"If you can't contact me within a day I want you to come grab the letters from my drawer. Okay? Can you do that? I know this place has a habit of giving and taking people so wildly that it's hard to keep track at times, but--I don't want it to be like before. Or like at home, Emma. I don't wanna just fade away." Not that he's accusing people of just letting him fade away, but Graham feels more like a ghost to them than a real person. It's like they expect him to just crumble at the slightest touch. He can't blame them for being hesitant though. This place apparently had a history with him. One that he didn't want to repeat, but if it did happen he wanted it to be on his own terms with things set up to cushion the blow. She's already said goodbye to him multiple times.

Graham lets out a heavy sigh. "Do you blame yourself?" It's kind of vague and he picks up on that. "For back home? Do you blame yourself for how it all happened?"