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one man who thought he knew a way to always get through [open]

Who: Alex Kralie and you
Where: The gardens, the kitchen, and then the fourth floor
When: July 22nd
Rating: PG-13 (guns, mental health and trauma, panic attacks and dissociation, self-harm, Alex's foulmouth)
Summary: Alex returns from his canon update, four years older and filled with self-righteous frustration. Also he has a gun now. Prose or brackets, I'll match either!
The Story:

gardens; playing tricks on the mind, thought that he'd won this time

The breath is choked in his throat from the arm that looped itself around his neck, squeezing and squeezing even though he clawed at it. He aimed for the eyes, but his fingertips touched only smooth plastic. He managed to utter one final strangled shout, and when he breathes in again, he's somewhere else.

Green grass, a temperature easily more bearable than Alabama's ungodly heat, hills and flowers in full bloom. If this is what dying feels like, consider Alex underwhelmed. One hand automatically reaches for his neck, fingertips scraping about a week's worth of stubble, the bruises clustered around his throat where that masked bastard nearly asphyxiated him by crushing his windpipe. It still throbs, like the rest of him, but he doesn't grimace, or flinch, or groan. His jaw sets. He's stomached worse, far worse, and will likely suffer more for what he's had to do.

And all thanks to Jay goddamn Merrick.

His grip tightens on the gun in his hand. Two bullets went streaking out in his shock at being beset upon from behind, but neither scored hits on their intended targets. At least if anyone was dragged here with him, he'll be prepared. He'll be...

Memories that were formerly prickling behind his eyelids abruptly come spilling back. Wonderland. Of course.

So he's back again.

And he's alone.

The rustle of footsteps through grass sparks a flurry of panic rising in his chest, and he spins around to train the piece on whoever's approaching. Sorry, whoever you are. Instinct's a bitch, and his nerves are shot to hell thanks to almost dying just now.

kitchen; he’s roaming corridors and lies in wait for us all

He's been living on the road for longer than he cares to admit. He's been eating out of gas stations, fast food joints, going long stretches of time without anything but the plasticy water bottles cooking in the trunk of his car for god only knows how long, and he's tired of it. Now that he's starting to remember the way the place is set up, the first place he heads is the kitchen to make himself a goddamn sandwich.

He sets the gun on the counter with a quiet click. Then he thinks better of it, and keeps it tucked in his waistband.

He eats ravenously, with little regard for the mess he's making or who he might be offending with his nonexistent table manners. He hasn't eaten genuine food for weeks and maybe months, shut up. He's had no time for it, between Jay being a total moron and Jessica getting involved and Tim being the way he is and Amy being -

The sandwich abruptly starts to taste like ash in his mouth. He...Amy is...look, okay. Okay. He did what he had to, okay, she was getting into shit and she had no idea and it's not like he wanted to do it, but she's - and he had to - and -

Alex braces both hands across the countertop, eyes screwed shut behind his glasses as he tries to get a fucking grip on himself and not panic because he's not panicking all right, he's not, he's definitely not, he's just - he's fine. He's fine, he's fine, it's all fine, just breathe like a regular human being ~~even if he's not, not anymore~~ and act like you aren't some kind of hollowed-out fucking shell. Act like a person.

Instinctively, he gropes for the soothing side of himself (it's got to be himself, right, that voice that hums that it'll be fine, even if it hurts to hear any of those words slamming into his head, distorted and twisted and humming with a sense of wrongness he can't place), but it's gone. It's gone, and he's alone again. Alone and - fuck. Fucking shit hell goddamnit.

He's ended up on the floor somehow, back pressed against one of the cupboards, the handles digging into his back but that's fine, it's all right, and fingertips sunk into the flesh of his arms and - and that's fine too. They're scoring long red streaks down his forearms and a few of the scratches have drawn blood, but it's cool, it's fine, he's got this under control if he could just think through the grayed-out slowness of his own thoughts and turn back to his lunch, or dinner, or whatever's become of the sandwich lying abandoned on the counter, and stop freaking panicking over nothing.

fourth floor; but now you're just empty

Room forty-four, fourth floor. Bile curdles in his throat. It's like a sick joke, after all that shit that masked freak has pulled. Today is your last birthday.

He stands outside his room, still looking as haggard and exhausted and beaten and worn-out as he feels. He stands there for a really long time, momentarily lost in himself or not-himself or whatever alternatives to himself he can grasp at, really, he'll take anything, anything that means he doesn't have to live in his own insufferable head for five fucking minutes.

