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entrancelogs2017-02-04 12:06 pm
determinedest) wrote in entrancelogs2017-02-04 12:06 pm
i've made up my mind over and over; keep pressing rewind [open]
Who: Frisk and YOU
Where: All over the mansion
When: 2/04 - 2/08
Rating: PG-13 for Bad Thoughts and implied suicide attempt
Summary: * If you DO end up erasing everything...you have to erase my memories, too. I’m sorry.
The Story:
[* There is one last thing.]
[* One last threat.]
[* One being with the power to erase EVERYTHING…]
[* Everything everyone’s worked so hard for.]
[* That’s right.]
[* Despite everything...]
[* It's still YOU.]
Where: All over the mansion
When: 2/04 - 2/08
Rating: PG-13 for Bad Thoughts and implied suicide attempt
Summary: * If you DO end up erasing everything...you have to erase my memories, too. I’m sorry.
The Story:
[* There is one last thing.]
[* One last threat.]
[* One being with the power to erase EVERYTHING…]
[* Everything everyone’s worked so hard for.]
[* You know who I’m talking about, don’t you?]
[* Despite everything...]
[* It's still YOU.]
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They're good at that.
Focus on what it is. It's an event, the closets aren't working, and it's...Wonderland. The same way that Halloween was Wonderland. Like funhouse mirrors, right?
Right.
Right.]
Wonderland took - it stole it.
[The power of the RESET is no longer in their hands, and now it's someone else entirely. It can't be him, they have to agree. Even when he was here, he couldn't so much as LOAD his file.
It's Wonderland.
That power.]
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So... barefoot.
...Why barefoot? They're not in Waterfall.
Focus on being pragmatic - but it probably helps to know why you're being pragmatic.]
Let's just agree now that if it's obviously beyond our power to Reset, then each Reset this event brings is not our fault. We'll be much more useful to everyone if we aren't paralyzed or distracted by useless feelings of guilt.
[They say, as if that'll do absolutely anything to prevent either of them from drowning themselves in guilt, ha ha.
Drowning. Just an innocuous word choice. Why were they thinking of Waterfall?]
...It's not raining outside.
[An incongruous statement. Has nothing to do with what they were saying. Thinking faster than they're speaking, falling back on the expectation that the person they're talking to is privy to their internal narration.]
Does it mean something, if I'm thinking about rain? We're better at remembering than most are. That should still apply.
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Sans might come asking. He's always been perceptive. And maybe...Max, too. Leonard? Dipper? They should make a list of the people who would know when time's started to get messed up - people who might be able to figure out what's causing this. Could it be using them, Wonderland? Like a catalyst, rising and rising?
...they can't think about that just now. Start from the beginning.]
Water. It feels important.
[Eyes go to their phone, left on the bedside table. There's the prickle of familiarity as someone starts to speak on one of the video broadcasts, a man with an accent they can't place.]
I've heard this before.
[It sounds curt, even if they don't intend for it to. Reminiscent of another time.
* I've read this already.]
We could talk to the other people who know about this stuff. Max. She knows, right?
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[Don't even realize they're just naming the exact same people Frisk already thought of, minus the one they don't like. Have they heard this before, too? Have they already had this conversation once before? Twice before? More than that?
It's disconcerting, not being able to dig. Defining yourself as memory, in every sense of the word, only to hit a True Reset that's even more powerful than your last, desperate Hail Mary. Maybe they are still dreaming, after all. Maybe this is all just a bad dream...]
But calling for help won't do any good.
[Calling for help never does any good.
You're never waking up.]
...We have to be able to get something open. We wouldn't be thinking of water if we couldn't get at any water, would we?
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[They move toward the door, then. Phantom memories of tightening fingers around the knob and pulling and pulling, and the thing refusing to give away, as though vacuum-sealed.
What could do something like that?]
The network's got to still be working.
[It's not quite a refutation. Calling for help never does any good, but they've called for help before. Called for help, and people have come. Or refused to call for help at all - and still, people come.
They aren't alone. Not anymore.]
abuse ment cw
[Doubt the network will have answers, somehow. Nobody understands resets, nobody can figure out why they had that special power. Had to figure that part out themselves, making guesses about human magic and pooling determination. Everyone else was content to just call them abnormal. An anomaly.
