+ Guilt Runs Deep

[vitaelamorte]

Who: Everyone!
Where: The Mansion
When: Feb 23-25
Rating: Please warn in top level subject lines for potential triggers/NSFW
Summary: Various residents are trapped in their own guilt, watching their guiltiest memory play on a loop.
The Story:

Welcome to the gathering post for the event. Please see the plotting post for more information + the bulletin board link. Have fun!

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[holyshihtzu]

"It's happened already? How is that even possible?"

The answer is, of course, Wonderland. But Juliet has yet to see an event in quite as full swing as this one, and she's yet to grasp the kind of psychological warfare that has befallen so many people here and will continue to.

"Are you okay?"

[oneagainstall]

"It happened back home. Like...jesus. A couple of days before I came here. So nearly a year ago, now, I guess."

Jesus, he's been here for nearly a whole damn year. The fuck is THAT about? He looks at Woody, frowning.

"I dunno. I guess. I forgot how fuckin' mad that made me. "

[holyshihtzu]

"Something tells me this is about a lot more than just being mad."

Juliet has seen a lot of emotions in the last few days, but they all seem to boil down to one thing. Sadness. Regret. It makes sense why she isn't trapped herself, because she's never been in any situations that would elevate such a passionate reaction.

[oneagainstall]

"Maybe."

It takes a while for Gren to say that- unhappy, rumbling, reluctant. He's so so angry at Woody. He fucking ruined everything. And yet...yet he knows Juliet's right. It's not just about that.

"I dunno. He fuckin' broke Holly's heart. He fucked everything up when it was already really goddamn shitty," but but. "...But he don't got nowhere else to go. I dunno where he is now. He just...fuckin' left town. Vanished."

Without a soul to count on, when he was already feeling pretty low. Gren was angry- he's still angry. But he still has Holly. And Woody is alone.

[holyshihtzu]

She nods thoughtfully. It's pretty clear to her what the implication of his words are. Although she cares about Gren, Juliet has never quite understood why he is so prickly and mean. Granted, she spends a lot of time--maybe too much time--worrying about other people's feelings, and she's never blown up with someone enough to actually run them out of town.

It's Gren's feelings she's preoccupied with now, and she reaches out to place her hand gently on his arm.

"It's not your fault. No matter what you said, it was his choice to leave. You shouldn't blame yourself."

[oneagainstall]

Gren is most certainly the type to run someone out of town- which is decided improvement to when he just ate whoever was fucking him off that day. Still, none of those people had ever been his friend- someone he genuinely cared for and trusted. A line had been crossed, and he's not sure if Woody was the only one who crossed it.

The fact he allows Juliet to touch him with chewing her face off speaks volumes for how much she means to him. He exhales gruffly.

"Yeah...I guess. I mean...shit, he chose to fuck everything up, he didn't have to do any of it. He knew it'd end this way."

He fucking knew. But hey, at least there's a door to escape from now, hazzah.

[holyshihtzu]

Juliet sees the door, and it's an out, at least, but she knows there's going to be more of a journey ahead for Gren. His attitude and the way he pushes people away constantly is making more sense to her the more she gets to know him, but breaking down those walls is a long process.

Luckily, Juliet is patient. And stubborn.

"We all makes choices sometimes that we know might hurt ourselves and others in the end," she says gently, completely unaware of how that statement will one day hit close to home for her. "But even if it won't fix anything, it's never too late to forgive."

[oneagainstall]

Patience and a stubborn streak are the prime personality traits to break down Gren's walls and get close to him. She's already done a lot better than most ever have, in thousands of years. She's already triumphed where many, many more have failed.

"Guess so. He's long gone now, anyway."

Gone off into the mundy where Gren can't follow. Not that Gren would chase him- not at all. He needs to stay at home with Holly. He's literally all Holly has now.

"C'mon. Let's get the fuck outta here."

[holyshihtzu]

"Yeah, okay."

Juliet knows Gren has a long way to go when it comes to compassion - not for others, even, but for himself. The fact that he has let her in and allows her to care about him, and the fact that he has what he does with Misty, has gone a long way in her seeing how good Wonderland has been for him. All she can do is hope nothing else changes too drastically and he ends up worse off.

But at least they are out, and on their way to better things. And she's perfectly willing to keep helping him get out of any situation she needs to.