When he comes back to himself, his lip curls in a sneer. He flicks his middle finger up at the 44 symbol on his door, slow and deliberate.

Yeah. Fuck you, totheark.

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Damon catches sight of those bruises, and he makes a face at the sight of them without saying much more. "Sounds like someone very intent on doing whatever the hell he wanted."

Broken legs usually do the trick especially on people who are human. It puts them down on the ground in the pain of it.

"Must have thought he had a real good reason to strangle you."

"Apparently." He sounds droll, dry, disinterested. Whatever grievances Tim had with him, it wouldn't matter. Tim was just a pawn in a much bigger game, and Alex should've watched his fucking back, and he should've made damn sure that he'd well and truly put him the ground when he did.

But some of these people are - god, they're like roaches. Nothing keeps them down for long, and he keeps messing up and he can't afford to.

"He wasn't even supposed to be there," Alex scoffs coldly. "I told him to stay clear."

If by "telling him to stay clear" Alex means, "I broke his leg and figured that'd keep him off my damn back for a little while," then yes, he did exactly that.

Damon's gaze narrows at him as he speaks. He turns slightly to look at him along the way, and there's something- The predator has been brought out. His teeth are sharper for a moment, sharing it as his gaze drags over Alex.

"He didn't listen."

His voice is low.

"Clearly."

There's a glint of something, and it would tingle down Alex's spine if he weren't so grayed-out and empty and worn. But he doesn't flinch. He simply looks, unflinching. Trying to discern what emotion he should be reading from this.

It's difficult to tell.

"No," Alex says simply, "he didn't. A lotta people ended up sticking their necks in where they weren't wanted. Things were going fine up until then."

Great, even. He had Amy, he had a place with her, he had...

He cuts the thought off, viciously. No point in dwelling. It's all gone and dead and burned now. That was the price he paid.

Damon looks carefully at Alex then as if he can see how grayed-out, how empty, how worn. Usually, there are reactions, but there aren't any now. That means something too, and Damon doesn't know what it means.

"Yeah, people have a tendency to stick their necks in where they aren't wanted. They're annoying like that," he says after a moment in a low voice, but it's true. "At least you're away from all that now, right?"

Even if it seems to live inside of him just the same-

Can anyone really escape their own world even in a place like this that seems to be in-between? He doesn't have Stefan here being a ripper, but there's Klaus, but there's Damon still being Damon ruining everything he touches regardless of where he is or what he is touching.

"I thought I was." His hands flex unconsciously, an arrhythmic spasm of fingers clenching into fists and uncurling again. "But it's been here before, the thing that - caused all this. It's been here, and it's - "

He snaps his mouth shut. Shut up, Kralie. Shut up. Unlike damn near everyone in this mansion, he actually gives a shit about Damon most of the time. Most of the time.

Another attachment. Another bridge that'd doubtless be better off burned. Thing is, he can't afford to burn a bridge that might bring him down with it. Not when so much is still required of him. Jay's still out there, and Jessica - he has to keep going, for their sake. To put their bodies in the ground and ensure this never happens again.

Damon shakes his head. If it's been here before, it could be here again, and he needs to know so he can be prepared for it (so he can protect Elena from it, so he can fight against it). Alex is one of the few friends that Damon has in this place even if he's incapable of putting such a label on it because what would that say about him?

"What is it?"

He turns to him then, moving until he is in front of Alex.

"What the hell is chasing you?"

And why?

and how do they stop it when it's here? If it comes back.

His teeth grit painfully as Alex grinds to a halt, stopping dead in his tracks, trying to stare past Damon and failing. He's stonewalling him, figuratively and literally. People keep asking that. Of course they would, because he's not exercising the proper discretion and - fuck. Fuck this. Fuck him. Fuck Jay especially, for bringing this crashing back down over him. He was free. He was out, and Jay had to go and ruin it.

"Don't ask me that," he ratchets out, the words clipped and broken off sharply at the consonants. "Never ask me that."

He's being infuriatingly cryptic, isn't he.

Better that than too forthcoming.

"The more people I tell," he adds, as if it takes a great effort to continue speaking, "the more chance it has of getting out. Okay?"

Damon stops in front of Alex. His gaze narrows then as he tries to figure out what the hell he's even talking about. He can't. This is beyond Damon levels of knowledge since his world's supernatural is its own beast, and he can't warp his head around what Alex is talking about.

"Well, too bad. Because I asked."

He doesn't sound the least bit apologetic. If it has the chance of making it here again, Damon wants to stop it.