...But they're not resetting. Why would that bitterness even matter? It's not them. Is it? It can't be them. They don't have the power to lock doors and windows.
They go to the windowsill, crowded as it is with Frisk's flowers, their flowers, the single golden flower Wonderland left in their stocking. It's not raining here.
They don't feel any better, though.
It won't open. Struggling won't make it open.]
Why lock us in, in the first place?
[Is that... is it their doing, after all? Memories of being a taught a lesson about thinking you could hide in the closet, memories of wardrobe knobs tied together? Some sort of metaphorical extension of parents who were only worried for your safety, found a brochure you tucked up your sleeve during a church retreat and decided you couldn't go on those anymore. Got tired of your running away and got suspicious and angry when you took too long to walk home from school, who didn't let you go to other kids' houses, who searched your room and upended your backpack and locked down the internet so you would stop googling things like "parents touch me" or "help dad hits" or "dictionary.com word for not boy or girl." Things that put ideas in your head.
Is this their fault after all?]
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[It just won't - open is the thing. And that's when they dig their heels in, settling their mouth into a firm, determined line, and pull.
The thing swings open with the loud, pneumatic hiss of a vacuum seal popping, and Frisk staggers back with the unexpected nature of it, the force of it, nearly losing their balance entirely and going sprawling against the ground. And the subtle significance of concepts like rain and wet abruptly occurs to them as they stare at the veritable wall of water that floats there, inert, as though a pane of glass separates them from the rest of it.]
...I guess that's why we thought it was raining.
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[Not the most eloquent reply, but their brain chugs for a moment as it struggles for a reasonable way to leap to the conclusion this must be their fault. They don't exactly have a ton of memories of living underwater, after all. They can't quite find a way to wrestle this into being a metaphor for the wrongness of their existence just yet, try as they might. All they can do is gape in confusion at the neat wall of solid H2O outside their doorway.]
Um.
...Okay, I'm stumped. If the Resets are our fault, then how did we do this?
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[It's a vague guess at best, and it falls woefully short. Waterfall might've been wet, but they've never...in all their long lists of deaths, all the various ways for their SOUL to shatter, drowning was never one of them. They might have fallen from a bridge, wind tearing at their hair, to land, again, on a patch of golden flowers in the garbage dump (there's a cruel joke nesting there, they know there is), but they'd never been at risk to actually drown.]
...this doesn't make sense.
[Repetition of a fact everyone already knows. Their phone pings, softly, and they glance vaguely its way. It's Sans.
(Again, maybe?)]
Maybe...maybe it's one of the others. Other people who know about how time works.
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[Max, Dipper, Sans... uh...
Nope. None of them live in a pineapple under the sea.]
Either somebody's got a secret we definitely would never have guessed, or maybe... Wonderland is trying to trick us?
[Maybe they're the only ones experiencing resets, so they think this event is their fault. Maybe everyone's experiencing something different. Maybe they're actually crazy, and there isn't water there at all, because water should spill into an open room instead of staying put. Maybe they're seeing things and none of this is real. Can they really be sure that this is real?]
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[Then again, it's...not like they can know for sure, that they know every possible time traveler in the mansion. There could be plenty of others lying low, who aren't as forthcoming about their secrets as Frisk and Chara and Dipper and Sans might be. As Max tried not to be.]
It could be anyone. Anyone who has a special power they never told anyone about.
[And yet, they sound decidedly uncertain. They know a RESET when they feel one, and it's...not very fun at all, being caught on the receiving end of one, ha ha. It's unpleasant, not being the one in control, isn't it?
...
This is what they put everyone through.
They suppose KARMA really does catch up to everyone, in the end.]
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[What's the point in hiding what you are at all? Behold, the demon that comes when people call its name. Why pretend you don't have a special power, when that special power is the only part of you that people are willing to acknowledge at all?]
Wonderland will drag it out eventually. And then it'll be a big dumb surprise, like, oh, hey, one of us can only time travel while their house is mostly filled with flavorless jello! At least if people weren't keeping secrets, we'd know what we're supposed to do with this... antigravity water?
[They snort, shake their head. Part their lips, almost say something else, but the world cuts it short. The world shudders to a halt, and with all the jarring suddenness of reloading a state, dives from one frame to another.
Reset.]