Tell me about it. [ the truth of the statement settles in her as it settles in most teenagers. aware of the reason and the flaw and yet completely unable to grasp just how easy it would be to remedy it. how much better life would be. she can look at the problem, can see the answer to it, but will immediately turn - instead - to her friends. to her newest hobby. to anything and everything that isn't studying. because while her own personal standard is always in the a-b range, it's too much effort if she has to push it to her social life. to the hours she could be spending staring up at the sky, driving around with clare. ]
No, but it'll help get you into college. [ college. a step she hasn't yet taken, beyond the school-wide necesity to at least look. she's got ideas in mind, places that aren't more than a name on a piece of paper. not because she doesn't think she can do it, or because she isn't excited about it. more so she just hasn't had it settle in, yet, that it's right around the corner. hasn't let it settle in a way that will sit heavily on her conscious - college. four years. away from storybrooke, away from her friends, away from the only life she's barely managed to settle in by now.
if she doesn't know who she is in the one place she's lived her whole life, who will she be somewhere new? somewhere different?
she doesn't want to know.
so instead, she recites high school conselor knowledge. repeats phrases she's hear da hundred times over. 'colleges like this, colleges like that'. colleges like people who know who they are and what they want, things kathryn isn't sure of. isn't sure she'll ever be sure of. she shrugs and smiles and feels at ease enough where she is now. isn't that enough? ]
I'm serious though, if I'm bugging you you can totally kick me out. I don't want to mess up your study schedule. [ there's only a hint of a tease, there, covered mostly by pure honesty. kathryn does worry that she's imposing - because while she's known benjamin mostly her whole life (as long as she's known clare) it's always been the 'best friend's younger brother'. they get along because they do, because allison does like ben and ben doesn't seem to think she's too annoying, but that's all it's been. smalltalk here, a shared joke there. a wave in the hallway at school before kathryn was pulled away by clare's hand in her own.
he makes her laugh again at his question, her hands settling over her stomach, one starting to fidget with a ring she'd bought earlier that year. an arrow that wraps around the middle finger of her right hand. it'd caught her eye, for whatever reason, and now she can't seem to take it off. ] Yeah, perfected the art of totally beating up on everyone who isn't as good at it as you are. [ a.k.a. whose girlfriend seriously won't let them win once? ever? no, it's better for their relationship if they avoid the game entirely - that was decided some time ago.
kathryn's eyes go back up to the ceiling for a moment - more in thought than anything - before she looks back over to him. ] I don't know. Anything. What books are you reading? [ and then, because it has to be said. ] Not one's you're reading for school. Or ones you are and actually like.
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No, but it'll help get you into college. [ college. a step she hasn't yet taken, beyond the school-wide necesity to at least look. she's got ideas in mind, places that aren't more than a name on a piece of paper. not because she doesn't think she can do it, or because she isn't excited about it. more so she just hasn't had it settle in, yet, that it's right around the corner. hasn't let it settle in a way that will sit heavily on her conscious - college. four years. away from storybrooke, away from her friends, away from the only life she's barely managed to settle in by now.
if she doesn't know who she is in the one place she's lived her whole life, who will she be somewhere new? somewhere different?
she doesn't want to know.
so instead, she recites high school conselor knowledge. repeats phrases she's hear da hundred times over. 'colleges like this, colleges like that'. colleges like people who know who they are and what they want, things kathryn isn't sure of. isn't sure she'll ever be sure of. she shrugs and smiles and feels at ease enough where she is now. isn't that enough? ]
I'm serious though, if I'm bugging you you can totally kick me out. I don't want to mess up your study schedule. [ there's only a hint of a tease, there, covered mostly by pure honesty. kathryn does worry that she's imposing - because while she's known benjamin mostly her whole life (as long as she's known clare) it's always been the 'best friend's younger brother'. they get along because they do, because allison does like ben and ben doesn't seem to think she's too annoying, but that's all it's been. smalltalk here, a shared joke there. a wave in the hallway at school before kathryn was pulled away by clare's hand in her own.
he makes her laugh again at his question, her hands settling over her stomach, one starting to fidget with a ring she'd bought earlier that year. an arrow that wraps around the middle finger of her right hand. it'd caught her eye, for whatever reason, and now she can't seem to take it off. ] Yeah, perfected the art of totally beating up on everyone who isn't as good at it as you are. [ a.k.a. whose girlfriend seriously won't let them win once? ever? no, it's better for their relationship if they avoid the game entirely - that was decided some time ago.
kathryn's eyes go back up to the ceiling for a moment - more in thought than anything - before she looks back over to him. ] I don't know. Anything. What books are you reading? [ and then, because it has to be said. ] Not one's you're reading for school. Or ones you are and actually like.