He wants to know.

"It has a chance of getting out no matter who you tell though, right? I want to know what the hell I can expect. I'm a vampire, Alex."

It's not like he is going to easily be fucked over by some other supernatural thing. He's already dead.

Oh, great. Another fucking detective bent on unearthing Alex Kralie's Greatest Mysteries. Alex narrows his eyes. He's treading on thin ice. If he doesn't give Damon what he wants -

Well. The end result may be a touch bloody.

If he does? The end result will still be bloody. He can't win.

Story of his goddamn life.

"Doesn't matter," he says harshly. "It doesn't matter if you're a vampire, or what. It's not your body this thing messes with, it's your brain. Dying's the only thing that stops it."

And lucky Damon, looks like that little easy way out is off the table.

Damon narrows his gaze. He's not much of a detective unless something directly threatens or affects him ~~or Elena~~ in some way. This seems like it has that possibility, but it's not like he can say he has any idea what Alex is talking about.

He wonders if his own ability to compel might protect him from it, but it's not a chance he really wants to take either.

"So what the hell does it want? Just to screw with your head... Is that why you're so..."

He waves a vague hand in Alex's direction. Paranoid, messy, it's hard to say what Damon means.

So what. So beyond help? He doesn't need a broody vampire to point that out. He was doomed the moment he stepped outside and his camera fixated on a distant point on the horizon and the screen tore in two.

His jaw sets as he weighs how much he's willing to discuss openly.

"I don't know," he says at last, trying not to feel sullen as he snaps it out. "I don't know what it wants. I just know that it showing up is never good. Not for anyone. It gets in your head and it spreads."

Well, Damon wouldn't have put it that dramatically. Alex just seems very on edge, very paranoid, very shoot-first-ask-questions-later. He can't read everything off of him, but he can tell.

"Okay." He lifts up his hands in acquiescence. "Obviously, I don't want freaky mind shit to spread so no more questions."

He's really no detective. "You might want a drink or something though. You're back in Wonderland."

For whatever that's worth.

It's...something, at least. Better than pressing and prying. He's backing off. Alex will take it, at least in the short-term. In the long-term, he's really not down for planning ways to systematically execute a vampire who's asked too many questions four or five times over. That sounds like a lot of work and, additionally, too much of a hassle. It would also be nigh-suicidal, but that's not his main qualm with the plan ideologically.

He almost denies the offer of something to drink, but - hell, he's not the one on meds. He's not the one on anything. He's the one who can afford it. So after a moment's consideration, he blows out a long breath and nods.

"That actually doesn't sound too bad." He sounds almost...surprised to admit it out loud.

Damon lifts an eyebrow as he looks over at the sound of Alex's voice and then Damon smirks lightly.

"That the first time you've thought something didn't sound bad in awhile?" Because that's the way it sounds to him. He's almost always carrying alcohol on him, but he's not today so he just pops into a random, untaken room where there's a closet, flipping over the mirrors along the way, because-

He doesn't like the mirrors.

He pulls out a bottle of bourbon.

"Could've gone to a bar instead, but you don't really seem like the bar type of guy."

Alex lingers, hands crammed into pockets. Damon picks a random room, and sure, let's go with that. There's a desk and a couple of chairs, and Alex pulls one up. Chairs, table, company. Pretty much like a bar anyway.

"Not really," he agrees tiredly. "Too many people. Too much talking. I'd just rather drink."

Damon's flipping of the mirrors isn't lost on him, and oh right, that's one more thing he has to deal with. The mirrors. And his mirror in particular, a right asshole, unsurprisingly.

"Not fond of our neighbors?" he says wryly.

Damon glances back at Alex with a shrug and then a nod in agreement.

"Yeah. I'm the same." Despite the fact that he has a reputation for being a party-er, Damon actually hates almost all people. He tends to prefer time to himself. When he goes to the bar, it's because misery loves company, and it's better than being left with his own thoughts, alone.

He sets the bottle and the glasses on top of the table and then sinks down into the chair across from Alex.

The truth is he has a stalker on the mirror side (and he hasn't told anyone about that). "Don't like to have an audience." He fills up the glasses, downing his bourbon like it's water and he's dying (ha) of thirst. "...are you?"

Alex snorts as he pours himself a tall one and knocks half of it back in one go. Christ, but he needed that. The burn down his throat, the trails of it blazing ease into his muscles. He sits a little less rigidly, his expression a little less hardened. Feels a bit better.

