It may very well be the worst thing that's ever happened to you! | OPEN MINGLE

[vitaelamorte]

Who: EVERYONE!
Where: EVERYWHERE!
When: Friday October 27th - Tuesday October 31st
Rating: PG-13, warn if you're gonna go higher!
Summary: A catch all for the Horrible Memory Truth Event!
The Story:

For the duration of this event, everyone's entire room will be replaced with a memory playing on loop. They will likely recognize the moment as soon as they see it – it is a moment they remember as the worst moment of their entire lives. It could be a memory from home or something that happened in Wonderland. Lengths of the memories will vary, but they will find that these are not memories they can merely watch – they can step into these memories and attempt to make changes to them, and the memories will be long enough that they have time to make changes (though no more than 24 hours). However, anyone who tries will find that it is futile. No matter what you do or how hard you try, the outcome is always exactly the same somehow. No changes you make will prevent that horrible outcome. It just happens over and over and over again no matter what you do.

On top of that, perhaps complicating any attempts to make changes, everyone will be forced to be honest for the duration of the event. No lies or half-truths are allowed, and filters will be gone for the entire five days. If something bothers someone then they will blurt it out, regardless of whether or not it hurts someone's feelings, and no one will be able to simply keep quiet when they have something to say. They must be truthful and honest with every word they say.

This is a catch-all log for all of your Worst Memory needs! Please mark your threads clearly in the subject line with your character's name and Room Number + Floor for character rooms, or just location if you're making a top level for a public place in the mansion (like the tea rooms or the kitchen) so people can see if there's already a thread available. And here's the plot post if you need it!

Have fun!

Comments

[moraloutrage]

[Ishimaru has already set up his own tent closer to the lake. With that out of the way, he was taking a walk towards the forest to try to gather firewood.

But he came to a halt, utterly flabbergasted as he witnessed a familiar figure by the trees.]

Th-the blue fairy?!

[That mysterious person from his dreams?? Has he finally found her?]

You truly are real!

[ssmisery]

[...What. The boy is getting such a look. Even aside from the question of how well Lapis can be bothered to remember that dreamwalk encounter, she still has no clue what that means. On the plus side, this is one of those beautiful moments where she'd probably be responding more or less the same regardless of the honesty dealie.]

I have no idea what you're talking about.

[moraloutrage]

Ah! [She does not seem to remember.]

Well, that's alright! When I first saw you, it was in a dream! Or something that seemed to be a dream! I am still not sure.

However, I am honored to finally meet you in person! Is your son with you? [He glances around expectantly.]

[ssmisery]

My son?

[Absolutely incredulous. Unfortunately, the other details are enough to call to mind where she's seen this guy before, surreal though it may have been. Between that incident and the notion of applying human reproduction to herself, it's hard to say which is more disgusting. Truthiness is unable to tone down her harshness very much, but it does make her more direct about it, which she resents.]

What you mean is you went snooping around in my mind. What is a fairy and why do you think I have a son?

[moraloutrage]

Is - is that what happened? [He responds, puzzled, but then he gasps as she realizes what she means.] So you do remember?! If... there was any trespassing on my part, it was completely unintentional! I apologize! [Ishimaru bows quickly for a moment before he addresses her questions.]

As for your questions? Well, you see, a fairy is a legendary being! It is small, enchanted and with wings, and it often bears some sort of powerful magic! As for your son... Well, in that time, I saw you with a small brown haired-boy quite often. I felt certain that the two of you must be related!

[ssmisery]

[...Ah. Lapis currently can't help but get a little wistful at that, although she's still perturbed as well. Motherhood is not a natural concept for gems, and it wouldn't occur to her to try and imagine her relationship with Steven that way. Even aside from the whole thing where being his mother means sacrificing your existence, and all that. He's so important to her, and in a way Ishimaru's dumbass assumption is almost sweet, but... there's something deeply wrong about the thought too, some crawling unsettling sorrow.]

No. No, he's not my son. Do you just assume every two people you see together are related?

[moraloutrage]

N-no, I typically do not! I apologize for my assumption! [He gives a quick bow of apology!]

Come to think of it, there did not even see much of a resemblance between you two. ...Could it be that the two of you are instead teacher and student?!

[ssmisery]

He's a friend. I... owe him a lot. [This is becoming very awkward very fast.]

[moraloutrage]

So the two of you are friends. That is quite heartwarming! It is not often that bonds of friendship are forged between two people of such different ages! I'm honored to have witnessed multiple scenes of it!

[ssmisery]

I don't get what you're thinking, but I'm thousands of years old. I'm not a human.

[moraloutrage]

Ah! Is that so? You look very young for your age! ...But, I suppose that you do not look necessarily human! May... I inquire about your species?

