idea to call someone, but for the longest time--hours, actually--he can't think of who, or for what reason. How does he explain that his half-brother is dead and he doesn't want to be alone because he doesn't want to join him?
Finally, when he's halfway to talking himself out of reaching out to anybody, he texts Isaac:]
Are you free? Do you want to come over for a while, or are you keeping an eye on Allison and Scott?
[It's the first time Adam's ever invited a casual acquaintance over to his room--a friend, even, if they're going so far as to call themselves that--because he knows the moment he does, he's going to have to explain the bloody symbols all over the walls, and that's on the same level as explaining why this particular death bothers him.]