"Hell no. Mine's a creep, and the others aren't much better." He takes another swig, slower this time. He hasn't been able to drink like this in four years. His tolerance probably needs some time to adjust.

And then...right. He has a life here. Weird how that's difficult to remember easily. "Good for info, I guess. Dunno if you heard, but there's a spy on our side. One of us giving info to Her Majesty herself."

Damon leans forward on his knees, taking long drinks from the glass in his hand. His gaze drifts over to him as he speaks.

"...a creep how? Haven't seen a sign of mine yet. Really, really hoping I never do," he says, because he would hate him. Well, Damon Salvatore hates himself so any version of himself would qualify but the one behind the mirror is his most hated. It's the human version, weak, naive.

He leans back in the seat until the seat rests against the wall, tilted back. He lifts an eyebrow then, shaking his head as something heavy rests over his shoulders. A spy on this side too? "No, didn't hear about it, but that's just... fantastic." The sarcasm drips from his voice. As if he didn't have reason enough to be careful at every turn. "Doesn't she already have spies behind every reflection? The hell's she trying to find anyway..."

"Writes shit on the glass. Stuff he knows'll wind me up." He doesn't need to elaborate. No need at all. There's the symbols he always knows, the circle with the X slashed through it, and there were nights he burst awake and found the mirror's surface positively covered in them.

Now that he's here, the memories are cropping up and up with disturbing alacrity.

"Yeah. There was the thing with the mirrors flipped around, we could see 'em and they couldn't see us." It feels like forever ago. For him it was, but for everyone else - it was just, what? A month ago? Less? "Found my way into Queenie's room. And she says, she's got one of the Real Things spying on the rest of us. No idea why or how, but I'm sure as hell not gonna wait to find out."

That sounds like a decent use of his time and energy. Uproot the spy and expose them to everyone. Ensure they never find anything out regarding one Alex Kralie.

"Yeah. I know someone like that on the other side too. Nothing like waking up to messages in the morning," Damon says as he makes a face, thinking about what Mirror!Elena left him, knowing exactly how to wind him up and seemingly taking joy in it. She hates him, and he doesn't know why, but it makes him more tense around the mirrors than he would be otherwise.

She knows where to hit, how hard.

"Heard about that." He turns to look at him, narrowing his gaze when he says he got the information from the Queen herself. "Why would she tell you?"

He can't really put together the motivations of this woman behind the mirrors who calls herself Queen. It doesn't really matter either. If there is a real spy walking among them, they need to out them and deal with them one way or another. Damon fills up Alex's glass and fills up more of his own, taking a long drink from what's inside.

"You want help?"

"I was just asking some questions. She seemed pretty pissed, pissed enough to let some stuff slip." He likes Damon well enough, but he's not sure he trusts that Damon would think less of him if he mentioned that he'd offered to be the Queen's eyes himself. Not her literal eyes, though. She already has a jar of those, evidently.

But Damon's also new enough that he's safely off the suspects list. Alex swirls his drink around a little bit before taking another sip and shrugging tiredly.

"Yeah, actually. Some people've kept their eyes out, but no one's really actively looking, you know?"

"Bet she didn't like being spied on instead for a change," Damon says in a low voice, and the truth is Damon wouldn't care if Alex found out that way or not, but he also would get keeping it to himself. It's something Damon might do to try to get a leg up if he thought it could save Elena in some way, make a difference.

He's used to being the bad guy. It's anything else he doesn't know.

"No one wants to take that time, that chance. I have a way of making people tell the truth."

Granted, some people could be immune to it, but compulsion is really handy that way.

That memory, at least, is still fresh in his skull, and Alex snorts, a sound that might be construed as a laugh if you were feeling particularly creative, and also haven't heard a laugh before.

"One of your vampire mojo tricks?" He lifts one eyebrow, one part curiously and one part warily. Could he coax the truth out of Alex, if he so desired? He probably could. Maybe Alex has a strong mind, or maybe it's been too torn to shreds by the thing he doesn't want to think about. He doesn't want to entertain the possibilities there.

Damon looks over at him, sensing the wariness. Truth be told, he doesn't use it unless he has a real reason to anymore so he hasn't bothered using it against Alex even if he could. He takes a deeper drink from the glass in front of him.

"Compulsion. We can make people do whatever we want them to including tell the whole truth and nothing but," he says, and then after a moment, thinking of how Klaus is here, how other powerful vampires are here. "There's a way to stop it if you're interested."

Vervain takes all the power out of compulsion.

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