[ssmisery]

Yes --

[Which is audibly not the complete answer, because this honesty event is thorough and cheats by technicality aren't allowed. Lapis knows perfectly well that there's no getting around a straightforward answer to a straightforward question, and decides rather to run with it. Somehow, this seems a little like a shame, but she's way past caring about that kind of thing these days anyway.]

We've talked before. I'm Lapis Lazuli.

[moraloutrage]

L-Lapis Lauzuli...?! [Ishimaru gasps as the dots connect together. Could it be?!]

That... that is the name of my friend who is a gem and texts with me every now and then! Are you saying that...?

[ssmisery]

I mean, I probably wouldn't have used the word "friend".

[moraloutrage]

N-no? Well, why not?! Do gems have a different term for friendship?

[ssmisery]

Not really. A few network conversations just doesn't make me your friend, especially when I wasn't really invested in them, was messing with you for a decent portion of them, and still don't particularly care about you one way or another.

[The really distressing thing is that, even with all this honesty, Lapis doesn't have the decency to act like she regrets saying this. Normally she'd probably at least need to be provoked before she got quite this harsh, but it is still true, she doesn't really care, and there are worse things to be than harsh.]

-- And neither does you invading my privacy by accident. I'm absolutely someone who'll hold that against you even though it wasn't your fault. Frankly, you're lucky I'm not holding more of a grudge about it as it is.

[moraloutrage]

...Ah. [So there it is. The brutal truth. Ishimaru bows his head sadly with a slight tremble as he processes that. After all the time that they've shared with each other, she doesn't care at all.]

I... I see.

[Blinking back tears, he proceeds to bow deeply.]

All that I can do is offer my sincerest apologies! I am sorry that I misunderstood the meaning of our past conversations, and of course I am sorry a hundred times over for witnessing your memories!

[ssmisery]

[okay if she knew she was making him cry that might be enough to make her feel bad. Still, Lapis never has really cared for Ishimaru's whole weird hyper-polite deference; that's how things got to this point in the first place. It's even worse in person, and it's definitely starting to feel awkward.]

Why would you care that much? It's not like I've been especially nice to you, or we talked about anything interesting. I seriously doubt we have much in common.

[moraloutrage]

But... Even if you doubt it, we do not know for sure! [He says as he rises with a finger pointed dramatically towards her.]

I still found value in our conversations. And I have wished to be friends with you! But I understand that... that for this to happen, you have to put in an effort, too! We both have to try!

[ssmisery]

Well there's the problem. I don't try. Especially not with people, unless I already have a reason to like you.

[moraloutrage]

I... I see. That certainly is a problem! [He looks down at the ground with a frown.]

Does that mean that, despite my efforts, I have not shown myself to be likeable at all?!

[ssmisery]

Kinda. [goddamn, Lapis --

However, much as she'd like to stop there, she does not. Now she's becoming a bit more visibly vexed by the words coming out of her mouth.]

But it's probably more about me keeping everyone at a distance. I don't even really want to get attached to more people in the first place, and especially not here.

[moraloutrage]

[The truth hurts!

But he listens to the rest of what she says attentively.]

What? Why not? I... I can understand feeling hesitant in this place specifically, because of how temporary people can go home! [That's one truth that he can't hide.] But, even so, bonds with others are very important! I don't know how I endured as long as I did before I started making a number of important friends!

[ssmisery]

[Lapis grits her teeth as her hands come up to clutch at her elbows. There's no getting around answering a direct question, but when it's so broad she can at least focus on some parts over others. She can. She doesn't want to do any of this, but she can manage that much.]

Because I hate this place. [She begins with full vehemence; she certainly has no problem saying that.] I hate it so much. I hate being here, and I would -- I wouldn't do anything to get out, but I'd do a lot. So of course there's no point getting attached. It would just make things more complicated. And...

[You wouldn't even think it was possible for her to get even more tense, but here she goes.] And a lot of me still doesn't want to do anything that's going to make it more bearable, or make me less miserable here, because I still feel like that would be giving up.

[moraloutrage]

[That sure is an explanation! Her arguments strike at the heart of his assumptions and his own feelings about this place, but he stands and weathers it. Ishimaru frowns seriously and offers a nod.]

I... I see. If you feel that way about this place, then I can see how you would feel that way! My own feelings on this place are more mixed. Even though there are horrible things, there are great things as well. Some of the people here... They have been saved from horrible, life-threatening situations! S-some people can only live full lives here in this world!

That is why... I myself would not want to leave this place behind. [He takes a breath, and he looks at her as he tries to put more thoughts to words.] B-but I do not think that making it more bearable would be giving up. It could just be... compromising, for the time being!