Haven't You Noticed Me Drifting...

[actualwizard]

Who: Billy Kaplan actualwizard and Teddy Altman hulk_ling
Where: Their room
When: Forward dated to Tuesday August 11th
Rating: PG-13 for language
Summary: A very serious conversation...
The Story:

He's standing outside their bedroom door for what feels like hours, even if it's just closer to ten minutes. He knows Teddy is in there, did a locator spell- and isn't he glad to have his powers back after the past horrific event.

When he left Sam he had been angry. Angry enough to feel tiny sparks dancing across his finger tips. He had every intention in the world of finding Teddy right then and demanding answers, but something had stopped him. A voice in the back of his head (which sounded annoyingly like Cami) told him to calm down first. So he went for a run (Bucky would be proud) to clear his head.

Now here he was, afraid to open the door and to face exactly what he- what they had been avoiding for the last few months. He had a feeling this was going to be the hardest conversation he was ever going to have. He took a deep breath and steeled himself, he was supposed to be braver than this, and pushed the door open walking in.

"I think we need to talk."

Comments

[hulk_ling]

Teddy didn't move, caught between stepping back and giving Billy the space he needed and selfishly wanting Billy to hold him. "Please don't say that because I'm hurt," he said softly. "Because we say one thing and think another just to save the other person's feelings. I don't want to hurt you, B. I love you. I will always be in love with you. But that's the problem. I don't want to let you go even though it's probably for the best."

"I don't care about the room either. I'm not going anywhere. I just... I need to get my head on straight after this."

[actualwizard]

"I'm not, I promise." Billy told him stepping closer and then moving in, wrapping his arms around Teddy in a hug. "I love you too, Teddy. Please don't think I don't. I just need this right now. And I hope one day you'll understand why. The last thing I ever wanted to do in this world was hurt you, but it also isn't fair to stay in a relationship that isn't doing anything for either of us anymore. We never talk. And thats both our faults. Maybe we both need to move on for a little while."

He pulled back and leaned up, kissing Teddy on the cheek before moving away entirely. "I can get out of your way if you want to pack up alone or whatever."

[hulk_ling]

"Can I come back for my things?" Teddy asked, trying not to let his voice break or hitch. "I... I need to find a new place first. I don't want to carry around a cardboard box in the halls. People might think we broke up or something."

He was trying for a joke but it fell flat. It was time to make his exit. He reached out for Billy's hand, giving him one last squeeze. "I'll text you tonight. I should have a place lined up by then."

[actualwizard]

Billy nodded. "Yeah, whenever you want to. You can come by whenever." This was really happening, it felt weird, like he still couldn't wrap his head around it. Was this how it was supposed to go? Breaking up with someone?

He squeezed Teddy's hand back and then let it fall. His throat felt right as he watched Teddy turn and head for the door. He wanted to say something, anything, but he was afraid that if he opened his mouth he would just break down and that wasn't something he wanted to do, not yet. The door closed behind Teddy and Billy sat back on the couch staring at the closed door. He sat there silently letting tears fall down his cheeks and it was a long time before he moved again.