[ Nico finally releases her hand after that, because of course. of course he had wondered that sometimes, that maybe the concern was for nothing, that maybe things would be fine.
except that he knew better.
because it would be one thing if he felt this way all on its own. it would be one thing if he had feelings for Percy, or maybe if his romantic feelings had been for someone else of the same gender. it would be something else all on its own if it was just that. but it isn't.
it's his feelings as well as who he is, who his father is. it's who Nico has become and how other people feel around him. it's the fact that people look at him like he's walking garbage, are scared of him because of the death that surrounds him, the feeling of unease.
so maybe it would have been worry for nothing -- if he hadn't been the son of Hades. ]
Maybe if people didn't look at me like I was covered in the blood of their loved ones I'd have considered that. You're the only one that doesn't, Hazel. You know that, don't you?
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except that he knew better.
because it would be one thing if he felt this way all on its own. it would be one thing if he had feelings for Percy, or maybe if his romantic feelings had been for someone else of the same gender. it would be something else all on its own if it was just that. but it isn't.
it's his feelings as well as who he is, who his father is. it's who Nico has become and how other people feel around him. it's the fact that people look at him like he's walking garbage, are scared of him because of the death that surrounds him, the feeling of unease.
so maybe it would have been worry for nothing -- if he hadn't been the son of Hades. ]
Maybe if people didn't look at me like I was covered in the blood of their loved ones I'd have considered that. You're the only one that doesn't, Hazel. You know that, don't you?